Michael opens the door and Adrian rushes in.
“Well hello to you too!” Michael says very sarcastically. Adrian pays no attention to his words as he makes his way over to me. He kneels before me and he places his hand gently onto my leg. I manage to look at him - despite my guilt. His eyes are sad and I feel that there is moisture in them. He pushes his hair back nervously as he deeply exhales.
“Baby, I am so sorry.” He says in a shallow voice. He locks his eyes on mine and I am lost in them. His beauty is captivating and I could forgive him anything. I feel so guilty about the fact that I almost kissed Michael and I quickly break eye contact with him as that guilt overtakes my body. Adrian gently cups my face as he forces me to look him in the eye.
“Can you forgive me?” He says slowly.
“Okay, enough with the drama. Listen this is how it is going to go. Alanna you forgive him, Adrian you kiss her. We smile and rejoice in the happiness that is Alanna and Adrian. The love that lasts and that no-one can break. And what do you know; all is well in the world again.” Michael says very sarcastically.
He walks over to us and he rolls his eyes. Adrian smiles at me and I briefly return his gesture. I gaze at Michael and I cannot hold in my laugh. I begin to giggle as Adrian stands up. He walks over to Michael and my giggles soon fade.
“I want to thank you for looking after her tonight. I let her down but I can always count on you to be there for her.” Michael narrows his eyes at Adrian’s words.
“I would do anything for her.” My heart races as Michael’s words ring in my ears. Adrian shifts around a little nervously and I am scared of what his reaction might be. However, I am surprised when he reaches out his hand for Michael’s. They shake hands and then Adrian once again turns to me.
“Baby, can we talk?” I try to compose myself as my guilt begins to take over. I take a deep breath as I try to respond.
“Sure, but I need a moment alone with Michael.” Adrian quickly makes a nod towards me and then makes his way out the room. The door gently bangs and I instantly turn to Michael.
“Michael about before,” I begin to say but he stops me.
“Alanna don’t worry about that and I won’t say anything to Adrian.”
“No it was wrong I never meant for things to get so heated. I am sorry that I encouraged that behaviour.” I protest. Michael walks over to me and he takes my hands in his.
“Alanna it was a moment of weakness. Do not cut yourself up about it. It doesn’t make you bad person but instead it shows that you are only human.” I smile at him and then I let go of his hands.
I walk out into the hallway and Adrian is patiently waiting by the door for me. He smiles as he sees me and he instantly drapes his arm around my shoulder. We walk slowly to my room and when we enter, I immediately kick off my six-inch heels. I rest myself onto my bed and Adrian sits at my dressing table. He takes off his jacket to reveal a black and white, striped shirt. He stares over at me and I can tell that he is sorry for what he did.
“Alanna, I cannot begin to tell you how sorry I am. I feel terrible that I lost my temper in that way and I hope that you can forgive me.”
“Adrian, I believe that you are sorry but who was that person? I have never seen such rage in your eyes and you terrified me.” Adrian exhales as he runs his long fingers through his hair.
“Baby, I hate that you witnessed that side to me. However, no matter what I do rage is always there. It takes over me and seeing Alice brought it out in way that I could not control. I saw in your eyes that you were scared of me and that feeling will stay with me forever. I know that you were only trying to help because for some reason unknown to me, you actually care about me. You love me and now I believe even more that I do not deserve you.” I take in his words and I cannot hold back from him any longer. I rush from the bed and I now I am standing in front of him. I reach out my hand and I gently run my fingers through his tousled hair. I look down into a mesmerizing green eye and I melt. Adrian gently pulls me closer and then with one swift movement he slides me onto his lap. I wrap my legs around him and he grips my back firmly. I look into his eyes and I whisper.
“I am sorry for interfering I won’t do it again. I love you and I could forgive anything you that do. You are my world and don’t ever think that you don’t deserve me.”
Seventeen
Graduation day is finally here. I jump out of bed and I quickly shower. I make my over to my bed and I gaze at my graduation robe that lies before me. I smile at the sight of it but at the same time, I am sad that today is my last day of college. The last three years of my life have been leading up to this moment and now that it is finally here, I don’t know how I feel about it. My emotions are mixed as I think back on my time here. The long days of classes and the endless study sessions are flashing through my head. I gaze around the room and I remember all the wonderful moments Sophie and I have shared in this room. The parties and the movie marathons are what I will miss most. The long drama filled nights that we spent talking about Chace and his cheating. This room was filled with laughter and many happy occasions. From birthdays to parties and everything in between. I will miss college and I will miss my life here. I smile as I try to hold back a tear. I reassure myself that my life is just beginning and that I should be happy that my life is finally going to start - out there in the real world.