Three Thousand Miles To You(88)
“Michael please can we sort this out?” He does not answer me he just keeps on staring.
“Michael I care about you, I want you in my life.”
“You say all this, yet you say that you don’t have feelings for me,” he says in a slow dark voice.
“Michael I care so much about you, however I love Adrian and I always will. The way I feel about you is different, it is as if you get me in a way that no one else does and I can’t lose you, I need you to be in my life.”
“If Adrian is all that you want, then why are you saying this to me?”
“Because it’s the truth and I don’t want to lie to you anymore, Adrian is on his way, but that doesn’t mean that you have to go.”
“I didn’t know that and I wasn’t planning to leave you here alone, my truth is that, I love you and if you say to me now that you don’t feel the same way, then I will go and let you be with him.”
“I don’t want you to go, have you been listening to anything, I have been saying.”
“Yes I hear all your words, but Alanna you can’t be as selfish as that, to expect me to stay even though nothing will ever happen, why would you put me through that?”
“Because I need you, I don’t want to wake up knowing that I won’t see you. My feelings for you are strange and I can’t explain them to myself, let alone to you, but please don’t go!”
“Alanna I can’t stay, I won’t torture myself by watching you with him. I will stay until he gets here, then I am going back to London.”
“No please,” I get closer to him and take his hands in mine.
“Please I beg you, don’t leave me.”
“Alanna I have no choice,” he loosens my hands from his and he walks swiftly away into the bedroom. I watch as he goes, wondering if that was the last time, I will ever see him.
“Miss Hart,” I look over and see Jackson who is standing at the front door holding a white piece of paper.
“Yes,” I say as I walk over to him.
“The car is here, are you ready?”
“Almost, can you give me a minute?”
“Of course,” I walk over to the kitchen and see Maggie sipping a coffee as she leans against the kitchen counter.
“Miss Hart, you will be late for your exams.”
“No I have time. I just wanted to say how amazing you are.”
“For what,”
“For the way you handled things, after Edward left you.”
“I just did what anyone would.”
“No you did more, I know someone who went through the very same thing and his mother chose a different way.”
“Who do you know that went through that?”
“Adrian, his dad left him when he was two and his mother blamed him. She became addicted to drugs and alcohol, she never cared about him, unlike you who put everything on hold, so you could look after your daughter, I wish that Adrian had someone like you.”
“I didn’t know that Mr Black went through that. Tell me dear, how old he is?” “Twenty-five,”
“I see.” Maggie looks as if she has one million things going on in her head and she looks very worried and confused. I notice as she tries to take this in, that it is almost as if she has something important to say.
“Maggie what’s wrong?” I say moving closer to her.
“Nothing dear, where in London is Mr Black originally from?”
“I am not sure exactly, but I know that it was a very rough area.”
“I see and what was his mother’s name?”
“Alice, she is an American.”
“And his father what was his name?”
“I don’t know, is there something more to this? Do you know something?”
“Maybe, no I don’t, go on get to your exam.”
“Maggie if do know something, I need you to, please tell me.”
“Miss Hart I don’t really know for sure, but would you do something for me?”
“Yes anything.”
“Would you ask Mr Black about his father?”
“Do you know him?”
“No, but I want to know about him. I think that I have heard of him and his mother Alice, tell me dear what does Mr Black look like?”
“He is tall and has light brown hair and the most gorgeous green eyes.”
“Green eyes,”
“Yes, oh wait; I have a picture of him on my phone.”
I reach into my sweater pocket and take out my phone. I flick through all the images until I come across the one of Adrian. Before I show Maggie the picture, I take a second to have a look at it again myself. I had to be so sneaky to get this shot of him; He was standing by the dinner table and he was pouring a glass of water. His hair was like silk and his eyes were glowing, he was dressed in a dark blue suit with a white striped shirt. He looked so amazing that I just stood there for ages looking at him. He did not see me so I took out my phone and took his picture. I had asked him several times for one, but he always said no. After I stare at the photo for what seems likes hours, I finally show it to Maggie. As she claps eyes on Adrian, she gasps and gives the phone immediately back to me.