“I can’t sleep; I have been tossing and turning for hours.” I admit as I stand by his bedside. Adrian presses a smile from his lips and jolts me onto the bed next him. He huddles me into his chest as he strokes my hair.
“Admit it you just wanted to sleep in here with me?” Adrian says in a very sarcastic tone. I gently slap his chest and he lets out a husky laugh. He gently squeezes my arm as he begins to talk.
“You know that was the first night in ages that I slept and you woke me.” I feel instantly guilty at his words and I do not really know how to respond.
“I am sorry,” is all I manage to say. Adrian looks down at me as he pulls my face up to his.
“Baby, I would give up sleep forever, I would give up everything for you. All I need is your huge brown eyes and your stunning smile. I look at you, I see my life, and I could never be without you. I never thought that I was capable of loving someone as much as I love you.” I stare into his eyes and then I cannot resist his lips. I lunge forward until our lips meet, I grab onto his hair as he kisses me. I feel myself melting into him and I never want this feeling to end. Adrian pulls back and I stare at him in surprise.
“What’s wrong?” I say quietly. Adrian gently adjusts his position and I break free from his grasp. I gaze at him and he looks uncomfortable. I have never seen him like this and I wonder what is bothering him.
“Alanna, nothing is wrong.” He finally says. I narrow my eyes at him, as I do not believe his words.
“Adrian, I don’t believe you.” I say in a firm voice. Adrian shifts himself up in the bed and he runs his fingers through his hair. I watch as he considers his next words and I fear what his answer may be.
“I just felt that I things were getting a little heated and I know that you aren’t exactly comfortable with that type of affection.” I smile at his words and I lean over to him. Adrian smirks at me and gently lifts me onto his lap. I slide my hands onto his face and I place a soft kiss on his lips. He pulls back from me and he gently rolls his eyes.
“Adrian, I am honoured that you are so thoughtful of my feelings but I love you and I want you.” I gently kiss him again but Adrian soon pulls back.
“Baby, it’s not the right time for that yet, but when it is it will be epic.” I slowly move off him and I again take the space next to him. He slips his arm around me and I huddle into him. Adrian gently strokes my arm as I begin to ask him something.
“Adrian, have you ever thought about your father?” Adrian’s breathing becomes heavy and my heart begins to race. I am nervous to what his answer may be and I do not know what I will do if he feels angry at my question. Adrian takes a deep breath and I gaze up at him in wonder.
“I often think of him.” He admits. I am glad that his answer was mellow and the look that is in his eyes alerts me into quizzing him more.
“Have you ever met him?”
“No, I don’t know anything about him. Sometimes I wonder what he is like but other times I could not care less. He left me and I went through hell, I don’t think that I could ever forgive him for that.” I sigh at his words and I feel compassionate towards him.
“I am sure you could learn to forgive if he gave you that chance. Have you ever tried to find him?” I ask in a soothing tone. Adrian stares wide eyed at me and I gaze back at him.
“A few years ago I did a search on him and I found out that he was in Edinburgh.” I smile at him but at the same time, I can see that he has pain about this subject.
“Scotland is not that far from you, did you go there?” I ask. Adrian shakes his head at me and I feel him getting more frustrated with my queries.
“No, I got to his front door but I could not bring myself to knock. Alanna I am done with talking about this.” He says firmly.
“Okay, but if you ever decide that you want to see him all you have to do is ask and I will be there every step of the way to support you.” Adrian smiles at me and I am paralyzed at the sight. He gently kisses the top of my head and he whispers.
“I will keep that in mind; now baby its late, go to sleep my beautiful.”
The sun is beaming in through the window as I wake. I quickly glance over to the left side of bed but I see that Adrian is gone. I quickly jump out of the bed and I stride out of the room. I make my way into the living area and I can hear people talking. I walk further and Adrian greets me. He walks over to me and he takes me by the hand. He leads me into the lounge area and that is when I see Michael and Katharine. I quickly flash them a smile as I wonder why they are here. Adrian takes a seat onto the large white sofa and I quickly sit next to him.