I begin to lose sight of myself as I hear Katharine’s honest words. I had no idea that she felt this way and the thought paralyzes me. I gaze at her and I see a stunning, wholesome girl and I do not understand why she would be jealous of me. I am nothing compared to her and if she only knew how I felt about Adrian and Michael wanting me. I myself cannot understand why two, gorgeous guys like them would be interested in me. I am awkward, shy, and super inappropriate. I always find myself in sticky situations with guys. I push their buttons and I bring out the worst in them. Marco is a fine example of that as he almost slapped me in the hallway of Columbia because I irritated him. Michael is another; he treats other girls like crap because he wants me. He tries to sabotage my relationship with Adrian because again I lead him to think that more could happen. Michael and Adrian argue over me and I still vividly remember that night when Adrian punched Michael at dinner. I wish that I could wave a magic wand and make Michael love Katharine. No better still, I wish that I could make my feelings for him disappear. I wish that I could hate him at least if I did, then he would not get hurt by me. He would not have this constant battle with Adrian over me and he would be free to live his life away from my teasing. He could have the happiness that he deserves but I cannot change how I feel. I cannot wave a magic wand and suddenly hate him. I hate that I am being selfish but I will not choose until I absolutely have to.
“Katharine, please do not think like that. I hate that I make you feel this way and I am sorry. I do not fully understand why Adrian or Michael wants me. I am nothing in comparison. However, if you feel that you cannot be with him then you should end things. If he treats you badly then do not stand for it leave him whilst you still can. You are a beautiful, independent woman and you do not need a guy to define you. If Michael cannot see what a great girl he has then he is not worth it.” Katharine looks up at me and she gently presses a smile from her lips. She lunges from the seat and into my arms.
“Alanna you are right, I don’t have to stand for this.” She rushes out the room and I begin to worry what she might do. I have seen this side to Katharine many times before when she is breaking up with a guy. I quickly follow her into the study and I watch as she tells Michael how it is.
“Now darling I have news for you. I am not going to stand for your bullshit any longer. You treat me like a piece of dirt and I am over you.” Michael looks furious as he rises from his seat. He walks over to Katharine and he smirks at her.
“Well I am glad you finally took the hint. For a minute I actually thought that I would be stuck with you forever.” Katharine lets out a squeal and then she slaps Michael very strongly across his face. He lunges forward but he stops himself, he looks at her and he lets out a dark laugh. Katharine again squeals and then storms out the room. Adrian looks bewildered by what has just happened and I hear Tabatha.
“Good lord what is going on in here?”
“Well sweetheart I think that the lovely Miss Katharine has ended things with our son.” Mr Jenkins says in a light tone. I cannot hold back my smile at his words and Michael quickly locks his eyes on mine. He looks angry with me as he walks over. I am standing in the doorway and I gently move to let Michael out. He leans down as he passes me.
“Alanna a word,” I make a dashing look towards Adrian and he gently nods his approval. I excuse myself and then I follow Michael. He leads me into the kitchen and as Katharine did, he closes the door behind him.
“Alanna what was that?”
“Well if it is not clear I think that Katharine broke up with you.”
“Don’t get smart with me,” Michael says as he points his long finger in my face. I instantly reach out and push his finger away. He clenches his teeth at my action and I feel that his fury is building.
“I wasn’t, I was just stating the obvious.”
“Well I could do without your sarcasm right now Alanna,”
“Michael I am sensing that you are mad at me?” I snap. He rolls his eyes.
“I could never be mad at you, but right now I am a little annoyed with you.”
“Isn’t being mad at me and annoyed with me the same thing?”
“There you go again with the sarcasm,” Michael says firmly.
“Why are you annoyed with me?”
“Alanna it is clear to see that you influenced Katharine’s decision to break up with me.”
“That’s not true it was Katharine’s decision and I never forced her to do anything.”
“You see that’s where I do not believe you.”
“Well I don’t really care if you believe me as long as I know the truth then that’s all that matters. Katharine chose to end things with you because you were not treating her right. Did you really think that she would put up with your behaviour, forever?” Michael again rolls his eyes at me and I feel my fury building.