“Last night, I felt as if I was being followed by someone.”
“Miss I can assure you that on one wants to hurt you or cause you pain in any way.”
“Is that right?”
“I used to be a cop, so do you really think I would be delivering these packages to you if I thought that you were in any type of danger?”
“No,” I say.
“Today all I have for you is this letter.”
I go back into my house and sit up at the kitchen ignoring the mess that lies on the floor I open the plain white envelope to read.
Dear Alanna,
I cannot begin to describe the way you make me feel. I have tried to send you gifts and to show how much I care, but nothing I do seems to give me the satisfaction that I so desperately crave. From the first moment I laid eyes on you, I knew you were the one that I was waiting for. You must be thinking all this is a bit strange and that I am possibly playing a game with you. What you have to come to understand is that I have no idea how to act around a female. I never had a good relationship with the only female I have ever known my mother. Therefore, you must forgive me if I get it wrong. I want to treat you right and the only way I know how, is by sending you luxury gifts. I hope you will stick with me a little longer I could not bear the thought of not having you in my life. The only problem I have is that it is three thousand miles to you.
I walk up the stairs to my room and I read over the letter for a third time and still I do not seem to take in the words if have just read. Who could this be? I try to rack my brain to for a name but nothing comes to mind. My life right now seems like a haze, a mass of thick fog that never seems to clear. I just do not feel like myself. I carefully store the letter away in the shoebox under my bed. I would love nothing more than to discuss this with my friend Sophie, but fearing her reaction I have no one to turn to. I hear one of the phones that are lying on my bed go off, so I walk over and lift my iPhone but only to see there is no messages. I quickly lift the white phone and there it was my first message from the man that has got me rattled.
Alanna are you okay. I talked to my deliveryman and he said you were a little on edge, if there is anything I can do to ease your worry please feel free to ask.
I reply
I do not know who you are. How can I be sure that you are not dangerous?
I would never harm you in any way; I know it must be difficult for you. You do not know who I am, but believe me there is a reason I do not want you to know.
What is the reason? You must know you are not doing yourself any justice by keeping it from me.
I feel there is no other way.
What would you say if I told you that I am no longer going to accept the gifts you send?
Then I would just send more until you had no other choice but to accept them.
I will go to the police.
What could they do, you do not know who I am.
I do not really like your tone, I think maybe you should stop all this.
Do you really want me to stop?
Maybe if you would just tell me who you are, then I could get to know you properly.
I would love nothing more, than for you to get to know me. However If you knew who I was, then maybe you would not be so eager.
I would be, I want to get to know you.
Before I could tell you, I would need you to do something for me first.
Okay, anything,
Tell me about your childhood.
What would like to know?
Was it nice?
Yes.
Did you ever have the feel of abandonment?
No.
Could you ever love someone that was bad?
I do not believe that any one is all-bad there is good in everyone on this earth It just takes one other person to see it.
However, could you love them?
Yes.
Then my name is Adrian Black.
I almost fall to the ground, when finally I see the name of the person responsible for all this. I take my mind back to the night I first saw him remembering the way he looked. The way I felt under in his presence, the urge of anticipation, his eyes glowed and he infatuated me. It was as if I needed him before my life could be complete. I write back to him taking a deep breath.
Hello Adrian, that was not so hard now was it?
You have no idea, are you surprised.
Yes I am, how did you know where I lived?
I have contacts and that type of thing is not that hard to find out.
I never expected it to be you, but I was kind of hoping it was.
Why would you want it to be me?
I do not know, there is just something about you, I cannot explain it!
I am bad Alanna, if you had any sense you would not even be talking back to me.
You keep saying that but unless you give me a reason then no I will not stop.
I cannot I care about you too much and for my own selfishness I do not want you to know.
Then let us forget about it and if in your own time you want me know then you will.
I would not be so sure Alanna.