“Baby, I am so sorry.” He says as he clasps his hands together. I lift my head to look at him and his eyes are filled with sadness. He falls instantly to the floor and he holds his head in his hands. I walk a little closer to him.
“That type of behaviour is not acceptable and I cannot be around you right now.” Adrian sighs as I leave the room.
I walk briskly down to the car and I quickly jump in. I alert the driver to take me back to college as the car the speeds off. I try to wrap my head around what has just happened and as I remember his rage tears begin to flow from my eyes. Who was that guy in there? He was a version of Adrian that I have never seen before and he terrified me. His anger as he threw the vase of flowers petrified me and all I could think of was getting as far away from him as possible. I cannot believe he reacted that way but I am glad that he did. Now that I have seen this side to him, I can finally understand the real him.
The car comes to a stop and I quickly rush out into the cold street. I march into Columbia and I start for Michael’s room. I am so annoyed and scared right now and the only person that I need his him. I reach his room and I knock firmly on the door. He opens the door and I instantly lunge into his arms. My tears are flowing and Michael is surprised by my affection. He quickly moves me into the room and he bangs the door shut. I look up at him as I wipe away my tears.
“Alanna what is wrong?” He asks in a firm voice. I walk over to him and again I grab onto him. He pulls me back and he gazes into my eyes.
“What has he done?” He says. His voice is strained and his eyes look desperate. I pull back from him.
“Alice came to see him and he lost control of his temper.” I again cry as my words choke out. Michael gently wipes away my tears with one fluid motion. He leans into me and he pulls me tighter.
“Did he hurt you?” He whispers.
“No but I saw different side to him and it terrified me,” I confess. Michael holds me in his arms as he strokes my hair gently. I take a deep breath as his strong arms protect me. I close my eyes and I feel safe in Michael’s grasp. After what seems like forever, Michael finally lets me go. He walks me over to his bed and sits me down. He takes my hand in his as he begins to talk.
“Alanna, I need you to tell me what happened.” I sigh as I begin to tell him everything.
“Oh Alanna, you should not have gotten involved with Alice. She is trouble and did you think that Adrian wouldn’t act like this?”
“Call me crazy but I saw that Alice has changed. I wanted Adrian to see that and I hoped that he would have at least have given her chance.” I protest. Michael gently rolls his eyes.
“Alanna you have to realise that Adrian will never forgive what Alice did to him. I know that you want to see the good in everyone but trust me Alice has none. You should stay away from her for your own sake.”
“Michael have you ever met her?” I ask.
“No,”
“Then how can you judge her?”
“It’s simple she abused a child therefore she is not worth the time of the day. I know that you are a little ray of sunshine that wants to see the good in everyone but please Alanna, listen to Adrian and don’t talk to Alice again.” I briefly press a smile from my lips as Michael gently strokes my chin. I close my eyes at his touch and I feel as if I should listen to him. Michael has a way of compelling me into doing as he says. He puts everything into perspective and I trust his opinions. I feel that Michael knows everything and he is always right. I look at him and his beauty stuns me. His thick, dark hair is messy and his eyes are piercing. His hand is strong as he gently plays with my hair. He moves a little closer to me and I feel safe in his company.
“Alanna how did you get to be so… beautiful,” I look into his eyes as I take in his words. I shortly think that he is joking with me but as I look closer into his eyes, I can tell that he is sincere. I feel nervous as we sit extra close on his bed. I loosen my grip on his hand as I push my hair away from my face. Michael is staring wide eyed at me for a reply.
“I am nothing, you are the beautiful one.” Michael smiles at my words and he again clasps my face in his hand. He leans in and our lips almost meet, he gently grazes my nose with his. I know that this is wrong and I know that I should pull away. However, something is holding me back and I do not know what it is. Michael softly pulls my face closer and now our lips lightly touch. I close my eyes as I wait for his kiss.
Michael pulls back from me as I hear a firm knock at the door. I watch as Michael rises from the bed and makes his way to answer the knock. I take a deep breath and I cannot believe what has just happened. I let myself get caught up in Michael’s beauty and we almost kissed. My will power was at zero and I cannot forgive myself for my actions. I am playing with his emotions, as I know that nothing can happen between Michael and me. I feel that I love Adrian but I almost gave into my craving for Michael. I hate myself right now and I cannot contemplate my guilt. I know how Michael feels about me and I have now led him on even more. I feel that I cannot be trusted around him. I was so sure that Adrian was all that I wanted but I obviously have deeper feelings for Michael than I thought. I gaze at him as he stands in a plain white t-shirt and dark blue Levis. His hair is so dark and luscious, his eyes are like heaven and I feel as if I have just entered hell.