The Throwbacks: A Compilation Of Four Complete Dark Psychological Romance Novellas(30)

When she came back I released the breath I'd not been aware of holding, she seemed subdued and unsure of herself and I thought it best to get the shit over with.

"We need to talk." I took her hand without farther ado and headed to the office.

Seating her in a chair across from me I pondered my next words carefully.

"I want you to spend more time in town..."

"What...?"

She was out of her chair and kneeling in front of me before I could blink. I couldn't touch her now, if I did, I would never get through this.

" Simone, I've been thinking...I took you against your will..."

"Daddy don't." She grabbed my hands in hers.

"Ssh, listen, I told you the story yesterday about my sister, the guy who took her also saw something he wanted." I was going to be sick, what the fuck had I done?

"Not the same..." She was shaking her head wildly.

"What if you're only staying because I didn't give you a choice, what if what you think you feel for me isn't real?"

"You want to send me away, you don't want me anymore, you're mad about the computer." She kept finding all these reasons why I was sending her away, which I wasn't, not really.

"It's none of those things baby, I love you, more than I ever thought possible, but what if I'm no better than him, what if..."

"Don't say that, you're not like that."

"Simone..."

"No daddy, no, you can't send me away, we can't be apart, I won't do it." She ran out the room. That was the first time she'd ever spoken to me like that in five years.

I went to find her and found her under the blankets with the covers over her head.

"Baby come out from under there and talk to me."

"Baby listen to me...."

"No you listen, I heard what you said about your sister, I'm sorry that happened to her, but you're not like him."

"Simone I chained you to my bed and forced myself in you...."

"Daddy, I know, I was there remember, I know what you're thinking and you're wrong, how could you not have known all this time, how could you not see?

You took me yes, and I was scared out of my mind in the beginning, but you never once hurt me, the first few weeks here I didn't know what to expect, but by the time we found out I was pregnant I was halfway in love with you already. You don’t see yourself, you're the kindest, gentlest person I know, you always put me first, now it's me and the boys, you drive yourself crazy trying to make sure we're safe, you shower us with gifts every chance you get, and do you remember when the boys were sick with fever as babies? You stayed up all night with them in your arms, and no matter how I begged you to put them down and get some rest you wouldn't leave them, not for a second. A monster wouldn't do that."

"But if I hadn't taken you maybe you would've had a better life somewhere." It burned me to say that but it had to be said, I'd opened a can of worms, one I hadn't known was there, how could I have missed the parallels?

"What if all you're feeling is just...in your head...?"

"I know what you're thinking and you're so wrong, my life before you was a shadow, I had no one daddy, why do you think I was hiking across the country alone? I was a very unhappy person back then, I was searching for something I didn't know what, until you cried when you held our son for the first time, that look on your face and the one you wear whenever you look at us, that's what I was searching for, so no, I won't be going into town more often, what for I belong here with you and the boys."

" I wasn't going to take them away from you, it would kill me to do it, but if you wanted to leave I would've let you go, I..."

"I'm not going anywhere..."

"You're not making this easy."

"I should make it easy for you to destroy our lives? I love my life with you, nothing else matters, now let's go make lunch I'm starving."

I sat there as she left the room; I guess I've been dismissed. Could she be right, could I be worrying for nothing? Man I hope so, I really hope so, my heart couldn't take it if she wasn't.





13





The next few days were a bit tense for me; I hadn't touched Simone since that morning when we had the conversation. Every once in a while I'd catch her out the side of my eye giving me furtive looks but I was adamant about giving her space, letting her breathe.

I spent more time apart from her and the kids, spending hours in my workshop taking out my frustration on wood and pounding nails.

I felt like an addict coming down from a high, going through withdrawals after years of binging on a favorite drug.

At night I'd wait until she fell asleep before sneaking into bed, I'd lay there and watch her as she slept, my heart heavy and fear in my gut.

Now here it is, Saturday, the kids are home, there's lots of running around and screaming, usually I'd be right in the middle of it, rough housing with my boys.

