Xanther's voice hitched and tear fell from his cheek to the photo that sat in his hands.
"But when they told me that Aiden was dead" Xanther said through a hiccupped sob "that was what broke me. At that point I didn't care if he was mine or Logan's. At that point, he was my boy, my heart"
Lucy stepped forward and dropped to her knees as she pulled him into her chest, his sobs wracked his whole body. Lucy couldn't control the tears that fell from her eyes. She felt his pain as if it was cutting deep into her heart. Suddenly Samson was barking and snarling at the bedroom door and they both looked up to see Logan standing in the doorway.
"Samson" Lucy called "It's alright"
Samson looked back over his shoulder at her before dropping back down and lowering his head, but not taking his eyes off Logan who encompassed the whole doorway. Logan's blonde hair was messed from the fight, his lip was fat and he had an eye that was starting to darken. Lucy wondered if they had continued to fight after she had left. Logan dropped his head and fidgeted with his hands. She looked at Xanther who just sat completely defeated on the bed; silent tears fell from his cheeks hitting the photo in his hand.
"Xanther? I'm sorry" Logan croaked.
"Was he yours?" Xanther asked sadly without looking up.
Logan cleared his throat and shoved his hand up through his hair before he nodded his head. Xanther looked up, his eyes red and blood shot from the weight of his tears.
"Why not tell me Logan? Why not let me know that she was a cheating lying piece of shit?" Xanther asked sadly.
Samson stood and went to Xanther, resting his head on Xanther's lap. Xanther reached out and instinctively stroked the dogs head.
"How could I tell you Xanther? Without you the band would be over" Logan said
Xanther frowned.
"So our friendship was based on fame and fortune?" Xanther asked with a shake of his head.
Lucy watched the two men as she chewed on her lip.
"No Xanther. I honestly cared about you, fuck I still care about you" Logan said.
Xanther shook his head and stood slowly. Logan stepped out the door and Samson began to whimper as if pleading for Xanther to calm down.
"How can you say you care about me? You fucked my wife. You knocked her up and then you let her lie to me about being Aiden's father. You let me bond and break over that boy. Tell me how that is caring about me?" Xanther said quietly but with venom threaded through his statement.
Logan held his hands up and shook his head.
"I was a fucking idiot. I should have never slept with Georgie. It was one time, but it was all it took" Logan said quietly. "She wanted a baby desperately, but you couldn't give her one she said"
Xanther shook his head and ran his hand up through his hair.
"I couldn't give her one, because we were so fucking busy being famous, that I didn't have time" Xanther said dropping his head.
Lucy cleared her throat before she went to the door; she stopped in front of Logan looking him up and down. He looked down at her, all the hatred had gone, but she knew that he didn't like her, however she didn't care and the feeling was mutual.
"Samson, come on dinner time" she said as the big old dog slowly and reluctantly left Xanther's side to follow her while she left the two men to talk.
She looked over her shoulder again at Xanther who was watching her; she smiled and nodded before heading downstairs to the kitchen. She was busy making a cup of coffee when she heard movement behind her. She turned to see Logan standing still fidgeting with his hands.
"Lucy I'm sorry I said the shit I did. I know Xanther doesn't believe that I care about him, but I really do and the last thing I want to see is him getting hurt" Logan said.
Lucy looked Logan up and down before squaring her shoulders.
"The last thing I want to do is hurt Xanther" she said quietly. "Logan, I'm not the monster you think I am"
Logan looked up and nodded his head.
"I know" he said quietly before he turned and left towards the front door.
She stood and listened as he quietly shut the front door behind him before she let out a shaky breath. Lucy sighed and ran her hands up through her hair. She felt exhausted, when she looked down at herself and realised she had been wearing nothing but a towel the whole time. She frowned as she realised that Xanther had been naked the whole time. Lucy couldn't help but snort out a laugh.
"Oh for fucks sake" she said laughing "we are all going fucking insane"
Lucy leaned forward and put her head on the cupboard door sighing again as she felt Samson nudge her leg for love.
Chapter Twenty One
As Lucy stood stroking Samson's head feeling exhaustion seep into her bones she felt Xanther slip his arms around her waist. She smiled with a groan and leant back against his chest.
"Will you stay with me tonight?" Lucy asked.
She felt Xanther nod against her neck as he kissed the sensitive skin under her ear. Silently he took her hand and led her to her bedroom. Once they got into the bedroom he slid the towel from around her body and laid her gently on the bed as he knelt in front of her. Without saying a word Xanther began to lather the folds between her legs with kisses. Lucy put her hands up above her head and clasped the blanket as she felt his tongue nudge on her button, bringing shots of electricity to roll through her body.
Lucy groaned and lifted her hips, which he instinctively pushed his mouth deeper into. Lucy was nothing more than a trembling and shaking wet mess by the time he finished. Lucy reached out and took his hands and saw the tears in his eyes as he climbed her body. She clasped Xanther's face and reached up kissing his cheeks and eyes, pushing the tears that threatened to overwhelm him away. She gasped as he slid deep inside her with a frown. His orgasm was fast, but gentle. Normally when he would have cried out with a guttural roar he simply sighed and buried his head into Lucy's neck. He rolled from her body and pulled her into his side, curling around behind her as they both drifted into sleep.
When Lucy woke, she stretched and felt Xanther pressed against her side. She couldn't help the small smirk that formed on her lips. It felt right having him tucked up next to her. She had missed waking up to someone next to her.
"Morning baby" she heard Xanther croak.
Lucy turned and kissed his forehead and smiled at him.
"Hey there" she said with sleep threading her voice. "Did you sleep well?"
Xanther nodded his head and stretched which pulled the blanket down from his chest slightly. Lucy inwardly groaned, she didn't think she was ever going to tire from seeing his body. Lucy rolled and flicked her tongue out over Xanther's nipple. He sucked in a breath and instinctively raked his hand through her hair. Lucy moaned against his chest and bit down lightly on his nipple, bringing another sharp intake of breath from Xanther.
"Fuck Lucy, I swear I walk around with a constant hard on with you" he laughed.
Lucy shrugged her shoulder and giggled. Xanther chuckled in return as she felt him shift to be able to reach down and get at the prize between her legs which was twitching with anticipation. Their sex was fast and furious, both clinging to one another desperately and crying out in joined orgasm. As they lie beside one another panting and sweat dripping from their bodies, Xanther reached out for Lucy's hand.
"Are you ready to face the world as the rock stars girlfriend?" Xanther asked giving her a sideways glance.
Lucy would have rather stayed indoors and never leave her bed, but she knew that it was going to be something she couldn't avoid. The media were hungry; they couldn't get enough of the rock star and his crime lord descendant girlfriend. Lucy groaned and nodded her head.
"As long as you are by my side I can face it" Lucy smiled.
"Always baby" Xanther replied bringing her hand up to his lips and kissing her fingers. "Always".