"I don't think you are. I think I'm the only one who noticed."
She bit her lip and seemed unsure if she liked that I had noted her discomfort. "Well, thanks. I'm fine."
"Heidi Martin is not the kind of girl who is ever just fine."
She raised an eyebrow. "Seriously, I'm fine."
"You usually take over the world in a group. Your personality cannot be contained. But you don't seem happy."
"I am happy."
"Liar."
She laughed humorlessly. "Well, I'm happy for Emery. I'm happy that she has her whole family here and her whole humongous new family here. Your family. I'm so happy that there's so much love around her. She deserves that."
"And you don't?" I asked.
"I wasn't talking about me." She tucked her fair hair behind an ear and turned her head away from me.
"Weren't you?"
"It's silly. Forget about it."
"It's not silly if you're upset. Talk to me, Heidi," I encouraged her. "If we have anything at all, it's that we can talk to each other. You know that I'm here. That I'll listen."
She met my gaze and must have seen how sincere I was because her shoulders relaxed. "It's just … I don't have a family. So, sometimes, being around a family like yours is overwhelming. You know?"
I didn't. Not really. I'd always had a big family. I'd always wanted a big family. That had been a sticking point with Miranda in the last year. It worried me that Heidi might feel the same.
"Overwhelming how?"
"I don't know. Like … it's hard to be around all these people who know and love each other so much and not feel kind of … jealous. I feel horrible even thinking like that, but the only family I have is Emery. And then I see all of you together and Emery's family, who practically took me in, and I just … want that."
Relief flooded me. I couldn't even believe I had thought for a second that she would be anything like Miranda. Heidi felt bad because she was alone, and she wanted more. It was refreshing and a completely understandable emotion.
"You're not alone, you know?" I said.
"Well, the family I do have doesn't count," she said harshly.
"I wasn't talking about your dad, but we can if you'd like."
She shook her head once fiercely. "I don't want to talk about him. He's in prison where he belongs."
I nodded, giving her the room she needed. It wasn't a secret to anyone that Heidi's dad was in prison for money laundering and drug trafficking. When the economy had tanked, he'd almost lost the bar, and he had resorted to illicit means to keep afloat. It had all caught up with him in the worst possible way. It had been a huge scandal, and Hank Martin was a name that everyone in town knew.
"We can talk about your dad when you're ready."
"Don't hold your breath," she muttered.
"In the meantime, you are not alone. Emery might be tried and true, but I'm not going anywhere. You don't have to want a family like that when we're standing right in front of you, accepting you into the fold. It might take some getting used to. I know we're an … interesting bunch. But you never have to search for family again when you have mine right in front of you."
I was offering her my family on a platter. I knew that they all already loved Heidi. Jensen thought she was an incredible employee and a great best friend. Austin thought she was hilarious and a fun person to hang out with. High praise from him. Heidi and Morgan used to cheer together. They were already bonded. And Sutton had always wanted to be like Emery and Heidi when we were in high school.
My family already accepted her more than they had ever accepted Miranda.
And Heidi had no clue.
Heidi breathed out a sigh and seemed to take in what I had told her. "You sure know how to calm a girl down."
"Just you, Heidi."
Heidi laughed. "Knowing your track record, I have to agree with that."
"Now, are you feeling better? Want to come join the cool kids' table?"
"Popularity is so overrated, Landon."
I grinned. That was the exact opposite of the Heidi I'd known in high school. "Come on, cheerleader. Get it moving. Jensen is going to start grilling soon, and you do not want to be over here, standing in his way, when he gets near a grill. Come grab a beer, and hang out with us. We don't bite. Well, I can't guarantee Austin."
Heidi giggled, and her whole face brightened. Whatever demons she had been facing disappeared into the clouds. She was just the confident, bubbly girl I found utterly fascinating.