Three Thousand Miles To You(58)

“I know,” I agree, but the truth is I do not know, why he would put business before me, if he loves me. I also cannot help but dread the next time I see Michael. I cannot get immune to the fact that he says he loves me. I am just shocked to my very core about it. I have no words I have no explanation to why.

“Alanna it’s time for me to go,” I roll my eyes I do not want him to leave.

“Can’t you stay a while longer?”

“No my flight leaves in an hour, and you know what traffic is like.”

“Okay then,”

I get up and follow him out of the café. I see the car waiting to take him away from me. I feel sadness rush over me, I will miss him so much. Even though we had arguments and fallings out, this has still been the most magical five days ever. I fell in love with the most beautiful man I have ever seen. I began to understand him more when he opened up to me about his past. He still never told me the secret he has, but I managed to look past the annoyance of that. I will miss his kiss, I will miss his cool British accent, I cannot think of waking up and him not being there. I do not know how I will cope; I love him so much that it actually hurts. I hurt every time I think of him so far away.

“My love, come here,”

Adrian takes me in his arms and holds me too tight. He slightly loosens his grip and kisses me. He lets go and gets into the car. As he does, he looks at me and says,

“Until next time, baby.”

As I watch him leave, I begin to cry, the tears are flowing as I walk down the street heading back for my college dorm. I think of Adrian as I walk down the cold bitter street. He looked amazing today in a tailored dark blue suit, with a white and black striped shirt. His eyes, as usual, were glowing green and his light chocolate hair was messy and undone, however I now realize that is my favorite way he wears it. I cannot describe his looks, I feel lost in them every time I look at him!

I finally get back to the room, I walked extra slow back, as I did not want anyone to see me cry. I enter the room to find Katharine and Sophie sitting on the beds. I feel a little awkward and Katharine looks upset. I want to sort this whole thing out with her, after all she is one of my close friends. I walk over to her and stand right in front of her, so she has to look at me. Her eyes are red and bloodshot, her cheeks are hot and stained from her tears, just like mine. I do not know if she is crying because she is mad at me, or because Michael ended things with her, either way I am about to find out, as I pick up the courage to ask her what is wrong.

“Katharine, are you okay?”

“Alanna please, I am not in the mood right now to have an argument with you.”

“The last thing I want is an argument; I want to clear the air.”

“Alanna, I know what Michael called you was terrible and I gave him hell for it, but I really don’t want to talk to you about this right now.”

Why was Katharine being so awkward? Did Michael tell her how he feels about me?

“Katharine you are my friend and we can’t let guys fighting with one another tear us apart.”

“Alanna it’s you they were fighting about.”

“What do you mean?” I say fearing what her answer might be.

“Michael broke up with me, he told me he has feelings for you and that he was jealous of Adrian with you. That’s why he got so mad.”

“Katharine even if that was the reason for Adrian and him fighting, we can’t let that ruin our friendship.”

“Alanna, you don’t understand.”

“Then tell me,” I say desperately.

“I really liked him, and he just chose you.”

“He didn’t choose me, I am with Adrian. I don’t feel that way about Michael.”

“Then if you don’t, why are you always with him everywhere he goes?”

“That’s for another reason that I can’t discuss, but believe me it’s not anything like that.”

“And you expect me to believe that?”

“Have I ever lied to you before? Sophie you know how I feel about Adrian, tell her I could never be with anyone other than him.” Sophie looks to Katharine,

“It’s true; she does only have eyes for Adrian.” Katharine sobs and sits back down on the bed. I go over to her and take her in my arms.

“Katharine, I am so sorry.” Katharine sobs even harder and chokes out, “I’m sorry too.”

For the next, few hours Sophie, Katharine and I lie on the one bed and watch old movies, and that is just what the doctor ordered giving the circumstances and the pang of pain I have every time I think of Adrian’s last words to me. In addition, I do not want to go out into the halls, as I am scared I might run into Michael. I cannot walk around the city, as I fear that someone is following me. Staying in with my two best friends and losing ourselves in the world of Audrey Hepburn in Breakfast at Tiffany’s, seems like the only thing to do. Sophie and I used to watch that movie every Sunday. We would wake up early and call the other one to make sure they were coming. Each week we take turn to play host, I would always have the bagels and coffee out, and Sophie would steal her mom’s pearls, so we could wear them while we watched the movie. Every time I think, back on a happy memory from my child hood, one from Adrian’s always plagues it. When other kids his age were out playing on their bicycles, he was smoking marijuana. The thought and the sickness of it will stay with me forever. My mind suddenly goes back when I was at the beach and I saw Alice. Unaware that she was Adrian’s mother, how she seemed to have a lot on her mind. She looked distressed and I felt sorry for her. How wrong I was, I really wish that Adrian had not asked me not to go back and see her, because if he had not then I would. I would go her and ask her how she could do that to an innocent child. Why would she let a stranger who beat her, do it to her son? I have no words to describe the hatred I have to this woman for putting Adrian through all that. Then I have a sudden brain flash, I will go see her. Adrian does not have to know and I can keep it from Michael. I will just say that I am going to visit my parents, if he ever shows his face again. I am beginning to worry why he has not come to find me yet, perhaps it is because he knows that I am with Katharine, and he feels it would be to strange or maybe he is just boycotting me all together. All I know for sure is, tomorrow I will go find Alice, and I must make sure that Michael does not find out. Later that night when Katharine has gone back to her own room, Sophie pulls me to one side and has a very nervous look on her face.