But, I wanted him, and I wanted us to be an “us”.
I just hoped he did too.
“Honey, whats wrong?”
I’d always thought that mothers had an intuition and a type of sixth sense that I would never understand. Of course, right then, I wondered if maybe I would someday in soon; say, in nine months. I smiled into the phone, sprawled out on my bed and watching the snow fall down on the city of Boston outside my dorm room window.
“It’s nothing, mom, just tired is all.”
“Classes? Oh, you’re not getting stressed about midterms already, are you?”
“No, mom, it’s really nothing.”
Of course, mom wasn’t buying it. “Boy?”
More like “man”, I thought. And then, the tears started to fall, and I couldn’t do a damn thing to stop them.
“Oh, honey!” My mother’s voice soothed me over the phone, but the thought of whatever was happening with Jake and him not calling me back by then had me sniffing back tears nonetheless.
“If he’s no good for you, honey, he’s no good; okay?”
Oh, mom, you have no idea how wrong he is for me.
“No, it’s not that, mom, it’s just...I think maybe I thought it was something it wasn’t.”
I could hear my mother tsk over the phone. “Well, it sounds like he doesn’t deserve you then, sweetie.” She sighed. “Well, I know you always make good choices, so I know you’ll be okay, honey.”
Oh, right; good choices. Good choices like losing my virginity to my way older neighbor, and not using protection, and - oh, by the way - getting pregnant with his child. Those kind of good choices?
“And honey?” My mom cleared her throat. “As long as you’re being safe.”
“Mom!”
“Look, Chelsea honey, why don’t you come home this weekend?”
I brushed the tears out of my eyes and shook my head. “Oh, I can’t-”
“Why not? You’ve got that free day on Monday, honey.” My mom chuckled. “I checked the campus website, you know.”
I laughed, which was more of a sniffling sound than actual laughter at that point.
“We’ll fly you home and everything, how does that sound?”
“No, mom, I couldn’t ask you to do that.”
I could almost hear her shaking her head at me. “Honey, we went you to come home for a weekend. You can just come home, sleep in, and recharge a little; okay?”
Honestly, I was feeling better already at that point. And hey, maybe I could figure out a time to talk to Jake and just tell him what was going -
“Oh, honey!” My mom laughed. “Just wait until you hear the latest neighborhood gossip.”
I felt a lump form in my throat. “Oh?”
“Guess who’s trying to patch things up?
And just like that, I felt my heart drop. I knew right then before she even said another word what she was going to say, and it felt like being stabbed right in the heart.
“Wait, what?”
“Jake and Lenore!
The lump in my throat grew bigger, until I could barely swallow it down. “Jake’s trying to get back with Lenore?” Just saying the words out loud stung.
“Apparently! Well, maybe its the opposite, but that’d be so nice wouldn’t it?”
“Mom she cheated on him!”
My mother sighed. “Now, honey, thats not our business.”
Well it was MY business! And just like that, the idea of going home sounded like the worst idea in the world. That’s why he hadn’t come to visit; it’s why he’d blown me off. He’d had his fun with the young naive girl; he’d gotten what he’d wanted. And now he was going to patch things up with that wench of an ex-wife!
It hurt so bad that I winced, squeezing my eyes shut to try and block the whole scenario out of my head.
“Well too late!” My mom laughed, obvious to the thoughts of hurt and betrayal rushing through my head. “I just bought your ticket!”
I winced again, ribbing my eyes with my hand and feeling my heart sinking through the floor.
“Well, guess we’ll see you Friday, honey!”
Wonderful.
Chapter 22
Jake
“Dammit, why are you here, Lenore?”
It was the fourth fucking day in a row of her showing up here; the six-month pregnant, crazy ex-wife. And one guess why she was suddenly darkening my doorway?