The thought of him asking for her and her not being there … It tormented her mind. How she was going to explain it all to him she had no idea. And how was she going to leave Natanael behind if this man dragged her to his family estate in Northern Arunthia?
So tell him. Tell him. He might understand. Support you. Help you.
This man? No. No, she didn't trust him not to betray her confidence. Didn't trust anyone.
You made a deal, Luciana. Now you pay.
Ah, yes, a deal made in naïve, youthful folly. In desperation such as she'd never known. A pact etched in her mind like an effigy on a tombstone. A shiver ghosted over her as she was haunted by the past …
* * *
'Please … please, Father. I can't do it. I can't get rid of him.' She knew he was small, so small inside her, but she couldn't take him away, she couldn't give him up. She couldn't.
'Luciana, you are not married. You will bring disgrace on us all. You are the heiress to the throne and the father of the child you carry is an enemy of this nation. Do you forget his assassination attempt? On me? He is a traitor to the crown.'
'Yes, but I didn't know who he was. I-'
'If this man ever discovered your child's existence he could use him as a pawn to gain power over us. He could take Arunthia. And do you honestly want his Satan of an uncle getting his hands on your son? We have avoided war for sixty years-do you want your people to live in tyranny as those in Galancia do?'
'No, no. But … no one need ever know. I could go away for a while. Please, I'm begging you. Pleading with you … Let me keep him.'
The King's deep sigh filled the oppressive air stifling his office and she teetered on the precipice of throwing her pride to the gale and plunging to her knees.
Then he said, 'Five years, Luciana. Five years of freedom. That is all I will give you. But the world must never know he is yours because Thane must never, ever find him. You will never be able to claim him as your son and heir. Do you understand me?'
'Yes. Yes, I understand,' she said-wild, frenzied, frantic. Unthinking of the consequences of what she was agreeing to. So desperate she would have sold her soul in that moment.
'You will be hidden well in the Far East, and in five years you will return to take the throne and do your duty. You will marry, Luciana, am I clear?'
'Yes-yes, I swear it. I'll do whatever you want. Just let me have him.'
His steely eyes were clouded with disappointment and grief and sorrow. That gaze was telling her she would rue this day, this bargain.
Luciana ignored it. As long as her son got to take his first breath, got to walk upon the earth and live life to the full, without the constraints of duty like a noose around his neck, she would make a deal with the devil himself. And so she did.
* * *
Augustus's voice shattered her bleak reflection and she tuned back in to the chatter that fluttered around them in a hushed din.
All she had to do was remember that her happiness came second to Natanael's safety. And she would keep him safe if it was the last thing she did.
'Luciana? Would you like coffee and dessert or … ?'
Or … ? Lord, not now. Not when she was falling apart at the seams. She wasn't ready to hear those words. Not yet. Not ever.
She felt powerless. Completely out of control. Like a puppet on a string.
The room began to spin.
'Yes, thank you, that would be wonderful,' she said, her voice thankfully calm and emotion-free as she plastered a cringe-worthy beatific smile on her face.
Coffee. Crème brulée. That would buy her another twenty minutes, surely.
Panic fisted her heart as the tick of the clock pounded in her ears. Tick-tock. Tick-tock.
The walls loomed, closing in around her, crushing her lungs.
Calm down, Luce. What are you going to do-hyperventilate and pass out? Make a total fool of yourself?
She needed air. She couldn't breathe.
'I'm sorry-please excuse me. I think I need … ' To go out on the balcony? No, no, no, he'd follow her and drop to one knee, she knew. 'To visit the restroom. I'll only be a few minutes.'
After all that she realised he wasn't listening. Someone on the other side of the room had caught his eye, and Luciana frowned as his lightly tanned face stained a ghastly shade of grey.
'Augustus? Are you all right? Did you hear what I said?'
Slowly he shook his head. 'I do not believe it. Luciana, you will never guess who is dining in this very room. I had no idea. Your father will be most displeased. I am so sorry … '
He was sorry? Ah, wonderful. One of his women, no doubt. The buxom brunette from earlier, come to ruin his perfect proposal? She didn't want to know. It was her parents' marriage all over again. No doubt she'd be faced with his mistresses most mornings too.
