"As do I," said Hellerman.
"Yeah, about that … there's something else I need to tell you."
"What's that?"
Gordon pulled off the road with a sharp tug on the wheel. He turned back to Hellerman and shrugged. "That stuff about me working for the FBI? I lied."
And just like that, without the slightest hesitation, he reached for his grande mocha Beretta M9 and shot Hellerman in the head.
Then he turned the van around and went back to pick up his partner, whom he hadn't really killed.
That was a lie, too.
BOOK ONE
WHAT THE TRUTH KNOWS
CHAPTER 1
HAD IT been anyone else, any other woman, the moment might have registered upward of a 7.6 on the Emasculation Scale, or whatever number it takes to rattle a man's self-confidence until he crumbles.
But this wasn't any other woman. This was Claire.
"What's so funny?" I asked.
Right in the middle of our having sex, she'd burst out laughing. I mean, really laughing. The whole bed was shaking.
"I'm sorry," Claire said, trying to stop. That just made her laugh harder and do that little crinkle thing with her nose that in a weird and wonderful way always made her look even prettier.
"Damn, it's the sex, isn't it? I'm doing it all wrong again," I joked. At least, I hoped I was joking.
As I propped an elbow on the mattress, she finally explained. "I was just remembering that time when you-"
"Really?" I said, immediately cutting her off. "That's what you were thinking about?"
There was a certain something simpatico between Claire and me that allowed each of us to know what the other was about to say or do, based on nothing more than our shared history. For the record, that history was two years of officially dating, followed by the past two years, during which we were just friends (with benefits) because our respective careers had put a major strain on the officially dating thing.
Oddly enough-or maybe not-we'd never been happier together.
Claire wrapped her arms around me, smiling. "Just so you know, I always thought it was cute," she said. "Endearing, even."
"And just so you know, it happened over three years ago and I'm pretty sure I was drunk."
"You weren't drunk," she said.
"Okay, but it was definitely over three years ago. Shouldn't there be some kind of statute of limitations?"
"On a man's first attempt to talk dirty in bed? I don't think so."
"How do you know it was my first time?"
She shot me a deadpan look. "I want to spank you like Santa Claus?"
All right, she had me there.
"Fair enough," I said. "Rookie mistake. In my defense, though, it was right before Christmas."
"Of course," said Claire, "because that's the first rule of talking dirty in bed. Keep it topical."
"Okay, now you're just mocking me."
"No, I'm pretty sure I was mocking you before that," she said. "Tell you what, though, I'm willing to give you a second chance."
"No way."
"Why not?"
"Charlie Brown and the football, that's why," I said.
"I promise I won't laugh this time."
"Sure thing, Lucy."
"No, really." Claire lifted her head off the pillow, gently kissing my lower lip. "Let's see what you've got, Mr. Mann."
I stared at her, waiting for her to say she was only kidding. Calling me by my last name was sometimes a tip-off. Not this time, though.</ol>
"You're stalling," she insisted.
"No, just stumped. Not a lot of holidays in June."
Claire chuckled, playing along. She always played along. "You've got Flag Day next week," she said. "Maybe something about your pole?"
"Very funny."
"Speaking of half-mast, though."
I glanced down beneath the sheets. "Well, whose fault is that?"
Claire suddenly grabbed my backside, rolling me like a kayak. Next thing I knew, she was on top and pushing her long auburn hair back from her eyes.
"Sometimes it just takes a woman," she said.
She then leaned down to my ear and whispered a request that was easily the dirtiest thing I'd ever heard her say. Just filthy. X-rated. Obscene.
And I loved it.
But before I could show her just how much, we both froze to a horrible sound filling the room.
Now I really couldn't believe my ears.
CHAPTER 2
CLAIRE UNATTACHED herself from me, for lack of a more delicate way to describe it, and reached for "the Stopper" on my bedside table. That was my nickname for it. When it rang, everything else stopped.
"I'm sorry," she said before taking the call.
"You and me both," I said under my breath.
In all, Claire owned three cell phones. The first, her iPhone, was for personal use. Friends and family.
