While releasing my liplock on the breast I'd been offered, I opened my eyes and immediately saw that I was right — it was Charlene at my head. After managing to get myself propped up on my elbows, I looked down to see that Eva was looking at me with trepidation. Before I could say anything, though, she spoke first: "I'm sorry to have to surprise you like this, Billy, but I thought it was the only way that I'd ever be able to make love with you."
The expression on her face and what she'd said were enough to keep me from saying any of the things I'd meant to in favor of asking "What do you mean?"
"I mean just what I said. When I asked you if you thought it would be okay for a brother and sister to make love, you didn't tell me 'no' — but you didn't exactly tell me 'yes', either. Sure, you gave me a bunch of reasons why it might not be a good idea, but you never gave me any sign that you'd be okay with it if that stuff was taken care of, either. And you sure didn't act like it was anything we could or should talk about, either; you just said a bunch of stuff and then shut up."
I thought back to the conversation we'd had, and as I replayed it in my mind, I had to admit that she wasn't exaggerating. Regretting what I hadn't done or said (for a change), I looked into her eyes and contritely responded with "I'm sorry, Sis. I really didn't mean for it to come across like that. All I wanted to do was make sure you knew that it was important enough that we had to really think about it first, and be sure."
"Well, whatever you meant to happen, I did think about it… a lot." She took a deep breath and continued "Billy, I know we'd have to be careful about all the stuff you said about being with each other, and being with other people — just like I know that whatever happens between us isn't something that we can keep doing for the rest of our lives or anything. I love you, Billy, but like a brother that I know loves me, and that I can trust not to do anything to hurt me, and to be there when I need you, and to make me happy and help me feel good — not just about the sex stuff we do together, but everything else, too. If we start making love with each other, I know it'll just be more of what we've already done: something that makes both of us happy and lets us learn about this stuff with someone we love and trust. I think it's okay because we aren't grown and mature enough to be making big lifetime kinds of decisions yet; the only reason this is right for us now is because we are as young as we are and not ready to go out and be on our own yet. We're old enough to appreciate that we're learning things we need to know from each other, but still young enough that all this can be is just one small part of us becoming adults. When we were younger, it was the right time for us to learn how boys and girls are different; now it's the right time for us to learn how to make the best of those differences before we go on to find the people that we want to spend the rest of our lives with. I know that, Billy, just as much as you do. All I want is to be able to learn this part with someone I know I can trust: you."
I could only lay there in silence as she went on "Billy, you had some real good reasons why a brother and sister together might not be a good idea. But I thought of some things myself why it could be a good thing."
"Such as?", I wanted to know.
"Such as maybe if a sister and brother can make love with each other, then neither one of them would feel like they have to do stuff they might not want to with someone else. Maybe if they can make love with each other, then they can learn how to make love better — and make their husband or wife that much happier when they get married. Like maybe if a brother and sister are okay with making love, then they can take care of their needs and desires with each other, instead of getting a bad reputation by doing them with other people. A brother and sister can help each other, so that whichever one of them might have a problem, they can figure out how to take care of it, instead of just going around and feeling bad about it. Don't those sound like good things to you, Billy?"#p#分页标题#e#
I admitted that they did, and she just looked at me for several seconds before tenderly saying "Billy, I know you wouldn't have wanted us to start making love like this. It wasn't MY first choice, either. But it was as easy as I hoped it would be, and you were as patient as I could have asked; the thing that I was most worried about was that you'd just… push yourself into me before I was ready, once I was over you. I know you thought I was Charlene, but you still waited and let me only go as fast as I was comfortable with, and now I'm so happy to feel you inside me. I don't think you're happy about how it happened, and I can understand that — I just hope you can forget how we got here, and remember how much you love me so you can make me feel as good as I believe you can."