Well, that's better than you warming his bed, isn't it?
Anything was better than that.
'Don't worry about it, Augustus. Your secret is safe with me.' Her father wouldn't care less who the man whored with. There was more likelihood of mutual backslapping. 'I'll be back soon.'
Ignoring her, on he went. 'Of all the places in all the world … '
Luciana bit into her bottom lip, stifling the impulse to run like a world class sprinter. Praying for this evening to be over. Praying someone would rescue her from this nightmare. Before the truth escaped on the scream that was building gradually, inexorably, and she single-handedly destroyed the very life she was trying to protect.
* * *
'Of all the places in all the world … What an unpleasant surprise.'
His cousin, Seve, who was seated to his right at the oval dining table, leaned his upper body sideways in an effort to be discreet.
'I can see the sweat beading on his upper lip from here. It's your old pal from that exclusive rich joint you were sent to in Zurich. Viscount Augustus.'
Prince Thane of Galancia deflected the gut-punch the word Zurich evoked and sneered. 'He was no pal of mine.'
For the one disastrous university term Thane had attended after his father's death the Viscount had caused him no end of trouble-which he'd soon discovered was a horrendously bad idea-and subsequently shaken in his shoes every time he looked Thane's way. Which had pleased Thane no end. It meant he'd generally kept a vast distance.
He couldn't abide the man. Augustus was a wolf in sheep's clothing. Polished until every inch of him gleamed, he was a silver-tongued bureaucrat with sly eyes and a treacherous mind.
Seve smirked as if Thane had said the words out loud and he'd found it highly amusing. 'What's more, he's dining with none other than Princess Luciana of Arunthia. One of Henri's stuck-up brood.'
Thane resisted the urge to growl. 'Then they belong together.' A match made in heaven. 'How do you know it's definitely her? Last I heard, she lived abroad.'
He couldn't remember the last time he'd seen a photograph of any of them. Recent intel was off his radar, since he had zero interest in becoming embroiled with his uncle's ongoing bitter feud with the house of Verbault. He'd made that mistake ten years ago, in his father's day. Had the scars and the bitter aftertaste to prove it. Nowadays every time he thought of that varmint Henri a seizure of antagonistic emotion diseased his mind, so the less he heard or saw of the entire family the better. Besides, his every waking moment was spent deflecting blows from the latest fiasco in Galancia.
'I know because the two of them having fun on the slopes made the French headlines this morning. Rumour has it she's newly returned from Hong Kong, due to take the crown any day.'
Thane would have predicted a snowball in hell before he felt envy for a Verbault, but right then envy was definitely the evil he was up against. He wanted his crown. Taken from the hands of his uncle and placed in his own, where it should be. Before the man caused his people further damage. Four years … It seemed eons away, and his patience was wearing perilously thin.
He thrust his fingers through his hair and tucked some of the long, wayward strands behind his ear. 'It isn't hard to work out what Augustus wants. The vapid Viscount has always been an ambitious sleaze with illusions of grandeur.'
Seve chuckled darkly. 'Very true. Although I will say that marriage to her will be no chore for him. Look at her. By God, she's absolutely stunning.'
Thane couldn't care less if she was Cleopatra. She was still a Verbault. Granted, he refused to get snarled up in that age-old vendetta again, but he wasn't ignorant or blind to the reasoning for it. Verbault greed had once crippled a vulnerable Galancia, and rebuilding its former glory was an ongoing battle. Forgiveness would never be proffered. So the day he aligned with one of them would be the day he rode bareback with the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.
Seve, meanwhile, was still staring her way. Smitten. Practically drooling. 'I don't think I've ever seen a more beautiful woman in my life.'
'That's saying something, considering how many you've bedded,' Thane incised sardonically.
His cousin, his second in command, his best friend-the only person he would ever trust-shrugged his wide shoulders. 'Wouldn't do you any harm to get laid either, cousin. Come on-I didn't drag you here just to hurtle down the black slopes all day.'