Sophie I am sorry for the things I said, could you forgive me?
It is me who should be saying sorry, I did not even give Adrian chance, I am sure he is a lovely person.
I want to talk to Sophie about everything but I cannot. I decide I will tell her about today’s events but leaving out some of the major details.
I cannot say that I am happy with him right now.
Why what did he do?
He annoyed me today.
Do you want to talk about it?
Yes, you are right he tries to control everything, I feel as if he maybe sees me as an object and not a person. I am still madly in love with him, but I would like to get back some of the control.
I got that vibe from him as soon as I saw him; I think it mainly has to do with the fact that he is a very successful businessperson, he is used to controlling people all the time, maybe you should talk to him about it?
I am not even talking to him right now.
Alanna is there more that you are not telling me.
I wish I could tell her yes, there is more but instead,
No, he is wonderful and I feel lucky to have him, I possibly feel this way because I am not used to people like him, I will figure it out.
Alanna, if there is ever anything you want to talk about then know that I am here.
Thanks.
Now go patch things up with Romeo.
I will try talk to you soon. I am so glad that I have made up with Sophie; at least that is one thing off my mind. I put my phone on the side table next to the bed. My mind is spinning right now and I cannot think. I start to feel a little dizzy again so I lay fully down on the bed. As I do, I start to remember his face and the way he looks at me. I would just love to know what his secret is. I will not stop until I know; he has to tell me I will not let it go.
I must a have fallen asleep because I wake up and I am fully clothed. I glance over to the clock beside the bed, and I see that its 4.30 in the afternoon, and I am starving. I get up, fix my hair a little, and walk over to the door. I open it trying not to make a sound. I look all around and Adrian is nowhere in sight. Therefore, I quietly walk into the lounge area and go over to the grand dining table. I see that there is still some food from this morning, lying still on the trays. I take a few berries and pop them in my mouth.
“You know, you can order room service,” I hear a sarcastic voice behind me. I turn around and Adrian is standing there gazing at me.
“Yes, I am aware,”
“Are you still mad at me?” I roll my eyes and turn away from him.
“The fact that you even have to ask that question is shocking to me.”
“Alanna, I am sorry okay, but I panicked and I just wanted to get you out of there.”
“You hurt me, my arm is throbbing.”
“I will never forgive myself for that, here I am trying to stop you from getting hurt but at the same time I hurt you.”
“I think it’s time you told me everything.”
“I can’t, I won’t Alanna,”
“I see in your face that you have changed your opinion of me, so I can’t bear how you will feel once you know the truth.”
“Adrian you run that risk either way.”
“Do you not love me anymore, after what I did to you?”
“Love doesn’t just go away Adrian, I do love you, but I need to know the truth.”
“And I wish I could tell you, but I can’t Alanna, please can you stop talking about this.”
“Adrian if you don’t give me something to go on, then I will have to walk out that door.”
“Sit down!”
I sit quickly, wondering if this was it, was this the moment Adrian was going to finally tell me?
“You know about Alice and the way she was, right?”
“Yes,”
“When I was nine Alice started to bring this bloke over to the house, his name was David and he was ten years older than her. David was the type of man that was not from the right side of things. His family had connections to gangsters and drug lords from all around London. He began to stay one or two nights a week, then he finally moved in for good. The time he spent with Alice was took up by drinking and taking drugs, he would get so high that he did not know what he was doing, he would start to beat Alice then eventually come find me and do the same. He would beat me so hard and Alice just let him. It was not just the beatings, he would light up a joint and hold me down and force it into my mouth. By the time, I was ten I was hooked on marijuana, and none of this ever seemed to bother Alice. She would lock me in the cupboards for hours on end, I would hear them scream and things would get broken. Alice would shout out that she hated him and she wanted him out, then usually there would be a slapping noise and everything would go quiet. The next morning or during the night, Alice would let me out and she would always beat up. Her face was never without some bruises or cuts. I was usually the same, if I were around when David was beating Alice, even though she did everything she did to me, I would always try to fight him off her, and I would always be in the middle of it. I have scars all over my body from David; he was an evil man that never showed any remorse for what he did. Even when he was sober he never showed anything but pure hatred of me and Alice.”