I didn't like the sound of that. "I won't have nightmares anymore. I faced those issues today."
Q stopped behind me. "That may be true, but I'm all for making sure." He ran a harsh hand down my spine. He stepped to the side; I tensed for a wallop. "But maybe I'm not talking about your nightmares anymore."
His hand darted to the side, reaching something I couldn't see. I sucked in a breath as the same hand slinked around my hips, moving toward my pussy. His touch caused me to press my head harder against the table, cursing my trembling legs.
Without a word, Q stroked my folds, smearing my wetness with forceful fingers. My eyes snapped shut as sparks erupted from his touch, then popped wide as something firm and unyielding clamped around my clit.
It throbs. Fuck, it throbs.
"Q?"
"You get one question. After that, I refuse." His voice thickened with his accent.
I squirmed, trying to figure out what he'd pinched on my clit. For the life of me I had no idea. "What did you use?"
Q rubbed my back and ass as if I were a prized horse he was about to mount. "It's a clothes peg. And before you ask, everything I use on you tonight is what I've found around here. I didn't come prepared-but I do know pain is pain-regardless of what causes it."
He dropped his head, dragging his teeth over my hip. "Now shut up, esclave, and let me savage you."
My eyes watered; my clit burned and thrummed with every heartbeat. The cinch of the peg kept me on edge, compounding the orgasm I desperately wanted.
Having Q touch me gave a small sense of relief. If he stroked me, he wasn't far enough away to whip or use any other item he may've found. But then he stepped away, leaving me cold and totally vulnerable.
Oh, God.
The first strike bit into my skin like a thousand insects.
Insects.
My legs gave out-the table supported all of my weight.
My mind split into two pieces. Flashbacks swarmed.
"We'll beat you bloody, pretty girl."
"I'm going to fuck you, puta. You're next."
"Hurt them, or we'll hurt you."
The horror of Rio sucked me backward, then other memories came thick and fast.
"How long have you wanted this, Tess? How long have you wanted to be fucked?"
"I'm in love with you. You've stolen everything but given me so much in return."
"Your pain is my pain. You honour me by letting me mark you."
My body wanted Q's dark medicine but my mind fought off the lustful haze, running away from pleasure into grief.
No! I didn't want to. I wanted to stay strong.
"Tess." Q leaned over me, tapping my cheek. "Reste avec moi." Stay with me. "Only concentrate on now. Not then. Claim it back."
I moaned, cursing myself. I thought I was free. I felt as if I had too many layers. Layers upon layers of complications. I'd freed myself from one, only to find another.
The pool table creaked as Q leaned on it, brushing away a curl from my eyes. I looked up, locking onto his gaze. Brandishing whatever he'd used, he trailed it down my back, making me shiver. "I'm going to punish you every time you let your thoughts drift."
My nipples stiffened against the felt. Seeing Q destroyed all my thoughts, granting me strength to embrace what I needed. I nodded.
"Every time you shy away from pain, I'll punish you. It's for your own good. "
I nodded again, not trusting my voice.
Q gave me a look so full of adoration and togetherness, I knew I wouldn't have to fight to keep my thoughts in the present. He'd taken me utterly hostage.
"Good girl," he murmured, leaning off the table. His fingers found my pussy again and I arched my hips into his palm. A single finger pressed inside, conjuring liquid and need, while his knuckles knocked the peg on my clit. Intense stars bolted down my legs.
The next hit came as a total surprise, across the back of my thighs.
More insects filled my mind.
Spiders.
Termites.
Beetles.
Just like my hallucinations in Rio.
A headache built behind my eyes, trying to ignore the past and focus only on Q.
Q removed his touch, smearing my dampness over my lower back. "Tess...." he growled. "Don't make me warn you again." His voice resonated with anger. "Conquer your fear." He struck. "Rule your pain." He struck again. "Find pleasure in your terror." And again. "You're stronger than this."
His voice was a spotlight in the never ending void sucking me down. I latched onto it, holding tight.
He hit me again. Different spot. Different pain. The fear came thick and sickly sweet, but I managed to ignore the memories.