“Alanna, I am with Katharine now, you have to respect that, okay?”
“I do, but I still need you in my life.” He sighs.
“I don’t need you in mine.” He says very bitterly and I feel repulsed by his words.
“You don’t mean that.”
“Yes I do.”
“It wasn’t so long ago that you loved me, why are you being like this?” I say very loudly.
“Because you chose him,” He shouts back at me.
“Please Michael don’t get into all that.”
“It’s true, you chose him. You want him and I am just a backup to you, now that he is gone, you want me. Well I have news for you Alanna; I won’t be your backup bloke.”
“I don’t want you as a backup; I want you as my friend.”
“Alanna, I have told you one million times that I cannot be just your friend, why won’t you accept that?”
“I know it is selfish of me, but I need you Michael.”
“I take it you still have not heard from Adrian?”
“No, do you know where he is?”
“Alanna, I don’t want to get into this with you, I have to go, do not call me again.”
“Michael, wait,” I say but I am too late, he hangs up on me, and I am left with nothing but silence.
“Alanna, how are you today?” Nurse Melissa says, as she enters. I quickly smile at her as I continue to wander around the room. The pain from my wound is not that bad anymore. Although I wish, I could say the same, about the ache in my heart.
“I feel great today,” I say ecstatically. Melissa smiles at me,
“Alanna, I feel that you are pushing yourself very hard, to try and prove that you are able to leave. However, I need you to know that, we will not discharge you a minute too soon.” I roll my eyes slightly and I force out a smile.
“I understand, but really I do feel fine.” Melissa briefly presses a smile form her lips as she walks over to my bedside, lifts out my file and begins to write down something. I worry of what she could be saying on my file. I dread to think that, perhaps whatever she says on there may hinder my chances of getting out of this hospital anytime soon. I walk back over the bed and climb in. I slide over the table and again I check my phone. I glance to a message, but my heart skinks when it is just a message from Sophie.
Alanna, I will be over later, see you soon, Sophie.
I quickly reply to her,
Okay, see you later.
I again check my emails, but as before, there is none from Adrian. I place my phone down onto the table a little too roughly. Melissa jumps up from the page she is writing on and I can see that she is shocked by my actions.
“Wow, what did that phone ever do to you?” She says in a sarcastic tone. I force myself to be nice and not to say what really is on my mind.
“I am sorry, I am a little distracted.” Melissa exhales,
“He called today, again,” I am stunned that she has brought up Adrian. However, I want to know more.
“Really, did you talk to him?” She slides my file back into its casing and moves closer to me.
“Yes, I spoke to him today.” I gasp,
“What did he say?”
“Not much, just the usual.”
“And that is?”
“He loves you, but something is stopping him from being here.” I sigh,
“I know, but he will not answer my calls, what am I supposed to do?” I say desperately.
“I really have no idea,” She says as she flashes me a sympathetic look. I shake my head at my thoughts of Adrian. I hate him for the way he is acting. I wish that he would be different about this. I wish that he would just give in to his feelings and not let the past always be a factor in his life. If only he could move on from what happened. Then I know that, he and I could have a happy, normal, loving relationship, I long to make him understand that I am all right. The danger that I was in, is no longer an issue. Adrian was punished and I have paid the price. I feel that I am missing the best thing that has ever happened to me. I need Adrian in my life and I know that he needs me too.
“Did he give you any clue as to where he is?” I say to Melissa, I know it is a long shot even to think that she knows where Adrian is. However, I have to ask.
“No, I have no idea where he is, but Alanna, you know him and you should have an idea of where he could be.” I sit upright in the bed and Melissa is right. If anyone would know where he is, then it would be me. My mind begins to spin and I think back to every conversation I have ever had with Adrian. I scowl my forehead as I think. My eyes blink rapidly and then, I remember. France, he loves it over there and if he is not in London, then I am sure that the only other place he could be is in, St Tropez. I sit even further up in the bed, and now I am staring deeply at Melissa.