Leo sat silently, watching her reveal her secrets.
'I was there one day, helping to choose wallpaper for the common room, when one of the smallest children-a boy-walked right up to me and grabbed my hand. The other children had avoided me on previous visits; I was a stranger with a foreign accent and a fancy suit. I was unapproachable.' She smiled to herself. 'But not him. He grabbed on to my hand and asked me to come and see his drawings. He had drawn a picture of a house by the sea. He gave it to me as a gift and asked me if I would come back again. So I did.'
Leo remained silent for a moment, watching her. 'Why do you feel the need to hide all this? It's charitable work.'
'Don't you see? It's not work to me. I want to be there. It makes me happy to be there with all the children. But most of all with Luca...'
'Luca is the boy's name?' Leo asked quietly.
Dara nodded. 'It's unfair of me to grow attached. Because he's just a child and he will think that I want to...that we might want to...' The words stuck in her throat, unable to come out.
'That you might want to become his mother?' Leo said.
Dara looked at him quickly, as though he had struck her. That one word was enough to make her mind turn to panic.
Mother.
'I won't go back again. I suppose I'm only just realizing that I've used the orphanage to relieve my restlessness. To occupy myself.'
She stood up and walked to the Christmas tree, touching one of the golden baubles and making it spin.
'It was a selfish act and I'm feeling guilty, that's all.'
Dara turned back to her husband. He sat completely nude on the sofa, watching her with a look so concerned it melted her heart. If she told him any more she would only regret it in the morning. It wasn't that she feared his judgement. In fact it was completely the opposite. She feared his pity.
Leo had taken the news of her infertility in his stride from the moment she'd revealed her secret to him. He had been understanding, and he had helped her to realize that her condition did not define her.
To bring up all those old insecurities now would only belittle how far they had come as a couple.
That was the thing, though-she wasn't quite so confident that she had ever rid herself of them at all. Rather, she had just chosen to focus on being the beautiful woman that Leo made her feel she was and ignored the sad and broken woman of her past.
She bit her lip. Leo was looking at her intensely, waiting for her to speak. She couldn't tell him the truth, not tonight anyway.
'I'm sorry. I feel like I've ruined this wonderful night with my own silly ramblings.' She shook her head, banishing the dark thoughts from her mind.
She walked to him and straddled his lap.
'Dara, we're having quite a serious conversation here, and I will find it very difficult to concentrate with you in this position.'
He shifted, but she moulded her body even closer to him.
'I've had enough talking for tonight.' She leaned over him, nipping his earlobe just hard enough to make him groan. 'You said we have twenty-two days to make up for, and I plan on obeying my husband's wishes.'
She smiled wickedly, banishing all other thoughts from their minds as their bodies instinctively moved against each other.
* * *
Leo sat on the terrace, looking out at the midday winter sun shining on the choppy waves of the bay. Most of their morning had been spent in bed, making up for lost time. But some time after brunch Dara had found herself taking a call from Mia about something vitally important. Rather than being annoyed at the interruption, Leo had once again been impressed at how much his wife's company relied on her.
She ran Devlin Events like a well-oiled machine-just as he would expect. But still her staff looked to her for guidance, and felt comfortable in doing so. This was one of the main reasons for her skyrocketing success. Her employees were satisfied, and therefore so were her clients. Add that to the fact that she was unbelievably talented and passionate, and it could only be a recipe for success.
He watched her through the terrace doors as she booted up her tablet computer and wielded it like a clipboard. She was tense, even after a night of being thoroughly made love to.
Her revelation about her trips to the orphanage had confused him. Dara had never shown any interest in children. He had never even seen her speak to a child, not to mention drive out of her way to go and visit one. But recently he had begun to feel a distance between them. They both had busy careers, but they usually made sure to keep time for each other.
Leo stood, suddenly needing to walk. He took the path down along the cliff-face-the same path he'd used to take as a boy. He stopped on the flight of steps that led down to the old boathouse, remembering his childhood self rushing down the stone steps, furiously trying to hold in the tears and escape his nightmarish life. Living with a mentally ill mother had forced him to live in silence. His formative years had been spent in isolation, and in fear of upsetting her with his mere presence.
Those memories no longer held the same dark power over him-not since Dara had come into his life. Now every time he walked down here he was reminded that he was happier than either of his parents had ever been.
Right now, he was impressed that the little boathouse was still standing. He pushed the door open with a creak and ducked his head inside.
A row of plastic boxes lined the floor-he had insulated the place last year, once they had decided to use it for storage rather than leave it to rot. Flipping the lid of the box nearest the window, Leo idly surveyed the contents. A collection of coloured yo-yos lay inside, once his favourite boyhood hobby. He picked up a red one and spun the yarn tightly between the circular wooden discs.
He had spent many days inside these four walls, practising his skills and hoping for someone to show them to. He held the yo-yo tight in his hand before letting it fall to the ground and bouncing it back up easily. His tricks had been numerous, all learned from a book he had got as a gift from his father. He knew now that his father's secretary had probably chosen it, but at the time he had taken it as a challenge to impress the old man. And, as he did with most tasks, he'd poured his heart and soul into it.
In a way he was no different from the little boy who had captured his wife's attention. Leo might not have been an orphan, but he knew what it meant to crave a connection. He had that with Dara now-he felt the completeness that came from the love of a good woman. He had poured all his efforts into creating a life together with his beautiful wife.
Since meeting Dara he had slowly lost interest in the party scene-except for when he opened up a new club. As a bachelor, he had spent his leisure time mainly involved in drinking too much and buying the fastest cars. He'd had no difficulty living in hotels for months at a time. He hadn't known what it meant to have a home.
Dara had shown him just how fulfilling life could be. But now he got the feeling that she felt their life was lacking somehow. If she was happy, why was she escaping to Syracuse every chance she could get?
An image of the longing in her eyes when she spoke about the child there filled his mind. It was suddenly blindingly clear that Dara had developed a newfound yearning for motherhood. And somehow that yearning wasn't something she felt comfortable sharing with him. The thought jarred him, leaving an uncomfortable knot in his stomach.
Leo ran a hand through his hair and threw the yo-yo back into the box. He had never once questioned Dara's steadfast opinion on family. She had made it clear that she would never have children, and that had suited them both. The idea of fatherhood had never been something he aspired to. His own father had been a spectre in his life-one who had drifted in and out, leaving him uncertain and confused. As an adult he had never once considered the idea of starting a family of his own.
But lately he had begun to grow tired of the constant travelling. These days the only place he wanted to be was here, with his wife, in their true home. He had wanted to say that to her last night, but they had got sidetracked.
He walked back to the castello just as evening was setting in and found Dara waiting for him in the kitchen. A bottle of vintage Prosecco sat on the table, two glasses beside it.
'I'm sorry I took so long.' She winced, pouring him a generous glass of wine.
Leo took a sip, appreciating the taste for a moment before shrugging. 'You have a business to run, carina. I have to accept that I can never have you all to myself.'
'I've turned my phone off for the evening, so I am one hundred per cent yours. No distractions.' She smiled, pressing her mouth to his.