Fuck … this wouldn't end well.
I loved that she stood up to her nightmares and seemed to be winning. I loved that by standing up to me, I could change the theme of her dreams by backing down, eradicating the horror forever.
What I didn't love was the unforgiving need making my brain bleed and teeth turn to dust in my mouth. Just a little longer.
I curled my hands so hard my short nails punctured flesh, growing slippery with blood.
Not moving muscle, I ordered, "Get in the bath."
One thing.
Just one thing left to do to shatter what I believed to be the main issue. Then I'd be free. My job would be over, and I could run like the fucking animal I was.
When Tess didn't move, I towered to my full height, glowering into her eyes. "Get. In. the. Fucking. Bath."
Tess cowered, the strength spluttered and fizzed. She took a hesitant step toward it.
Then iron replaced her bones, slamming her to a halt. She stood regal and proud and entirely fucking naked making my throat close up with how much I wanted to hurt her.
"No. Fuck you." With a roar, she flew at me. Her palm slapped my face, sending my head snapping sideways.
And that was it.
I was done.
Control snapped.
Sanity slipped.
Needs roared to life.
My hand came up, wrapping around her throat. So, so breakable. "How about I fuck you? Then we'll see who walks away." I threw her against the wall, sliding her upward so her feet dangled off the ground. She weighed nothing. Absolutely nothing compared to the monster's fury.
Tess sliced at my hands with her nails, choking in my hold. "You always were pathetic. Making up for your lack of cock." Tess's hands suddenly stopped fighting me, dropping to squeeze my erection.
I swayed; my forehead crashed against the tiled wall.
No. No. Yes. Yes.
The monster tore at my brain.
Headache.
Lust.
Need.
I shoved my hips into her hand, making her cry out in pain. Her cries made me pant for more-made me fucking delirious.
Her eyes popped wide. "So you do have a cock. You must've had cosmetic surgery, you bastard, because when you raped Blonde Angel you were infested with spiders and the size of my little finger."
Confusion collared the beast and I blinked. Holy shit, I'd been so close. She didn't see me. She didn't know it was me. And I refused to take her when she was so far out of my reach-so removed from the truth.
Her hand squeezed my cock, deliberately hurting. But I was beyond pain now. I wanted pain. I wanted her to punish me, so I could come so fucking violently I'd pass out. My vision went black.
Not yet. You're so close. Get it together.
Somehow, I did the hardest thing in my life.
Dropping her, I kicked her away, almost doubling over with the need lacerating my blood.
"I told you. Don't fucking touch me." I had to finish this. Now.
Even sprawled on cold tiles, lost in a sea of darkness, Tess glowed like a cosmos or brand new galaxy. She looked fresh and completely unbroken. She licked her lips, saying in the coldest, strongest voice I'd ever heard. "You know what I just realized? I'm not scared of you anymore. So fuck off and leave me alone."
She's close. So close.
Happiness and joy spread from my heart, battling back the monsters inside. Just a little more.
I cursed my shuddering body as I loomed over her. "Not fucking scared, huh? Then what are you still doing here? Give me what I want, and I'll let you go."
Ask what I want. Please fucking ask what I want. Then I wouldn't suffer guilt when I raped her. I'd be free to do whatever the hell I pleased.
Her eyes went from grey to star-bright.
Fierce awe shot into my heart.
"I want my freedom."
Yes. I'd done it. She'd demanded it. She'd claimed it. I backed away, fumbling for the door handle to run.
But then her fierceness fizzled; a small cry crawled from her mouth. "No wait! I'm sorry. You've always wanted to fuck me. Do it. A trade. Then I'll know I owe you nothing. Do it and leave me in peace." She sucked in a breath, eyes glassy with tears. "Please, swear if I give you what you want, you'll let me go. Promise you'll never come for me again. Promise you won't make me hurt any more women or sell me or ruin my life. Please!"
She crawled toward me, latching onto my trouser leg. "Please. You wanted me to beg? I'm begging. You told me I would one day. And it's come true. I'm begging you to end this once and for all. I'm giving you what you want in return for freedom."
She climbed my body. I knew I stood no fucking chance of saying no. I would ruin her all when she'd been so damn close.
Her tears rained, sobs taking over her voice. "Please. Promise me that this will be over. How many times do I have to pay?"