Aerie and I say our goodbyes-she has to get back to work-and I find myself alone, thinking about how drastically my life has changed over the past year. When I catch sight of my Grammy's pearls hanging on the mirror, I walk over to the dresser and pull down my something old. As I slip them around my neck, I have an odd déjà vu feeling. Today I'm going to marry the man who turned my life around; the man who taught me to love again. I thought Ben was my once-in-a-lifetime, but who knew a once-in-a-lifetime love could happen twice?
I feel so incredibly happy but a sudden sadness washes through me for those I've lost and I shift my eyes to the ceiling to say a silent prayer for each of them. I tell my mother and father I wish they could be here with me today. I thank my uncle for looking after me and keeping me on the right path. I think of my aunt and her mother and how they taught me that life is full of magic. Then I whisper to Ben, the man I intended to marry who was taken too soon, that I will always love him and he will forever hold a special place in my heart, as my first true love. I finish looking in the mirror and take a deep breath. I'm ready.
The battery in my cell phone is almost dead and I hope I have time to charge it. I walk into the empty living room and head over to the kitchen to get my charger. Once I've plugged it in, I turn around and see his gorgeous silhouette framing the doorway. He walks toward me, looking irresistible.
All I can do is stare at him because today I get to marry this man.
River's mouth slowly curves into a smile. "You look amazing."
I return his smile and walk toward him. We meet in the middle and he gathers me close, whispering in my ear, "Come on, beautiful, you don't need that today."
We break apart, both of us ready to take the next step. His phone rings and he pulls it from his pocket. I glance at the screen and see it's his brother. He ignores it. I'm looking up at him while I ask, "Hey, what's going on with Xander? What was that with him on the phone earlier?"
He looks back at me and shakes his head. "You know Xander, he always wants what he wants now."
"And he wants what right now?"
"He wants me to meet with Ellie."
"Who's Ellie?"
"She's his contact for the label. Nothing to worry about now, though."
He places soft kisses on my forehead. He pulls back and gazes into my eyes with a look of adoration that I love. "Are you ready to become my wife?"
My legs start to quiver as I pull back to look at his handsome face. "Only if you promise to love me forever."
He cups my cheeks and says, "Beautiful, I made that promise to myself the first time I kissed you. I promised to love you always. How could I not?"
My tears spill over at his heartfelt words. I love him so much. He's hugging me, not too tightly, but enough that I feel his love and I know he will always be mine. He kisses me again and says, "The instant you become Mrs. River Wilde I'm going to show you just how much."
He grabs my hand and we head toward the door. "Amazing Grace" starts playing from my phone in the kitchen just as we're about to leave and I turn back. "River, let me quickly grab that. I don't want Grace to worry about me any more than she already has."
I drop his hand and walk to the kitchen counter to answer my phone. "Hello?"
Chapter 2
Home
Ben's Journal
I'm finally home and out of that conference room. I never expected to be back so I can't say it's been a long road but I can say I'm sure as shit glad to be here. I can't believe I'm in Laguna, the place that I love, with all the people I love.
The suits reassured me, before leaving the office on Wilshire Boulevard, that my reappearance wouldn't be made public until the trial. So I won't have to deal with all the questions right now, except from my family and my girl. Seeing my mother was way more emotional than I expected. When one of the suits came in and told me she was talking to Special Agent Bass in the waiting room I tried not to lose my shit as I tore out of the room. I wanted to be there when they told her. I knew it would be a shock that I was really alive. That I wasn't actually gunned down that night almost three years ago on my way to an awards ceremony while my girl watched it all go down from the car.
I ran through the hall and past the round gold seal of the Federal Bureau of Investigation, the framed picture of the President, and the various most-wanted posters. The special agent talking to my mother was a woman and they were sitting in the corner of the room. Mom was crying so I knew she had been told and her tears made me instantly regret ever agreeing to leave. Her face was an emotional wreck and my remorse for the choice I made to leave, to not stay and turn this over to the FBI, weighed heavier than it ever had on my mind. But Caleb had taken things into his own hands and contacted them shortly after I left. So even though I hadn't known it, they had been involved for some time.