“Adrian, I have a strange connection to Michael. I do not fully understand it myself and I do not expect you to. However, what I do know is that, I want Michael in my life. He is connected to me and I would not be the same person if he were not around. You have to understand that I love you and nothing will ever happen between me and Michael.”
Adrian firmly spins me around so that I am now facing him. He holds me tightly and I look up into his green eyes. He gently pushes my hair away with one soft movement and he places a long finger onto my chin.
“Baby, look my in the eyes and tell me that you don’t love him.”
My heart skips a beat and I glare into his almond shaped eyes. I lightly lift my hand, I place it onto his jaw, and he slightly twitches at the feeling.
“Adrian, I don’t love Michael.” I say smoothly.
Adrian has a blank stare on his face as he takes in my words. He quickly snaps out of his trance.
“Can I be one hundred per cent sure that you will never leave me?”
I respond instantly. “I will never ever leave you. You are my world and I was lost without you.”
Adrian rubs his forehead while he is in thought. My heart is racing and I do not know what his reaction will be.
“I want to believe you baby, but something in your eyes is stopping me.”
My heart sinks at his revelation and I cannot look at him. I gently push him away from me and I turn around so that I am again looking out at the city. I feel annoyed with him and I do not want to look at his beautiful face. Because I know that if I did then I could forgive anything that he says. I feel his hand placed on my shoulder but I do not flinch. I stand completely still and motionless as Adrian moves closer.
“Baby, are you mad at me?” He asks in a surprising tone. I take a deep breath and I turn instantly to face him. I look at his overwhelming face and I try my hardest to focus. I quickly remind myself that I am mad at him and I will not let him off with annoying me.
“Yes, I am mad at you.”
Adrian is now the one that looks annoyed. He moves his hand from my shoulder and places it into his deep coat pocket. He leans back from me and his eyes look angry.
“What did I do to make you so mad?” He has the nerve to ask.
“You just said that you don’t believe anything I say. You look into my eyes and you feel that I am lying to you. Did you think that I wouldn’t be mad at that comment?” I say in a very firm voice.
Adrian shifts around nervously and I can tell that he is not used to this sort of confrontation. He gazes at me and I almost feel guilty for questioning him. I quickly focus my mind again and I make myself believe that I have a right to be angry with him. I have been through so much since I met him with the shooting and the stalking issue. I feel that Adrian should be relieved that I stood by him in the way that I did. Most girls I know would have run a mile at the very thought of what happened. I am very insulted to hear that he does not believe my feelings for him are true.
“No baby, listen to me.”
He walks over to me and he gently lifts my hand and places onto his chest. I stare at him in amazement and I do not understand is actions.
“I am a control freak and I know that I am crazy.” Adrian whispers.
“No, you’re none of those things and this is not about your need to control everything. I understand where that comes from and I accept it. This is about, you not trusting me when I say that nothing will ever happen between Michael and me.” I try to slide my hand from his grasp but Adrian only intensifies his grip.
“I do trust you,” Adrian says with a light smirk on his face. I quickly pull my hand from him and my movement startles him. His grin soon fades and he moves away from me. Adrian strides over to the barrier and rests against it. He exhales as he stares out at the night sky.
“Alanna, I am sorry if I insulted you.” Adrian says in a soft tone. I walk over and stand next to him. I maintain my distance as I feel that I need to get my point across.
“You said that something in my eyes was telling you not to trust me. Was I correct in hearing that?” Adrian does not look at me when he says his next words.
“You did hear correctly but you need to understand something.” He says very firmly. I move a little closer to him and I catch a whiff of his strong cologne as the wind picks up its pace. My heart almost stops at scent but I focus my mind back to the conversation.
“Alanna, I am a very difficult person and I respect you for putting up with me. However, I am very insecure about how you feel about me.” I am stunned by his confession and I need to know more.
“I cannot understand why you would be insecure?” I say smugly.
“Alanna, this is difficult for me to talk about.” Adrian says and he finally turns to face me. His hair is more tousled than before and even in the darkness of our surroundings, I can still see that his eyes are glowing.