The transition from sweet lover to controlling diabolical trafficker happened in a blink. Q, with his gorgeous jade eyes, disappeared. Leather Jacket took centre stage, revelling in his ownership.
He grinned, shedding his jacket and cracking his fingers as if he had a monstrous task before him. His eyes were flat and cold. "Told you, you were mine, puta." Stalking forward, he dragged a finger down my exposed cleavage. "Our first exercise is to clean you. You're fucking filthy."
I swallowed my fear, heart hammering. Please say shower. Please say shower.
Leather Jacket's mouth twisted into a horrendous smile. "It's time for your bath."
The last drip snuffed out my light, transporting me back to Rio, to Mexico, to nightmares.
Intertwined, tangled, knotted forever, our souls will always be twisted together,
our demons, our monsters belong to the other,
Bow to me, I bow to thee, now we are free
What the fuck am I doing?
I had no fucking idea. This wasn't right. It couldn't be right. Nothing about drugging and mentally torturing a woman who'd been through so much was right.
It was a stupid idea-moronic to think I could walk her through the past and replace the memories. I ought to be fucking shot. I'm an idiot.
Tess's eyes were vacant, staring right into mine, but not seeing me. Not anymore. Her lips parted, breathing hard with whatever hallucinations whispered in her ear.
This was worse than the fucking nightmares. This was induced by me. For the next couple of hours I had to shed everything I'd fought so hard and become her worst fears. I had to become the man I'd sworn never to be.
I glared at Tess, hanging and bound. The dressing gown gaped wide, showing her perfect body and luscious breasts. She was sent to make me sin. All my life I'd abstained from my true nature but then cruel fate gave me her.
My hands clenched, unable to deny the billowing blackness settling over me. Creeping from ignorable to fucking intolerable. Each moment I let myself continue this charade, the light inside blotted out until I no longer recognised myself.
The only thing protecting Tess from my snarling scream-thirsty beast was love.
Unconditional love-miraculously keeping me on a leash. She owned my heart and soul. That was the only safeguard preventing me from not giving a shit anymore and diving head first into debauchery.
No one would know … .Something slithered in my brain, whispering sickness and want.
She dangled like a feast-surrounded in darkness, drugged out of her mind. I could do anything … .
My stomach tensed as desire shot up my spine. It would be so easy to mount and fuck her while hanging from the ceiling. I could be cruel and heartless. I could hurt her the way I wanted with no repercussions. She would never know it was me.
You'd be him. You'd walk straight into fate.
My lips curled; I spat on the floor as a rush of bile filled my mouth. To ever think I was weak enough to become my father made me suicidal with rage.
I would never do that to Tess. No matter how my sick cock ached.
Locking my knees, I made an oath. A pact with my fucking soul.
Whatever I did here, I would never overstep two boundaries: rape or blood play. If Tess ever became strong enough to endure my needs, completely sane and willing, then I'd give myself some leniency. But not before and definitely not with an unhinged druggie I was trying to save.
Tess's dilated eyes trained on me, never looking away, despite the haze. "Why-why are you doing this? He'll come for you again, you know." Her head dropped as if suddenly too heavy, the drugs sucking her deeper.
I shuddered at the thought of what she'd been through-what I was putting her through once again.
I knew she didn't see me. She saw them.
The drug did what Franco had said. I'd asked him to find something-a hallucinogenic that lasted a couple of hours. He'd disappeared, returning a little while later with a single yellow pill.
I didn't know the name of the chemical or even where he got it from. And I fed it to the woman I wanted to grow old with. How fucking irresponsible!
My jaw worked hard, grinding my teeth, flaring a rapidly building headache. I'd fed it to her because I made the choice. A choice I already fucking regretted. But it was done now. The only thing left to do was suffer the consequences.
I snapped my fingers in front of Tess's face, making sure she was completely consumed by visions. Time to begin.
"Fuck me, I'm going to hell," I muttered.
Tess sucked in a breath, but there was no flicker of love or comprehension. Rather, her eyes blazed with a hate so pure and piercing, my heart stuttered at the thought of her ever looking at me that way in reality.