"I can't get the zip up, could you . . ." I said, walking down the stairs. Still trying to wrestle the stupid thing on the back of my dress into submission. It must have caught on something. "John?"
Everything in the living room was eerie silence and shadows, still only the small lamp on the side table glowing. But this much I could see: John stood close to someone, another male. A horribly familiar one. Face covered in darkness, clothes hanging off his body. Also, the other person, he had something shiny in his hand pointed straight at my boyfriend. A gun.
"Baby, go back upstairs," said John in a voice that was too calm.
I froze.
"Baby," spat the stranger. "Since when do you call your sluts ‘baby'?"
Oh, shit. Dillon.
My brain crashed, not wanting to make sense of the scene. "What is this?"
"Go back up," John repeated. "Wait for me in my room."
"This isn't even your real home," said Dillon.
"Get upstairs!"
My whole body jolted at the tone of John's voice, the volume. And this . . .
Shoving his gun under John's chin, Dillon snarled, "She's not going anywhere. Get your ass down here, bitch."
I made my way down the rest of the stairs, one step at a time. Part of me was screaming in panic, making even putting one foot in front of the other a frantic challenge.
But another part of me was quiet, insulated from the fear. Truth was, I knew what was happening downstairs even before I saw the gunmetal glint in Dillon's hand. Danger had a smell. A taste. I recognized it in an instant. It was all just as it had been. I was back at the Drop Stop all over again. Beer and blood. Cigarettes and lies.
Except some crazy part of me said that was a lie; that I had never escaped from the Drop Stop. All this time, we had always been here. There had just been me, and John, and a gun with bullets.
I stopped at the bottom of the steps, torn between getting to John's side and getting away from the violence.
"Introduce me properly, little brother."
"This doesn't involve her."
A fist flew, smashing into John's face, once, twice, three times. Then fingers grabbed a handful of his hair, tugging hard. "I'm in charge. You'll both do as you're fucking told."
John's breath hitched in pain. "Dillon, let her go. Just let her go and I'll do whatever the fuck you want. I'll start selling again."
"It's too fucking late for that," said his older brother, still pulling at his hair. "You little shit. This is all your fault, getting out of the business, leaving me on my own."
"I know."
"Get over here," his brother said to me, waving the gun in my general direction.
It wasn't fear that made my hands shake. It was anger. I walked toward him. "You're the asshole who messed with his car and beat him up."
Dillon chuckled, the sick bastard. "I like her. Too fat, but I bet she sucks cock real good. All hungry-like, right?"
John hissed in fury, blood dripping down his chin, onto the ground. My heart stuttered, hurting. The asshole was going to pay for that.
"What do you want, Dillon?" I asked, voice almost calm. "Why are you here?"
"Come to see my little brother." He gave John a shake via the fistful of hair. God, I wanted to kill him. "We've got different business to attend to now. I need your money, all the cash you saved the last few years. I know you've fucking got it."
"You can have it. But she walks out the door unharmed," said John. "Now."
"You're not giving the fucking orders here. How many times do I have to tell you?"
"I won't do shit for you so long as she's here." With the back of his hand, he wiped blood from his mouth.
"Jesus."
"Now, Dillon!"
At this, the man flew into a rage, swinging the gun. It crashed into John's already-battered face as he coldcocked his brother. Bone crunched; I could hear it. John fell to his knees.
"What have you done?" I dropped down at John's side, trying to wipe away the blood, feel for a pulse. Trying to do something.
"Just returning the favor," drawled Dillon. "He broke my nose, so I broke his."
Curled up on the floor, John remained still. I gritted my teeth and tried to calm myself down, tried to find some sign of life. Slowly, his chest moved in and out. Yes. Thank God. And there stood Dillon, towering over us, all smiles. So damn happy with himself, the bastard. Brother or not, I'd kill him.
"You did more than break his nose, you asshole," I said. "He's out cold."
Dillon frowned.
"How do you think you're going to get your money now, huh?" I sneered, more pissed off in my life than I could ever remember being. Hadn't we been through enough already? No. This wasn't happening. I would not do this again.
