“How was your day?” He asks as he leans in towards me. He gently pushes my hair away from my neck as he plants a soft kiss onto my skin. His hands are tightly wrapped around my waist and I smile at his affection.
“My day was good and how was yours?” I say as he continues to kiss me softly.
“Just boring business - until this moment,” he says firmly. I lightly laugh and Adrian loosens his grip on me.
“Do I hear the water running?”
“Oh crap,” I shout as I run into the bathroom. The bath water is almost tippling out the sides as I shut off the taps. I turn around and Adrian is standing in the doorway.
“Are you going for a bath baby?” He asks as he loosely folds his arms. I blush a little at his words and then I reply.
“I was planning to,” Adrian laughs as he runs his fingers through his hair.
“Okay then baby, I will leave you in peace.” He gently closes the door and I begin to undress.
After my long hot bath, I slip on the white fluffy robe, which the hotel has provided. I walk over to the mirror and I begin to put on my make up for tonight’s dinner. I apply some light foundation and a little powder. I finish with a few strokes of mascara and finally a soft, pink gloss. I run my comb through my curly hair and I let it hang freely around my face. I reach into my wash bag and I take out my necklace - which I got from Adrian. I gently hang his initials around my neck and then I flash myself a little smile as I make my way out of the bathroom. I head into my room and I begin to pick through my new clothes. I choose a soft pink, mini dress and pair of white Jimmy Choos. I quickly change and then I head out into the lounge.
“Baby you are stunning.” Adrian quickly says as I make my way over to him. I lightly stroke his hair as I take the seat next to him. He stares over at me and he stretches out his arm. I lean into his chest and he softly kisses my forehead.
“Baby, are you happy?” He asks gently.
“Yes, I am happy are you?” He lightly exhales as he replies.
“I am but I feel that I could be… happier.” I turn to look up at him and he smirks at my reaction.
“What I meant was you and I could be happier. I think of our life and I feel that it is not yet complete. Something is missing baby and I don’t know what.” My heart races because I know what is missing. However, I cannot bring myself to say the words. Therefore, I play dumb.
“What is missing?”
“Baby do you know that I was going to ask you to marry me?” Adrian has avoided my question and I wonder why?
“I am aware but why didn’t you answer my question?” Adrian again smirks at me.
“Baby I don’t know what is missing so I cannot really answer your question. Now how do you feel about marrying me?”
“I don’t know, marriage is a big step and don’t you think that we are too young?” Adrian is not pleased by my response. He loosens his grip on me and lunges forward. He sits on the edge of the sofa as he glares at me.
“Alanna you are confusing me you say that you love me but why are you so hesitant towards marrying me?” I look at his gorgeous face and I am sensing his vulnerability. I reach over and I place my hand gently onto his strong back.
“Adrian I love you and one day we will be married. I just feel that now is not the right time.”
“I see and does Michael have anything to do with your reason?” Adrian asks in firm voice. I take my hand away from his back and I place it into his. He lifts his eyes from the floor and they lock on mine.
“Adrian it is you that I love and he has nothing to do with my reasons for not wanting to get married.” I confess as I lean in and kiss Adrian.
“I better go and get dressed,” Adrian says as he rises from the sofa. He makes his way into his room and I watch as he leaves. I try to compose myself as I think back on his words. Adrian is desperate to get married and no matter how much I love him I cannot get married at twenty-two. I do not feel ready to be a wife and I certainly am not ready for a life of domestic bliss. Adrian is pushing marriage because he is desperate to have a family. My biggest fear is that one day Adrian will change his mind about me. I am scared that he will realise that I am not enough for him and that I am not good enough. Adrian could have any girl he wants and I am nothing compared to him. I feel that it is best to keep things the way it is just now, as I could not bear it if lost him. I worry if we were to get married that things would change and I am not sure that I cope with a messy divorce. I know that this subject will always be on Adrian’s mind. However, I will try my hardest to fight him until that day when I can fight no longer. Until I have no other option but to marry him, I will protest in keeping things the way they are.