The Realm of Possibility(5)

talk

but i put

my finger

to his lips

i tell him

to shhhh

i take off

his shirt

trace the

lines until

he pulls

me close

holds

me with

such caring

looks at me

with such

caring

such open

vulnerability

i know

he wants me

to be the one

who can break

him

but doesn't.





and when he

catches me

off guard

and says

i love you

i catch him

off guard

and say i need your help.





Love songs for Elizabeth


track one: something to you





there was a time before you

but I can't remember it now

a time before your beauty and I

were formally introduced

I'm sure I lived without you

but I don't remember how

can't imagine living without

these feelings you've produced





just one glance

and my life was redrawn

just one word

and my vocabulary changed

I asked the time

and you said what's the hurry?

you asked my name

and I almost forgot





I know

the odds are all against me

and I know

you might not feel this way too

but I know

I would rather die trying

to know

if I could mean something to you





seven wonders of the world

and I have to ask for an eighth

fill a bottle with some prayers

and spend them on hope

create an easy route

just so I can complicate

send my heart down that

slippery slope





we're on

our way to being friends

and I guess I'd

like to make a detour

you seem

to recognize me in the halls

you wave hello

and I lose all of my nerve

I know

the odds are all against me

and I know

you might not feel this way too

but I know

I would rather die trying

to know

if I could mean something to you

I want this world

small enough for the two of us

I want you to think of me

that way

I want this world

to crash us into marvelous

I want you to kiss me

and say:





I know

the odds are all against us

and I know

you feel this way too

so I know

I would rather die trying

to know

if I could mean something to you





[repeat last verse]





track two: you need a girl





Forget about the guys who never call.





Forget about the ones who set you up to see you fall.





Princes leave you at the ball.





Take a break from guys who never see—





Depressive jerks who want to say who you should be.





Find the one who'll set you free. …





You need a girl, need a girl, a girl who'll come through.

You need a girl, need a girl, a girl who needs you.





You've suffered through too many dates.





You've fended off the ones who only want to mate—





You're what they masturbate.





They'll never see you have a mind.





They'll always act like they're at least five years behind.





Never knowing to be kind.





You need a girl, need a girl, a girl who'll see you.

You need a girl, need a girl, a girl who needs you.





No more of the tired girl and boy.





All the methods that your parents will deploy

To keep you from your joy.





Find the one who clearly understands

That you don't have to land yourself a man.





Give your side a hand.





A girl, a girl, a girl





You'll be amazed at what you've found

With your spirits up and toilet seats placed face-down.





Embraces all around.





Sleep without that constant fear.





Silent struggles, being distant when you're near.





The answer is right here.





You need a girl, a girl, a girl who needs you.

You need a girl, a girl, a girl who loves you.

Right here …

Right here …





track three: my history

the first time I kissed someone

my heart raced for hours

I didn't know if I'd ever recover

if it was already too late.

I just lay in my room

and reveled in the newfound power

that a motion so small

could have the full force of fate.





it wasn't love that time

more like experimentation

I had to wait some time

for something more real.

some kisses I found

were pure lamentation

and other lips I touched

for something to feel.





you are not the first girl

that I have fallen for

and I know I'm not the first girl

that you'd ever choose.

you are not the first girl

you are not the first girl

to have led me to longing

but you could be the first girl

I don't manage to lose.





I'm not good at relationships

I always manage to find the flaws

sometimes in others

but mostly my own.

I foretell the ending

then go and create the cause

save mysefl

and end up alone.





the last time I kissed someone

my heart felt this loneliness

I didn't know if I'd ever recover

if it was already too late.

I just lay in my room