“Alanna my beautiful,” he says as he kisses my head softly. He quickly takes off his suit jacket and he loosens the top button of his shirt. As he focuses on me, I can tell that he knows something is wrong.
“What’s wrong Alanna?” He says very tensely. I reach over and take his hand but he pulls back. I look at him amazement and I can tell that he is not happy.
“I want you stay calm okay?” Adrian scowls at me and I can see his anger building.
“Tell me what is wrong!” He says very firmly. I reach into my pocket and I take out the note.
“Read this,” I say as I hand him the note. Adrian snatches the note from me and he franticly begins to read it. His eyes almost fall from his head as he takes in the words. His hands are shaking and he instantly tears up the note. I frown at him and he notices my actions.
“Don’t frown at me,” he snaps.
“Was it really necessary for you to rip it up?” I say sarcastically. Adrian rushes up from the sofa and makes his way into the kitchen. I readjust so that I can see what he is doing. He searches the fridge and takes a bottle of water. He shakes his head as he sips his beverage.
“It is times like this that I wish I drank alcohol!” I am stunned by his confession but I try to forget his words as I ask him how he feels.
“Adrian what are you thinking?” He rolls his eyes at me.
“What do you think?” He says very smugly.
“There is no need to be sarcastic!” I snap. Adrian’s face instantly falls and I can tell that I have angered him. He slams the bottle of water down onto the counter and he runs his fingers through his hair.
“Alanna, this is not a time for you smart comments.”
“Then what is it a time for?” Adrian’s eyes focus on mine as he walks over to me.
“It is time for dinner,” I frown at him.
“Adrian I am not really hungry right now. Did you not see the note? Do you not have something to say about it?”
“Alanna, what do you want me to say? I told you yesterday that you were in danger. Did you not believe me?” Adrian says in harsh tone. I gaze at him and my annoyance is building.
“Of course I believed you but what about the note? You are not telling me how you feel and you always have an opinion on everything!” Adrian leaps from the sofa and he begins to neurotically pace around the room.
“Okay, you want my opinion? I am scared and I am guilty and hate that I put you through this. I am trying my best Alanna and nothing I do is ever good enough. I hate myself and some days I cannot hold back my rage. But you know what gets me through it? It’s the thought of you and the fact that you say that you love me. You have already been shot because of me and I am trying to prevent you from getting hurt again. I want to cherish every moment with you because I fear that I will lose you. So is that a good enough explanation for you?”
“Adrian, I am sorry,”
“Alanna don’t apologise I am sick of hearing you say sorry?” I feel guilty for pushing him on this so I gently get up from the sofa and make my way over to him. He clasps my face in his hands as he kisses me. I pull back from him.
“You won’t lose me and we can weather any storm because I love you. I will always stand by you and don’t ever feel that you are not good enough. Because you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I would be lost without you.” Adrian does not respond with words, he simply pulls me closer and he kisses me firmly.
Adrian wakes me bright and early the next day, as we have to leave for Edinburgh. I quickly take a shower and then I begin to pack. I throw a few things into my overnight bag but Adrian quickly stops me.
“Baby what are doing?”
“Packing for Edinburgh?” He smiles at me.
“You better pack all you things as tomorrow we will be flying straight from Edinburgh to New York.”
“Crap I forgot, thanks for reminding me.” I say as I hurry into my closet. I begin to lift all the clothes out from the closet and then I go back for my suitcases. I jump as I hear a knock at the door. Adrian smiles at me as he makes his way to answer the door. I quickly feel secure as I hear Sophie. I dump my clothes onto my suitcase as I see Sophie popping her head in the door.
“Oh my god,” she says in a sarcastic tone. “How much clothes do you have Alanna?” I smile as I again begin to pack.
“So what’s up?” I say smoothly. Sophie makes her way further into the room and she sits carefully on my bed.
“I am leaving,” Sophie says calmly.
“Oh when?”
“Today, Adrian booked me a flight.” I sigh as Adrian thinks of everything.
“Adrian has to go to Edinburgh for business and I kind of to go with him. Hey at least you won’t have to fly home alone?” Sophie shakes her head at my words.