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True Colours:The You Don't Know Me Trilogy Book 2(33)

By:Mandy Lee


'Maya Scotton? Sara's sister?'

I nod. Her face tightens. And I think I've just met another of my sister's victims.

'But you lived over the road from us.'

'I did.'

'And now you're seeing Dan?'

Jesus, this must be weird for her. She's shaking her head now, ever so  slightly, and it's clear that she's struggling to take it all in.         

     



 

'It's kind of  …  kind of complicated  … ' I stammer. 'How we got together.'

'And he knows you're from here? He knows you're from Limmingham?'

'Yes.'

She stares at me, wide-eyed with confusion. I'm pretty sure I'm about to  be told to sling my hook when she steps back, waving the tea towel in  the direction of the back of the house. 'You'd better come in.'

Stepping over the threshold, I'm ushered through a gloomy hallway into a  kitchen-diner where a set of French windows give out onto a modest  garden. Outside, the sun has come out again and two young boys are  whirling about on the lawn, circling a paddling pool and shrieking with  delight.

'Take a seat.'

She motions to a table. It's littered with pencils, colouring books and  mangled Plasticine figures. I sit down just as the boys skitter into the  kitchen and come to a halt in front of me.

'Who's that?' Clutching an Action Man in one hand, the smaller boy gazes up in awe.

'A friend,' Layla explains, eyeing me suspiciously. 'And this is  Cameron.' She places a palm on the back of his head. 'He's my youngest.  How old are you, Cameron?'

'Three!' he squeals.

'Hi, Cameron.' I smile.

'Did you wee in Ben's bucket?' Layla asks with mock sternness.

'Yes!' He runs back out into the garden.

'And this is Ben.' The taller boy comes forwards, watching me cautiously. 'He's five.'

'Hi, Ben.' I smile again.

'We've got a paddling pool,' he announces proudly.

'Go and play in it,' Layla encourages him.

I watch as Ben runs back out into the garden to join his brother.  Picking up the offending seaside bucket, he slings it across the lawn  before jumping into the paddling pool and disappearing from view.

'We had it out last week when it was hot.' Layla throws the tea towel  onto the counter. 'I can't get them out of it. I filled it again this  morning and it's already clogged up with grass. Who'd have kids, eh?'

I grin like an idiot, recalling my little day dream in Dan's garden.  Shaking it quickly out of my mind, I drag myself back to the task in  hand.

'Cup of tea?'

'Please.'

I don't want a cup of tea at all, but I know the deal: we're about to  have a difficult conversation, something that's always easier to bear  with a touch of caffeine. In silence, she flicks on the kettle, makes  two mugs of tea and brings them over to the table.

'So  … ' She pauses, settling herself onto a chair. 'Dan's girlfriend, eh?'

I nod.

'And you're Layla.'

'That's me.' She raises her mug as if making a toast, and takes a sip of tea. 'He definitely doesn't know you're here?'

'No.'

'Good.' Placing her mug on the table, she runs a finger round the rim,  watching its slow progress while she speaks. 'I don't think he'd be too  pleased about it. You know he doesn't want anything to do with me?'

I nod again.

'So, what made you come?'

Oh God, how do I explain that? Trying desperately to put the chain of  events into order, I run through it all in my head, every last detail  that's brought me to this point. And then I simply give up, open my  mouth and let anything spill out.

'Because I love him, and I want to spend the rest of my life with him  …   because I need to understand him and trust him.' The words begin to  catch in my throat. I must sound ridiculous. 'I just can't work out why  he's so determined to cut you out of his life. He says it's complicated,  but it doesn't make any sense to me. And I don't think he's happy about  it, not really. I want him to work it out. I want him to get back in  touch with you.'

She seems to wince. 'I'm not sure that's possible.'

'But why not? Why won't he see you?'

'I don't know for sure.'

Her eyes shift from my face to the garden. She watches her boys, clearly  thinking things through. I have no idea how long we spend in silence  before she finally speaks again.

'I'd love to see him again, Maya. I'd love nothing more. After all, he's my brother  …  and their uncle.'

I take a sip of tea, listening to the sound of splashing and squealing.

'Do they know about him?'

