Undeserving (Undeniable #5)(77)

"I'm so sorry," she whispered frantically. "Oh God, Preacher, I'm so sorry."

She curled her legs around his back, her arms around his quaking shoulders, and just held him as tightly as she could.

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Preacher jolted awake. His head was pounding, throbbing in time to the beat of the heavy-handed knock at the door.

Sluggish and blurry-eyed, he untangled himself from Debbie and swung his legs out of bed. The movement caused the pressure and pain in his head to worsen and he spent several seconds only kneading his forehead with the heel of his palms. Everything hurt. His hands hurt. His face hurt. Breathing hurt. Thinking hurt.

Another round of knocking echoed through the motel room.

Cursing, Preacher shot to his feet, then cursed again when the pain in his head tripled.

"I'm coming!" he ground out and stalked quickly across the room. He threw open the door and found Joe, his fist hanging in mid-air. His eyes were bloodshot, puffy, and ringed in red. His usually tan skin was a sickly shade of pale.

Seeing Preacher, Joe shoved his hands into his pockets. "Hey."

"Hey."

"How's your face?" Joe's gaze dropped to Preacher's blood-encrusted hands and his eyes narrowed. Peering around Preacher inside the destroyed motel room, Joe's eyes widened. "Shit, man. That's gonna cost us a fortune."

Leaning back against the doorjamb, Preacher looked past his brother. "Yeah." 

"We gotta be back at the sheriff's office in a few hours."

They both glanced to where the police cruiser was parked. They'd been told the extra company was for their protection, but they knew bullshit when they saw it. The law was here to ensure the Silver Demons stayed put.

"You gotta control yourself."

"Yeah."

"Ain't gonna be long before the Feds get wind."

Preacher nodded in agreement. He wouldn't be surprised to find out that the Federal Bureau of Investigation was already on their way. According to the law, the Silver Demons were considered a gang. But they weren't just any gang; they were a gang with ties to a well-known east coast crime syndicate. Because of that working relationship, the Feds had been breathing down their necks for quite a while.

So far they'd been unsuccessful at proving the Silver Demons' affiliation with the mob and their attempts to infiltrate the club. Desperate, they'd since resorted to picking off individual members. Preacher had been the third Silver Demon to be locked up for a low-level crime as part of the FBI's continued attempts to break them down.

"How's Max?" Preacher eventually asked. Yesterday Max had been inconsolable. He'd cried for hours, bordering on hysteria until out of nowhere he'd shut down. He'd stopped crying. He'd stopped speaking, too. He'd just sat there, his limp, unfocused gaze staring off at nothing.

"He's sleepin' now." Joe ran a shaking hand through his hair. "You know he's got another year of school left?"

"We'll figure it out," Preacher muttered.

Joe began to turn, then paused. "Hey, uh, do you think this was Reaper … " He trailed off, his throat noticeably bobbing.

Preacher gritted his teeth and closed his eyes, refusing to succumb to his rising emotions. He was well aware of what had transpired yesterday. Doc was gone. His parents were …  gone. But for sanity's sake, he couldn't quite bring himself to think about the finality of it and hope to remain in any sort of control of himself. The mess he'd made in the motel room was proof enough of the edge he was teetering on.

Even now he felt precariously close to slipping into the black abyss that beckoned. And he knew that if he slipped, he wouldn't be crawling back out anytime soon.

"No," Preacher rasped. Clearing his throat, he straightened and forced himself to face his brother. "Reaper ain't that stupid."

Reaper West was a lunatic, but Preacher was positive he wasn't so insane as to exact a hit that would undoubtedly have the police looking his way. In fact, Preacher didn't think it was a rival club hit at all. It certainly didn't feel like one. The police, while questioning him, had revealed several particularly gruesome details that led him to believe this had been the mob's doing.

At the moment a mob hit was the only scenario that made any sense. The mob liked to deliver a message in the goriest way possible, and the mob certainly didn't have any qualms about taking out innocent family members.

His mother's face crept into his thoughts and Preacher nearly choked. Clenching his fists, he forced her away. He couldn't do this here. Right now he had to keep his shit together.

"You think the Rossis did this, don't you?" Joe pressed his fingertips over his eyes and scrubbed. His already bloodshot eyes grew even redder.

"I don't know," Preacher admitted. "But I'm gonna find out. Did Dad mention somethin'? Was he havin' trouble with anyone?"