Luke’s mouth fell open, a blank expression on his face. “What are you talking about Sadi? I’ve never said I didn’t want children? Did I?”
Sadi slowly shook her head. “No I guess not, you’ve just never said you wanted them.”
Luke's smile was slow to come, but when he finally did smile it lit up his whole face. “I’m happy about this Sadi! I couldn’t be happier! You have nothing to apologize for.” He hugged her to his chest, holding her until her last few sobs subsided.
Finally Sadi pulled away. “I’m scared Luke,” she whispered. “I still have so many things I want to do.”
Luke grabbed her hand and squeezed it. “Me too,” he said. “But we’ll get through it. Every couple does. And in the end we will have a beautiful daughter or son who is our very own. Having a baby is going to change our lives for the better. God Sadi, I feel like you’ve given me my life back. You have given me every reason to hope and to find joy, even without Connor.”
It was one of the few times Luke mentioned Connor and it took Sadi by surprise. She glanced at her husband and could see that he was still grieving for the brother who remained lost, yet there was something else in his eyes: joy, hope, a light that hadn’t been there before.
Luke placed his hand on Sadi’s flat stomach. “I hope it’s a daughter Sadi, and that she looks exactly like her mother. So beautiful. You’ve made me the happiest man in the world, Sadi.”
Sadi smiled. She had felt so desperate only an hour ago but Luke had turned her wild emotions into a joy of her own. She thought about it. There was now a life growing inside her that was half of her, half of Luke. She had a miracle within her body, a child that they had created out of their love for each other.
Sadi stood on her tip toes and kissed Luke firmly. “I love you,” she whispered. She knew it was true, now more than ever before.
Chapter 6
2 Years Later
Sadi lay back in bed, flushed with the glow of lovemaking. She glanced at the bedside clock. It was early yet. Only five. She had got up to check on Connor, their beautiful baby boy, and was satisfied when she found him sleeping soundly.
At eighteen months he was already looking more and more like his father, though when he had been born he had Sadi’s features. It wasn’t Connor that had woken Sadi just after four. It was the cry of their new daughter, Katelyn Rose, only two months old.
She had been wet and hungry but after a diaper change and a bottle, the tiny girl had settled back down in the bassinet. She slept better than Connor ever had, and for that Sadi was relieved. She had returned from the nursery back to her own bedroom, to find Luke awake.
He had given her that smile that still sent waves of desire washing through her. It had been a hard eight weeks to wait after Sadi had given birth, but now she was healed and ready. Luke had taken every opportunity he could to explore her body. He had been eager after Connor was born as well, almost going crazy while Sadi was healing from the birth. After she’d been given the green light by her OB, Luke hadn’t been able to keep his hands off of her. Though she had been tired and exhausted, the feeling had been mutual. Sadi had craved Luke with an intensity that almost frightened her. She had been shocked when she had conceived only a few weeks later.
They weren’t taking any chances this time. Sadi had been back on birth control since right after she’d had Katelyn. The two children were closer in age than Sadi and Luke had planned, though they had known right away after having Connor that they wanted to eventually give him a brother or sister. Now that they had two healthy children, Sadi felt their family was complete. At least for the moment.
The ringing of the phone somewhere down the hall startled Sadi out of the half sleep that she had found after making love with Luke. She was hoping for a few more minutes of rest before she got up and began her day. Sadi and Luke had spoken about hiring a nanny, but for now it was just Sadi looking after the children during the day. She had loved and enjoyed every minute of being a mother, especially after Connor had been born but now that there were two babies, she felt a little overwhelmed.
“Are you going to answer that?” Sadi asked Luke. She wondered who could be calling before six in the morning.
He shook his head. “No. Go back to sleep, it will stop ringing.”
Sadi was about to roll over but the phone kept ringing and then she heard the shrill cry of a newborn from down the hall.
“It woke up the baby,” Sadi said, frustrated.
Luke jumped out of bed, and stalked angrily out of the room wearing only his boxers which he took a couple seconds to put on. Sadi went to grab Katelyn. She could hear Luke’s animated tone from down the hallway.