Underestimated Too(27)

“You hated me,” I point blank reminded him.

“I did hate you. I hated that you were messing everything up for me. I was supposed to get all of this myself with Skyler. You weren’t supposed to be here. But, I didn’t hate you for long. Do you know I spent hours watching you?”

“What do you mean?”

“When I was away or even here in my office, I watched you all the time. I couldn’t get enough of you. You amazed me.”

I snorted and looked into his lying eyes.

“I’m serious. No matter what I did to you, I couldn’t break you. Your spirit returned as soon as I was out of the picture. I used to love watching you read those stupid scary books. It made me laugh when you’d sit up, panicked at what was going on in your books. I loved it even more when I made you read the books that I downloaded on the e-reader for you. I couldn’t wait to get home and take care of the twist in your hips for you.”

“You never did that. You wouldn’t let me come, remember?”

“I did sometimes.”

“Whatever, get back to Skyler. You sucked at letting me come. You used it as a form of punishment.”

“Even when I would sneak Skyler with me on trips, I watched you. One of my favorite things to do was watch you in the kitchen with Rebecca. Where you could be so silly. It made me smile. Knowing you were that strong, that no matter what I did to you, you could still do that and love life, made me appreciate you. I got to a point where I had to get alone to see you before I could touch Skyler. She didn’t do for me what you did.”

“Because you didn’t force her to do it.”

“Maybe, but the fact still remains, I was falling for you for a very long time. You can’t tell me you didn’t know that. We had moments, you know we did. What about Callaway’s birthday? Remember that night, Morgan?”

I smiled, remembering the night he was speaking of. “We both got drunk that night. We were dancing and making out on the floor in front of everyone. We made love in the driveway before we ever made it in the house, and then again in your bed. You held me in your arms that night and kissed me more than you ever had before.”

“We made love in the car because you boldly raised your dress and straddled me in the front seat. That was the first and only time I remember you ever taking the control.”

“You have a hard time handing over control.”

“I do. Please don’t ever think Skyler could come close to the way I feel about you. I have been over her for a very long time.”

“Was that the last time you were with her?”

“No, I was with her on and off for quite some time and then after you left me for a bit. Not long, it wasn’t the same as it was before. I didn’t love her at all. I wanted you.”

“I’m sorry I’ve been a bitch all day.”

“It’s okay. I’m sure I’ll be a bitch when you start talking about that low life Dawson.”

“I’m sure of that too, but in Dawson’s defense. He was never anything but good to me.”

“Yeah, he was fucking your best friend on the side. He was quite loyal to you.”

“Shut up. You don’t know anything about that. He spent months alone with her, looking for me. I’m sure he fought it as much as she did.”

“Yeah, come on let’s get out of the tub. I have to punish you for being a bitch all day.”

“That might make me be a bitch tomorrow too,” I warned with a teasing smile.

“Then I will have to punish you tomorrow too. You have to go meet that auctioneer at Callaway’s tomorrow.”

“Yeah, I know. Are you keeping little man?”

“Yes, but I’m serious about hiring someone.”

“Okay, but I just want Marta back. I don’t trust anyone else.”

“You know I can see everything that goes on in this house. If I don’t like the way she is with my son, she won’t be here for long.”

***

I didn’t like any of the nannies that came for an interview. They didn’t act like Marta at all. They were serious, there to do a job. Marta didn’t mind sitting on the floor, playing with my little guy. She loved him. These girls didn’t.

“You seriously don’t like any of them?” Drew asked after the last one had left.

I turned Nicholas to face me. “No, we didn’t, did we, Nicky? Nicky says no. Sorry,” I teased being a smart ass, bouncing Nicholas up and down on my lap.

“You’re impossible sometimes. You do know that, don’t you?”





Chapter 10





I spent the next two Thursdays learning more about the relationship my husband had with Skyler and trying not to be mad about it. I had no right to be upset over that. I hated him then, most of the time, anyway. I tried my best to keep my mouth shut and only listen to Drew as he described parts of his life I’d never known about, some, I didn’t want to know.