'I tell them he works abroad. He's a very busy man, but they might meet  him one day.' She picks up a lump of Plasticine and rolls it between her  thumb and forefinger. 'Has he told you anything about when we were  kids?'         

     



 

'Not a lot. Just the basics. It's pretty difficult to get much out of him.'

'That's not surprising.' She takes in a deep breath. 'He had a hard time. I don't blame him for wanting to forget.'

While she drifts away into memory, staring at the Plasticine and  squeezing it over and over again, I begin to wonder exactly how I'm  going to keep her in this conversation.

'He told me you saved his life,' I venture.

The fingers come to a halt. Convinced I'm about to be told to mind my  own business, I'm on the verge of apologising when she looks up, smiles  and leans forwards.

'I wasn't that old,' she explains, her voice lowered. 'Eight, I think.  He was sleeping in the outhouse.' She checks the garden, making sure the  boys are still otherwise engaged. 'You know about that?'

I nod.

She nods back.

'It was freezing cold out there.' Dropping the lump of Plasticine, she  begins to move an index finger about on the table top, as if tracing the  outline of the rooms. 'There was a door from the kitchen. Dad locked it  at night, but I knew where he left the key. Every now and then, usually  when he was pissed, I'd sneak a bit of food out to Dan.'

She pauses, waiting for my reaction.

'I know they didn't feed him. He told me.'

Her eyes widen slightly and she smiles again. Evidently satisfied that  I've been allowed a handful of confidences, she presses on with the  story.

'He used to pretend to be asleep, so I just left the food next to him. A  bit of bread. A biscuit. Anything I could find. He never said thank you  but I didn't care. He didn't need to.' She checks the garden again.  'But that one time, I just knew there was something wrong. He was on top  of the covers and there was this weird smell  …  like metal.' She pauses.  'I tried to wake him up  …  and then I saw what he'd done ...' Her voice  wavers. She's deep in the past now, her eyes unfocussed.

'You don't have to tell me.' I lay a hand on her arm.

She shakes her head.

'I want to.'

'But I'm a stranger.'

'For now.' She watches me for a moment or two, her bottom lip trembling.  'I've never talked about this before, not even with my husband.'

Watching me some more, she waits for a sign that she can unburden herself. With a slight nod, I give it to her.

'I called the ambulance. I had to get it done before Dad woke up. God  knows what he would have done if he knew  …  And then I got a cloth and  tried to make it stop, but it wouldn't stop. I thought he was going to  die.' She stares at something on the table top. 'They took him away.  That was the last time I saw him, for years. He never came back and we  never got to visit.'

She checks the boys again, the ghost of a smile playing across her face. It doesn't reach her eyes.

'So what happened to you?'

Pulling her arm out of my touch, she leans back. 'Me?'

'Your dad? Was he the same with you?'

'Nothing quite so bad. With Dan out of the picture, I was his next  target. He was always more careful, but it didn't stop him.' She levels  her gaze at me. 'I felt the back of his hand.'

'And Sophie?'

She laughs quietly.

'Sophie was the apple of his eye. The special one. He never touched her.  To this day, she won't accept what he was really like. I didn't even go  to his funeral. She didn't talk to me for years.'

'But you're talking now?'

'A little. But we don't talk about  …  that.' She chews at her lip.  'Sophie's not well. She wanted to get back in touch. We've kind of  turned a blind eye to all the crap.'

She frowns, and I decide not to ask any more. After all, I've done the same with my own sister.

'I heard he'd died.'

'In his sleep. Too quick. Too easy.' She's deadly serious now. 'He should have suffered more.'

Trailing into silence, she flicks a pencil across the table.

'Does Dan know that he's dead?' I ask.

'Yes. And he knows about Mum.'

My forehead furrows. 'His mother died?'

'Liver cirrhosis. Last summer. After Dad went, she drank more than ever.  Maybe it was grief. Maybe it was guilt. Anyway, she drank herself to  death.'

My mouth opens but nothing comes out. My brain's far too busy stumbling  through the facts and tripping over connections. Last summer. When he  was miserable. When a visit from someone sent him over the edge. When he  walked away from his old life forever.         

     



 

'It was you,' I gasp. 'You went to see him.'

Her eyes meet mine.

'I did. When I knew Mum was on the way out, I traced him. Somebody  contacted him for me, just to see if he was interested, and he said  yes.'