Adrian calls every hour and texts every half hour. Normally that would annoy me terribly, but being here in this house with not much to do, I actually look forward to them.
Alanna how is everything going,
Fine, Michael and I have talked and I think that we are over the worst.
What did you talk about?
We talked about different things; I think that we could be friends.
Friends,
Yes,
Do you like him now?
Yes, it took a while but now I feel like I know him more.
What do you mean more?
He opened up to me about things and I saw that he is not all bad.
You know Alanna that he loves you right.
He has not showed anything to prove that so far.
I need you to understand something.
Okay,
By you being nice to him and getting to know him, he is most likely going to think that you like him back.
No, he knows how I feel about you.
Trust me Alanna I know his mind.
So what do you want me to do?
There is nothing you can do he is there and I am not.
Adrian I feel as if maybe you are worried about this.
How can I not be?
You have no reason to be, I would never do anything.
I know you would not, but Michael he is a bloke and need I say more.
I do not think you give him enough credit, if what you say is true then just think of how honorable he is to you, by staying here with me, your girlfriend.
I will always be in his debt for the way he is looking after you, but Alanna please just be careful of how you act with him.
I do not act any different with him than I do with anybody.
He is not just anybody he is a bloke who has loving feelings for you, so be careful.
Okay then,
Alanna I forgot to ask how your friends took the news, when you told them you were leaving college for a while.
Oh Adrian it was a nightmare.
What happened?
Sophie happened.
Alanna I know that she is your friend but I have to tell you, there is something that I do not trust about her.
Let me guess you do not like her hair color,
No, it is not just that, the way she looks at you, I think she is very envious of you.
She is that way with everyone and she has been since she was a little girl. No one could get anything but she had to have it too.
You see that is not a good person to have around.
Anyway, she started dissing you, again.
What did she say?
She thinks that I have changed and that, you control me.
Do you think that I control you?
Yes, you kind of do.
That is the side of me that I have tried many times to change, but I cannot it is just who I am.
I know that and I think it is cute how you like to be so protective.
Alanna it is not cute, do you know how much I wish I could be normal.
What is normal?
Normal is waking up, not obsessing about whom you are talking to, normal is being able to let you do your own thing, and normal is not panicking that you are in danger all the time. My mind is obsessed with you, I cannot think of you so far away and I hate not knowing what you are doing every second of every day.
Adrian I did not know you felt that way.
I do and I try to not text you every second, but I cannot I need to know what you are doing, who you are talking to or my mind does not rest. I do not sleep thinking about you, I fear that some bloke will sweep you off your feet and I will lose you.
Adrian I only want you. Do not worry about that, it will never happen.
I cannot be sure you are too precious, and me I am just a controlling murderer.
Adrian if you were then why, are you not in jail?
I was twelve the authorities did not act on it because of my surroundings, they said I was the victim but I was not Alanna.
Can you please tell me what happened?
No not, right now not while you are in danger.
Adrian I am here in this safe house with all around security, I am safe just now, please tell me what happened.
I cannot I will tell you soon, I promise.
Okay, Adrian but please know that whenever you want to share this with me, I am here.
I know you are remarkable I do not deserve you.
I thought I told you not to say that.
You did but it does not stop me from thinking it.
I sigh as I put the phone down, I reflect on all the things Adrian has said. I was a little surprised how he acted about Michael. I would have thought he would be happy that I get on with his family. However, he seems to think that Michael wants to be more and that I should be careful of the way I act around him. I am so confused right now, I want to be honorable to Adrian but at the same time, I do not want this time here with Michael to be awkward. I thought I had it all sorted but now I am not sure. I fear that if I were nice to Michael then he will think that I am leading him on; I do not want to distance myself from him either. I enjoy talking to him and I do like him, I do not know what I can do for the best.
“Miss Hart,” I hear Maggie at my door so I run over and open it.
“How can I help you Maggie?”