“Come in,” I say thinking it must be Sophie. When the door opens it is not Sophie that I see, instead it is the doctor, the tall, dark and handsome doctor.
“Miss Hart, how are you feeling,” He walks over as he talks.
“I am ok,” I say, shifting back into the bed.
“Nurse Melissa told me that you made some good progress today.”
“Yes I walked if you can call that progress!”
“You have to understand that what you did today was exceptional. It takes most people a lot longer to even get out of bed after something like this,” he says and he moves a little closer to me.
“Miss Hart I haven’t introduced myself yet… I am James.” I am surprised that he has told me his first name. I think that it would be somewhat informal for me to call him by his first name. After all, he is my doctor and I feel that there should be a level of respect in that.
“Nice to meet you doctor,”
“Please call me James,” he says again.
“Ok if I call you James then you must call me Alanna!”
“No problem, Alanna!”
“Alanna, can I ask you something,” I am a little shocked at this guy but I am polite in my reply.
“Of course… what’s up?”
“When you get better and you are ready to leave hospital do you think that maybe we could go out sometime?” I am very shocked by his words. He is my doctor and it is strange that he feels this way. I do not know what to say back to him.
“I am really flattered but I have a boyfriend.”
“You do?” He says looking surprised.
“Yes I do,”
“Then where is he?” I sigh as I respond.
“I don’t know, I woke up to find out that he wasn’t around. But I still have to be faithful to him so I hope you can… understand.”
“I do, but do you think that he is being faithful to you?” I take in his words and I realize that I never thought of that. I never once stopped to think that maybe he has found someone else. Or even worse perhaps he has gone back to Zara Thomas. I shake off that feeling and I try to convince myself that he would not do that.
“I hate that he is not here but I don’t think that he would do anything like that.”
“I am sure he wouldn’t and he is probably pining away after you, right?”
“I hope so!” I say. I turn to face the door, as there is another knock and this time it is Sophie who is here.
“Is it ok to come in?” She says in a quiet voice. As soon as she does, Dr James walks over to the door and takes her by the hand in through the door. He smiles back at me and he is gone.
“Alanna,who was that,” Sophie says smiling from ear-to-ear.
“That’s my doctor,”
“Wow I wish he was my doctor! Oh Alanna, I am so glad to see you, I have been so worried.” She says as she walks over to me and gives me a very gentle hug.
“How did this happen, Alanna?” Sophie sounds as if she has suspicion in her voice. I look at her and I try to banish her doubts.
“It was just a random attack it was no one’s fault. I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time,” Sophie hugs me again so gently it is almost as if she is scared that I will break.
“Where is Belle?”
“My mom will be back later Sophie can you please tell me about Adrian?” Sophie takes a seat next to the bed and begins,
“Alanna, I don’t know where he is but I was the last person to talk to him before he left.”
“What did he say? You have to tell me everything,” I say desperately.
“He came to me before you got hurt, he was looking for you at college and I could see that he had much on his mind. I talked to him for a while and I did apologise for the way I had acted.”
“Okay but what else?”
“He had a ring and he was going to ask you to marry him,” my heart sinks at her words.
“I don’t understand if he was going to ask me to marry him then why is he not here?”
“Alanna, when you had to have emergency surgery, he couldn’t handle that. He was scared and he thought he was going to lose you. Alanna, he loves you so much but he blames himself for this.”
“That’s crazy it’s not his fault.”
“I know and I tried to make him see that but he wouldn’t. He broke down into tears and he looked like a broken man.”
“So did he just leave?”
“Yes he couldn’t stay until you were out of surgery it was too hard on him. So he left but he told me to tell you something, if you made it through.”
“What was it?”
“He said that you are his everything and he will never love another the way he loves you. A second will not go by when he does not think of you, but he also said that he could not be with you. He feels you would be better without him in your life.” I burst into tears, I cannot accept this and I will not.