For a moment, the meth-head just looked confused, blinking over and over again. "Well, we wait for him to wake up."
"No," I said simply. "God, you're so fucking stupid. You didn't think this through at all, did you?"
"Don't talk to me like that."
The gun got shoved in my face, barrel staring me down between the eyes. And there I stayed, on my knees, the perfect target. Didn't matter. One mistake, I just needed him to make one mistake so I could bring the asshole down. If I could get the jump on him . . .
"Smart people put their money in banks, Dillon. What did you think?" I asked. "That he'd have it stashed in his mattress or something?"
"It's drug money. No, there's no way it isn't here somewhere."
"It's in the bank," I singsonged.
"You're lying!"
I was lying. It was easy. Just like John with Chris, trying to get through this alive. If Dillon thought the money wasn't here, he'd just have to go. "We did different deposits at different places. I helped him set it up, to make sure it was safe."
Dillon snarled. "Shut up."
"Fact is, he didn't trust you. I mean, come on, you've been practically stalking him, for fuck's sake." My smile was all teeth. "Hello."
"No!"
"Run, Dillon. Leave. Now. There's nothing for you here."
Just like he had with his brother, he grabbed a handful of my wet hair. The gun pressed hard into my forehead. Bet he thought he'd make me cry or piss myself or beg for my life. Not happening.
"It's just past ten," I said, cool as can be. "We've got friends from the field party coming over soon. Anders and Hang and some of the other guys from the basketball team."
Nervous, his gaze darted to the door.
"Yeah, a whole bunch of them are coming over to smoke some weed and drink a few beers."
"You're lying," he repeated. Though not sounding quite so sure of himself now.
"Why do you think we were upstairs having a quickie? It's Saturday night. Party time, duh. We've got things to do."
The gun shook in his hands, his thin lips drawn wide. "No. No one's coming. Uncle Levi-"
"Can't stand you," I finished for him. "But John he just loves. Drives you nuts, doesn't it?"
"You talk too fucking much." He yanked at my hair, tearing some loose. Tears of pain filled my eyes, but I didn't make a noise. I was done playing victim. And still his hand kept jittering, finger caressing the trigger. "Johnny'll wake up soon. Until then, keep your trap shut."
"If you haven't caused him any permanent brain damage. There could be swelling, internal bleeding." I stopped, saying a quick prayer that this really was all lies. "Is that what you wanted for your brother?"
"I didn't hit him that hard."
"Yes you did."
"Well, I didn't mean to!"
"Oh, I think you did," I said. "He needs an ambulance, Dillon. Medical attention."
Gaze torn, agonized, he stared at John still lying so frighteningly quiet on the floor. That's when I made my move, smacking the gun, trying to knock it out of his hand. I grabbed at his wrist, putting my whole body weight behind it, knocking him off balance. He was taller than me but sickly and rake thin. At least I had weight on him. A startled sort of sound left his throat. We wrestled over the weapon, me trying to drag his hand down and pry his fingers open. It went off. The clap of the noise like a shock wave, weapon discharging. Nothing I hadn't heard before. Pain flashed through me, but adrenaline drowned it out.
His hands were slickened with sweat, but it wasn't enough. I wasn't strong enough.
Eventually, Dillon threw me off, kicking me in the stomach for good measure. Blood dampened my side and I sunk to my knees. Shit. So this was what it felt like to get shot. It sucked, big time.
He backhanded me.
Still I smiled up at him. "Gunshot," I said, a note of triumph in my voice. "Someone's calling the cops right now."
Nose wrinkled, his gaze was incredulous. "You're fucking crazy."
"And you're not the first dickhead to pull a gun on me." I managed a shrug.
Poor Dillon. The frown worsened as he looked between me and John. Down the street, a car honked. Dillon jumped.
"Shit," he muttered. "You're that girl. The one who was at the Drop Stop with him, right?"
"Yep." I grinned, blood dribbling from my lip. "And if you think there's anything I wouldn't do to protect your brother, then you're the one that's fucking crazy."