I slammed out the back door and headed for my workshop. I spent hours working on a piece driving my body and mind to exhaustion. By the time I lifted my head it was late afternoon and the sun was going down.

I made my way back to the house, my trepidation growing with each step, it was way too dark in there and where was the blast of the television blaring cartoons or some Disney show?

My heart pounded in sickening fear when I walked in to find an empty house.

"No...Simone...no." I dropped to my knees in the middle of the living room, tears running unchecked down my cheeks, bile rising in my throat.

"SIMONE..."I don't know how long I laid there, heart sick and broken.

When I could feel my legs again I rushed out the door and to the garage. The cars were all there, the alarm for the gate hadn't signaled and there had been no alert on the workshop monitors so they couldn't have gone too far. Please don't let her have left me.

I never prayed so hard in my life, I think I might have even promised to give up some things in the future, I'm not sure, all I could think about was her being gone, the three of them, my world, out of my life forever.

No fucking way, I couldn't survive it, I'd never let that happen.

Running back inside I grabbed the keys to the ATV to go looking for them. As I came back out the door I heard them.

I've never moved so fast in my life as I did when I ran to them. Fear gave way to anger, anger to jubilation, and then, enlightenment. I grabbed them up in my arms, trying to hold all of them at once until we ended up in a tangle on the ground.

"Where were you?" My voice was gruff as I pulled her head back to look into her eyes.

"We went for a walk daddy, that's all." I saw something in her eyes; some knowledge was hiding there behind the innocent look she gave, as the boys thought we were playing a new game and started tackling me.





That night I enjoyed my family as we made dinner together, then sat around the table eating and laughing. The boys were full of questions as usual and I could see they were glad to have their father back.

Putting them to bed after their baths took on new meaning, they were mine, they'd always been mine, but somehow unbeknownst to me I'd been harboring this fear, now I could truly breathe. No one was going to take them from me, not ever.

I tackled her down to the mattress after her shower that night, tickling her to laughter, until laughter became deep sighs as I touched her with all the love I held inside for her.

I marked her in ways I hadn't since our first few weeks together, I needed to reclaim her once more, to stamp myself on her and in her.

By the time I entered her gently while gazing lovingly into her eyes, I was lost.

"I know what you did...thank you." I drove into her as deep as I could go as she wrapped her legs around me, her heels grinding into my ass keeping me locked inside her.

"Don't ever leave me Simone...swear it."

"I swear daddy, never."

"Tell me you love me."

"Love you daddy, so much." Her head went back as she enjoyed the slow stroking of my cock in and out of her pussy.

I stroked her softly a few times more before the need overcame me and I wanted more, needed more.

I needed to reclaim her, get things back on an even keel.

"Ready?" She nodded, I pulled out, turned her over and tied her hands behind her back.

"Kneel." She climbed off the bed to the floor, kneeling at my feet, head bowed, and forehead to the floor.

I stroked my hard cock over her bowed head as her body in subjection went to my head.

"Up."

She picked her head up, her eyes level with my hardening cock.

"Suck." With her hands tied behind her back I had to feed her. I didn't stop until I was in her neck her head forced back even more from the power of my thrusts.

"Wait." I pulled out of her mouth and moved around behind her.

With her head tilting back, hands resting on the floor behind her, ass to heels, I entered her mouth once again from an upside down angle so I could play with her tits from above.

This position put more strain on her arms and neck it also gave me all the control as to how much cock I fed her at a time. It was a submissive posture, one that restated my dominance, my ownership, and my position as her daddy. I'd had a moment of weakness, by this she would know that that moment had passed, never to be revisited.

When I was as hard as I was going to get I squeezed her jaw until she released me with a pop, long strings of pre cum running down her chin.

Getting between her legs I fucked her into the hard floor while she begged me for release.

With one hand wrapped tightly around her throat, her hands still bound and under her body, I held her at my mercy as I fucked her mouth with my tongue, my cock pounding into her until we came together, our bodies jerking and clinging.