“Hey? Lulu?” He lifts my chin and holds it there, imprisoning me to his locked eyes. “Talk to me.”
I sigh, releasing the breath I’ve been holding and pull away from him, pushing myself up to lean against the headboard, drawing the sheets to cover my modesty.
“Leave the sheet! I love your body - I’ve missed your tits.”
I pull the sheet tighter in defiance and his teeth flash at my stubbornness, which drags a smirk from me and causes my nipples to pucker, hardening through the white sheet. His eyes immediately drop to them. “Hello you two?”
“I’d better get dressed. I’ve tons to do to ready this place for Saturday’s soiree. I’m supposed to be decorating the rooms not stripping in them.” I turn away and locate my panties on the carpet next to me, slip them on and leave the warmth of the bed. I can feel his gaze all over my body as I dress with my back to him, and I feel myself dampen at the though of him lying naked, waiting and watching me. I can’t turn round - if I did I’d never get dressed again.
“Lu, baby talk to me.”
Ok here goes. “So what about the rules - how do we play this from hereon out?”
“What rules?”
“The FBR’s - where do we go from here?”
I can feel her beginning to retract, back into her shell, now that she’s slipped from the bed and nearly fully clothed. Back to normality I suppose, whatever that is? Normal is not a word I would ever use in conjunction with our fucking. There is no bastard way that she is going to erect those barriers between us again, not if I want to prove to her that she can trust me. Not if I want to continue whatever good thing we have going. I can tell she is scared and so am I.
If I’m honest I’m scared shitless!
I don’t really know how I feel other than I can’t spend another week like the last one; it had been torture. We need the full month together, as we agreed to get whatever itch we have out of our systems and then we can see where we are.
Even though you know she loves you? Even though you know it will never be enough - you dick.
I’m not sure she does love me yet - not fully? I think she loves what I’ve drawn from her body, what we’ve shared together; that I’ve made her feel like a woman and allowed her to be herself. That prick she’d been sleeping with for the past ten years had not given a toss about her pleasure and I have shown her how it can really be with a real man. That luscious body of hers had been wasted for a decade - it was fucking travesty.
Do you really believe that she’s not in love with you? Really? If so, you’re a complete and utter knob and you don’t deserve her, my inner voice screams at me. I don’t want to hear it. Love is not something I’ve ever been in and it scares the hell out of me. When I do something, I do it right, or not at all and there was a child to think about here, Finn.
“You agreed to one month when you propositioned me.” I’m determined that she’ll give me that without argument.
“That was over two weeks ago?”
“The way I see it is we need to finish what we started and yes, you’re right that was two weeks ago, but one of them I was locked out of your life, your bed and your pretty little panties, love.”
“You know why - there was no way I’d have had you near me after what happened with Ray.”
“I understand the why’s but now I’m changing the agreement.”
“Just like that?” her green eyes flash with annoyance.
“Just like that. You owe it to me, Lu; to us. We’ve only had a week to experience sex and friendship. You asked me to release your desires and to awaken you. How the fuck am I supposed to do that in one week? I’m not a magician. Although some have said that…”
Lu snorts inelegantly before launching a pillow at me.
There she is… that drew a small smirk from her full lips. I still have her attention. “ Look, have I broken that deal to date?”
”No.”
“Have I not given you pleasure like you’ve never experienced before - made you scream my name out loud as you come over my face?”
“Yes.” Her voice is a whisper and I register her endearing blush.
“Fuck, Lu. You’ve changed me! This may have started out like a proposition that suited your needs but believe me its pleasuring mine too. I’ve never amalgamated friendship and sex before in a relationship and believe me, its an unfamiliar practice but a refreshing one. You’re awakening me in the art of dating - you know me, long-term dating’s never been my style.”
“So its a win win.” She hides her face and I see a glimpse of hurt.