The second, a BlackBerry, was for work. Claire S. Parker, as her byline read, was a national affairs reporter for the New York Times.
Her third phone, an old Motorola, was also for work. Except this phone and its number were for a very small and select group. Her sources.
Which was another reason why the Stopper was a good name for this phone. The identity of these sources stopped with her, cold, end of story. Not her editor, not the executive editor, not even Judge Reginald McCabe had ever been told the name of a single source of Claire's.
As far as that last guy, Judge McCabe of the United States District Court, was concerned, he went so far as to charge Claire with contempt when she refused to identify a source after being subpoenaed in a criminal homicide case involving an American military attaché assigned to the UN. That got her thirty-six days and nights at the Taconic Correctional Facility in Bedford Hills, New York. I have to say, she rocked the orange jumpsuit they made her wear.
"Hello?" Claire answered.
The unwritten ground rules for when she took these calls were simple. If I had been at her place downtown, I'd have gotten up and given her some privacy. Since we were at my place, though, I had squatter's rights. If she needed privacy, she'd be the one leaving the bedroom.
But she remained sitting there on the edge of the bed. Naked, no less.
She listened for a few moments, the beat-up old flip phone pressed tight against her ear. Then, her voice high-pitched with surprise, she asked, "Wait, you're here in the city?" Quickly, she began tapping her thumb and forefinger together, twisting her wrist in the air. If I'd been a waiter in a restaurant, I would've been bringing her the check. But I knew what she actually wanted.
I leaned over to the bedside table closest to me, pulling out the drawer. After handing her a pen, I was about to offer up some paper when I saw her reach for a yellow legal pad that was sitting atop a tall stack of books on the floor, also known as my to-read pile. Mostly biographies. Some historical fiction mixed in as well.
As Claire scribbled something on the pad, I stared at the freckles on the curve of her shoulders, hundreds of them. My eyes drifted down her spine and I smiled, thinking of the trip we took to Block Island a few summers ago, when I rubbed suntan lotion on her bikinied back and sneakily left bare a small stretch of real estate spelling out my initials, TM.
"Trevor Mann!" she screamed later that afternoon when she caught a glimpse in the mirror as she stepped out of the shower. After delivering a punch to my shoulder-with more wallop than her thin frame would ever have suggested-she broke up laughing. "I've been trademarked!"
Even now, squinting a bit in the dimness of my bedroom, I could still sort of see most of the T and some of the M. Or so I'd convinced myself.
"Okay, don't go anywhere," Claire said into the phone.
Damn.
I was hoping she'd hang up, turn around, and say, "Now, where were we?" but I knew that was beyond wishful thinking. By the time she looked back at me over her shoulder and all those freckles, I already knew.
"You have to go, don't you?" I said.
She leaned over and kissed me. "I'm sorry."
Those same unwritten ground rules had it that I wasn't supposed to pry. But as I watched her dress, and saw the bounce in her step, I couldn't help myself.</ol>
"You've got something, don't you?" I asked. "Something good."
She nodded with a touch of giddiness.
I stared at her, waiting for something, anything that hinted at what it might be. I must have looked like a dog sitting at the edge of the dinner table, silently begging for scraps.
"I know," she said finally. "But we have to keep some mystery between us, don't we?"
Buttoning the last button on her navy-blue blouse, she returned to the side of the bed and kissed me one last time before leaving.
"Call me in the morning," I said.
She smiled. "Promise."
A little over two hours later, I was jolted awake by the sound of my phone. It was just shy of one a.m.
Claire's older sister was calling from Boston. She was crying and couldn't get the words out. She didn't have to. It was as if I knew the second I picked up the phone. There was a certain something simpatico between Claire and me.
Something terrible had happened.
CHAPTER 3
DETECTIVE DAVE Lamont shook my hand firmly in the front waiting area of the Midtown North Precinct on West Fifty-Fourth Street and led me upstairs to the far back corner of a squad room that was empty and silent, save for the baritone hum of the fluorescent lighting overhead.