The Red(49)

 

 

That's what the message meant. It could have been worse.

In anger, she gathered every single little scrap of fine white paper in the bottle and dropped it into her wastepaper basket. She could not be bought or cajoled into seeing him again.

It was over.

Underneath the bottle was a linen napkin. She lifted the linen and underneath it was another sketch.

A close-up of a ballerina's hand, she knew on sight it was a Degas. A beautiful sketch beautifully done. Sebastian would be overjoyed to see it-and her. Oh, he'd be overjoyed to see her again. He'd phoned her twice since they'd gone to the exhibit, and she'd put him off with vague excuses about not feeling well. He'd been sympathetic, if disappointed. She wondered why she told him no. She'd been furious at Malcolm because she'd been certain he'd drugged her. Then she'd learned he likely hadn't, and she was desperate to find another reason to stay angry at him. He hadn't raped her. She'd been a willing participant and had agreed to let him do whatever he wanted to her as long as she wasn't physically harmed. And he hadn't harmed her physically, not unless she counted have an aching back and swollen vulva the morning after. She told herself he'd made her distrust her own senses, made her question reality, made her think impossible things could and did happen, and that was unforgivable. Because impossible things didn't happen and if they did they wouldn't be impossible. If she hadn't been drugged, then the maze had been real-and so had the clearing in the woods, the coven of priestesses and the horror of the Minotaur who'd copulated with her. She had no proof he'd drugged her. No proof the maze wasn't real. What was she to believe? That it had happened as she remembered it? No, she refused to believe it. She'd be on the road to madness next.

Once she reconciled herself to never knowing the truth, Mona did her best to put that mad night and all the memories of it behind her. During the day she could occupy herself with work and her constant fears over the gallery's imminent closing. But at night she dreamed of Malcolm and the beast he'd become and the enormous cock inside her. She would wake up orgasming, wishing to feel the rock under her back once more. Sometimes she even wept. The need to see Malcolm again and spread her legs for him and be taken by him was so strong it left her breathless, reeling, half-sick and miserable. Every night she'd sneak Tou-Tou into her apartment for the sole reason that she could not stand to be alone at night anymore. She passed New Year's in her bed reading a book and cuddling with Tou-Tou on her chest. The thought of going out and smiling for friends and flirting with strangers made her dizzy. She wanted nothing to do with the world outside her gallery anymore. 

Mona couldn't go on like this forever. She refused to. Every day she came into the gallery fearful of finding a message from Malcolm, more fearful she wouldn't. A month passed without him returning to put the red velvet choker into a book of art. Then six weeks. Her resolved started to crumble. She felt it breaking down, heard it cracking. But she stayed adamant-she would not give in and forgive Malcolm.

The Degas sketch of the ballerina's hand waited in a folder in her desk. It felt like a test, somehow. Like Malcolm knew about Sebastian, knew he tempted her.

On a quiet Friday she closed the gallery early and called Sebastian.

"I have something for you," she said.

"The words every man longs to hear from a beautiful woman."

"Can you come see it?" she asked, smiling at his voice, so warm and solid and kind.

"Tell me when."

"Right now," she said. "I'll be at my gallery all evening working in the back room. I'll leave the side door unlocked for you."

"I'm on my way," he said. "Then I'm buying you dinner. I won't take no for an answer. Unless you mean it."

She laughed softly. "I won't say no," she said. She wouldn't say no to anything.

As soon as she hung up the phone a wave of nervousness washed over her. It was late January and she hadn't let herself be intimate with any man except Malcolm since June. Malcolm had consumed her life for far too long. She'd stopped going out, stopped dating, stopping seeing her female friends out of fear they'd judge her for Malcolm. She didn't want to bear their judgment, especially knowing they would have done the same if they only saw him, spent one night with him.

She had to get over Malcolm any way she could. Any way at all.

When Sebastian knocked softly on the door to the back room, she opened it.

She was naked.

He stared at her a long tense moment, only stared. He was handsome as ever. Brown eyes, not black. Brown hair, not black. Tan skin, not pale. He wore a normal suit, not a three-piece-tailored gray trousers, black and gray tie, white shirt and jacket-and he wore it well.