Tough Enough(14)

Ruthlessly, I ignore the flutter in my stomach and push past it with rationale. Letting feelings get the better of me will only end in disaster.

“But why? Why me?”

Rogan’s emerald eyes hold mine firmly, his brow now creased with a frown of his own. “I’ve been asking myself that since yesterday,” he admits quietly.

“Well, at least you’re honest,” I mutter on a sigh, not intending to say the words aloud.

“I’m always honest.”

Although his words are sincere, there’s no reason for me to believe them. But, strangely, I do. I know I shouldn’t, but I do.

For a moment, it seems Rogan and I are alone in the room, immersed in a strange moment of truth and self-awareness. He nods to me, I nod to him and somewhere, deep down, I feel a small part of my inner hardness soften ever so slightly.

• • •

Coming to work the next day feels different. Nothing out of the ordinary has happened. In fact, my morning has gone like every other morning before it, almost down to the greeting I get from Ronnie, one of the set designers, as he enters the building a few seconds behind me.

“Looking sweet this morning, Katie,” he calls out to me. I turn toward the familiar voice and the familiar redheaded thirtysomething guy, waving and smiling my reply, just like always.

But today feels different. I don’t know why, but I suspect that it has something to do with my first client and the way my stomach is curled with anticipation. I do worry about that, but worrying doesn’t seem to change it. Neither do all the reiterations of how bad a guy like Rogan could be for me. Nothing seems to be able to penetrate the dangerous spell he’s so effortlessly weaving over me. I’m fighting it, but still I find myself looking forward to seeing him. And that’s not a good place to be. Not for me, anyway.

Today, I’m not surprised when Mona doesn’t greet me as she usually does. I have a feeling I know exactly where to find her.

Just before I turn the corner to walk into my “office,” I smooth my hair into its neat wave that flows over my left shoulder, concealing the side of my neck. I straighten my shirt and pull a cat hair from my sleeve, and my hand stops dead as I let it drift from my fingertips into the subtle air current passing by.

I’m primping. Preening. And that’s not like me either. I mean, I try to look nice and decent every day, but today . . . today I want to be attractive again. I didn’t really realize it until just now. And that worries me.

It’s that worry that I carry through the doorway and into my office. I’m wearing it like a shield, but still, it’s unable to stop the arrow of attraction that strikes me when I see Rogan sitting in my makeup chair, chatting amicably with my friend.

How can he do this to me? And how can I let him?

Or do I even have a choice?

Before I can offer a greeting, Mona chirps from beside Rogan, “Good morning! Look who has your coffee. Again.”

She’s glowing. Again. I think she’s getting a bigger kick out of this than I am. Of course, I’m making a concerted effort not to. It’s not bad for Mona’s health to enjoy Rogan, but I can’t say the same for me.

“Impressed yet?” Rogan asks, standing and walking toward me to hand over the tall white cup. His wink says that he’s teasing me. His grin says that he’s pleased with himself. He’s like a proud little boy, sporting his first blue ribbon.

I stare up at him, so handsome in his charm, and I wish I could look away. But I can’t. “Impressed? You mean that you don’t suffer from short-term memory loss after being punched in the head too many times?” I say, garnering my defenses, defenses that I worry are crumbling even as I speak.

“Hey, in my line of work, that’s a distinct possibility.”

I smile politely up at him, determined not to let him see that he affects me. “Well, it takes more than a cup of coffee to impress me.”

He isn’t the least bit put off. “Even perfect coffee?”

“Too easy.”

“Too easy?” he asks in mock offense. I arch one brow at him and he gives in. “Maybe you’re right, but I’m giving you fair warning,” he declares, his voice dropping to a low, seductive timbre.

“Fair warning?” I ask.

He nods, all playfulness gone now. “Fair warning. I’ve got six weeks to impress you. And impress you I shall, Beautiful Katie.”

As I look into those captivating eyes, I remember his words. Makes me want to see you smile, I guess. I can’t help asking my one burning question again, only softly this time. “Why me?”

He doesn’t hesitate with his answer. “Something tells me you’re worth the effort.”