“Alanna don’t cry,” Sophie says as he hugs me for the third time. I pull back from her.
“Sophie, have you tried to call him?”
“No I haven’t, I don’t know what I would say to him.”
“What about Michael have you seen him?”
“Yes I saw him when he was at this hospital what he did is beyond words!”
“I know and I will always be grateful to him.”
“Maybe he knows where Adrian is, have you tried to call him?”
“No not yet. I have feelings for Michael and I care about him a lot. He is a very good friend.”
“After everything that happened with him and Katharine, I tried not to like him. But after what he did for you, I don’t see how anyone could slate him.” Sophie says emotionally.
“He did treat Katharine bad and I am not going to deny that but that’s not who he is. He is a kind and caring person.”
“He loves you Alanna.” I look down at the bed so I do not have to look at Sophie.
“I know he does he told me many times!”
“Do you feel the same way about him?”
“No, I love Adrian but there is something about Michael that I can’t explain. I know that I wouldn’t want to be apart from him.”
“Alanna,do you love both of them?”
“I love Adrian the most but I have a special bond with Michael that scares me,” as my words ring in my ears I feel guilty for being so selfish. A normal girl would have just chosen one, but me I want them both.
“I think that you need to talk to Michael he is the only other person that is going through what you are and he will understand you more than anyone” I know that Sophie is right I should talk to Michael it’s the least I could do after all he did save my life.
“Thanks Sophie,” I say.
“So Alanna tell me more about this hot doctor,” I laugh at her a little confused.
“What about Dan?” She sighs,
“I don’t want to bother you with my boy drama”
“What? Come on tell me what is going on?”
“Where do I start?” Sophie says quietly and I can see that she has sadness in her eyes as she begins to talk about Dan.
“We are on a break right now.”
“Why? You two were going strong what happened?”
“It was a mixture of things over the last couple of weeks we haven’t been spending anytime together. I think that I have literally talked to him twice in the past two weeks!”
“Have you grown apart?”
“Yes I don’t know if it’s me that changed or him but something is different and I don’t know what it is.”
“Have you tried talking to him about how you feel?”
“I don’t want to; I fear what he might say. I don’t know what he is thinking anymore and it scares me,” Sophie says and I can tell that she is hurting over this. Things have changed dramatically since I have been in here. I am no longer in contact with Adrian, Sophie and Dan’s relationship has gone to garbage, and I wonder what else has changed?
“Sophie, you and Dan are meant to be together. You have to work things out with him you can’t lose him.”
“I know that he is the most special guy that I have ever been with. But I don’t know if that is enough for me, Alanna.”
“What more do you want? He loves you and he treats you right. Sophie you don’t know how lucky you are.”
“Alanna, I know all this but something inside of me is saying that he is not enough!”
“What do you want?”
“I know this is going to sound really jealous, but Alanna I want what you have.” I gasp, as I never knew that she felt this way.
“Sophie that’s not how you should live your life and what do I have that’s so special?”
“Alanna, don’t make me laugh, you have the two most gorgeous guys I have ever seen fighting over you.”
“Trust me, that’s not a good thing!”
“You see it is, not only do you have one amazing guy but you have two. Most girls don’t get any and here you are with a choice of hot or hotter!”
“Sophie, you wouldn’t want this!”
“No, I think that I would!”
“You can’t base your life on my experiences. You have to work things out with Dan that’s the right thing to do,” I say, trying to convince her but somehow I do not think that she can be convinced!
“Alanna, I know what I want and it’s not Dan.”
“I can’t believe you are saying this how can you treat him like that?”
“Alanna, don’t you think that it’s hard on me? I hate myself for even thinking that I have the right to say that he is not good enough. I wish that I could love him more. But it doesn’t matter how hard I try I somehow can’t fully give myself to him.”