Do you hate him?
No, I do not hate him.
Do you have feelings for him then?
No, it is not like that.
Do you have feelings for anyone?
Maybe just you,
Do you like me?
Yes,
I there anything you wish to ask me?
How do you feel about me?
I feel like I cannot live without you.
Are you just saying all this or are you being truthful?
This is my truth, I feel like I love you.
I sigh as I read his words again, how do I reply to something like that. What do I say I do not want to offend him in anyway, but I still want him to know that yes I could feel the same way? Biting my lip, I reply,
Adrian, one day I will love you too.
Fourteen
Adrian and I now talk on a regular basis, every day in fact and mostly at least five or six times each day. The new semester at Columbia has now started and Sophie and I have moved back into the college dorms. I find it so easy to slip back into college life. Sophie is still unaware that I have a mystery man and definitely does not know I am talking to Adrian Black. Chace and Chelsea are still going strong and Sophie now has a boyfriend, therefore he now takes up a lot of her time. As for me, I love my life right now. I have an amazing guy that I talk to you and do not have to worry about all the pressures of everyone knowing about him. As for Marco, after countless emails with Adrian over the subject of whether or whether not Marco is into me, I have decided to stay well away from him. He still makes a fuss whenever we are in class together but I just try to ignore him, I really do not need him in my life. Now where do I start on Adrian Black? He is without a doubt the most interesting person I have ever met. He has really lived; he told me all about his trips around the world helping underprivileged kids. I cannot help but think of how wrong I was when I first met him. He told me he has stopped going out and looking for girls as he says he has found the one he wants. Although we are not officially together, I feel a sort of beholden to him. The gifts I still receive but it has shrunk to only one or two per week and not a daily occurrence like before. Although he says that there will be one arriving shortly that is not like the rest. He still talks of this dark secret he has and no matter how hard I try to get it out of him there is no way he is ever going to let me know what it is. I try the best I can to put it out of my mind and not think about it because if I did, would that be enough for me to stop caring about him? Care is what I cannot help but feel for him. I also cannot help but wonder if the texts and emails are all I am going to get from him. Although, he always says that one day soon he will come to New York and make me his wife. It is so hard to be so far away from him. I cannot help but feel a little obsessed with what he is doing. Even though I have only ever seen him, twice I feel like I know him and trust him. He opens up to me as he does with no other. I cannot explain him and he consumes me. Night falls on New York City and I lay on my bed, waiting for the little beeping sound that gets me so excited every time I hear it, a new message from Adrian. I think of how I wish to tell Sophie and everyone around me of the amazing thing that is going on in my life. I so desperately want to share this with someone and tonight, I may just do so. I will wait until Sophie comes home. She is out tonight with Dan, so I expect it to be late and then, I will tell her. I really hope she doesn’t get mad, I really want her to understand all this and hopefully she can be happy for me that I have found someone, that makes me feel like I am the most special thing that has ever walked the planet. That is what Adrian does; he has a way of compelling me, treating me as if I am the air that he breathes and without it, he would die.
Sophie comes home and she looks like she really could not be happier. “Good night tonight?” I say as I give her a little smile.
“Oh Alanna it was amazing.” “I think I am in love.” I give out a little giggle.
“You know I owe it all to you, you were the one that got me out of bed every day, and you were the one that showed me that there was more to life than Chace. I really could not have done any of this without you.”
“What are friends for?”
Sophie rushes over and gives me a hug. I pull back a little from her and she suspects something is wrong.
“Are you okay Alanna?”
”Yes I am fine but I do have something I need to tell you.”
“Okay,”
“Do you remember when I went to London?”
“Of course,”
“Do you remember the flowers and other things I was getting?”
“Yes Alanna, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing, do you remember that we were sure that Marco was the one that sent them?”
“Yes Alanna, you are starting to scare me please get to the point.”