He motioned around the room. “Feel free to make yourself at home. I have a few business calls to make. Afterward, we’ll order a meal and have a conversation.”
Peachy. She forced a tight smile. “I look forward to it.” How much vodka could she drink before he got done with his calls? Enough to muffle the soul-searing pain demanding she go running back into James’s arms? Somehow, she doubted it. There wasn’t enough alcohol in the world.
But that wouldn’t stop her from trying.
Is he going to expect me in his bed tonight? She couldn’t play the blushing virgin wanting to wait for her wedding night. He’d already more than proven that he’d done his research when it came to her—not to mention that she’d put this entire thing in jeopardy for one more time with James.
I didn’t even get to say good-bye.
She took another healthy gulp of the vodka. Dmitri wasn’t ugly or gross, but the mere thought of his hands on her body made her stomach lurch. I don’t know if I can do this. If she hadn’t had a taste of how good things could be with James, she’d probably be able to fake it with Dmitri. Or, more likely, she wouldn’t have had to fake it at all. He seemed like the kind of man who knew his way around a woman’s body. Before she’d experienced how good it could be when her heart was involved, that would have been enough for her.
She wasn’t sure it still was.
“Perfect.” Dmitri pulled his phone out of his pocket. “My men won’t come into the room, but they are stationed at the doors. I don’t have to tell you not to do something ill advised.”
It wasn’t a question, so she didn’t deign to answer it. His threat to James kept her in place, and he damn well knew it. “Don’t worry about me. The most damage I’ll do while you’re busy is to your vodka.” Maybe a little distance from him would let her get her game face back into place. She was in the middle of a death spiral, and that was unacceptable. This was a man who would capitalize on any weakness, and she’d more than given him enough ammunition in the last hour. It was time to get back onto the playing field. Carrigan braced herself, smiled, and touched his arm, letting her hand linger there even though she was dangerously close to having the vodka she’d drank make a reappearance. “I want to thank you.”
“Oh?”
“You didn’t have to show mercy.” She made herself move closer. “I’m very, very grateful that you did.”
His expression didn’t so much as twitch. “Good.” He turned and walked away, cutting an imposing figure in his perfectly fitted suit. Though he hadn’t technically agreed to anything, he was a smart man, and a smart man would know it was more important to secure her obedience and loyalty early on, rather than exact petty revenge to assuage his pride.
She hoped.
She downed another gulp of the vodka, relishing the burn because of the future oblivion it promised. She looked around the room, taking in the understated elegance. Sitting here in the kitchen like a lush, just waiting for Dmitri to wander back in and pay attention to her…No, thanks.
After topping off her vodka, she wandered around the living room. Everything was top of the line and completely soulless. She would have traded it in a hot second for the faded, lived-in feel of James’s beach place. She rubbed her chest. How was it possible to miss someone so much when she’d been with them a day before? Carrigan sipped her vodka, going slower now that she’d started to feel its effects. Getting drunk was a dumb decision. The last thing she needed was to break down in front of Dmitri in an alcohol-infused sob session. He already had too much power over her. She refused to hand him any more weapons.
Needing to combat the fuzziness threatening, she crossed the living room and muscled open one of the large windows overlooking Back Bay. Instantly, she got a face full of icy wind. She closed her eyes and tilted her head back, letting the cold sink into her, driving away her buzz. Better. Much better. She wouldn’t be able to stand here too long, but it was exactly what she’d needed.
I need a plan in place to deal with him. I’ve spent too much time letting my emotions get the better of me and giving the advantage to everyone else. It ends now.
It didn’t take long for shivers to start racking her body, but she wrapped her arms around herself, not willing to close the window just yet.
“Yes, yes, I know.”
Carrigan frowned. What the hell? She angled to look out the window, trying to figure out what she was hearing. It didn’t take long to recognize Dmitri’s voice. Apparently the window in the master bedroom was cracked open as well. There was no reason his business calls should interest her, but she needed every piece of information she could get when it came to this man. One never knew when the opportunity would arise where it could be used for leverage.