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The Man I Want to Be (Under Covers)(45)



She was proud of herself for swallowing the laugh that wanted to  explode. Leave it to Bear to be so naive that he didn't even know how  IVF worked. Of course, why would he? It's not like it was something the  Army or DEA would've taught him. But still, it was the twenty-first  century.

"Yes, he would," she said, feeling a bit of triumph at testing him. Her  satisfaction grew when his face showed disbelief with a shade of  protectiveness.

Muscles popped in his jaw, and his nostrils flared as he was no doubt  getting a clear mental picture. "If that's what you want, I'd try really  hard not to kill the guy before, during, and after."

She fought to conceal the twitch of her lips. He deserved this after all the shit he'd put them through.

"Good. But I'm sure there are other options," she said. "Still, it's nice to know you wouldn't mind."

"Oh, I'd mind," he said quickly. "But I'd look past it for you and our kid."

Our kid.

The first slice in the protective barrier around her heart cracked and a tiny sliver of hope seeped out.

"Estelle said something that made me think," he said, moving toward her.  He stopped close enough to reach out and touch her if he wanted to, but  his hands remained at his sides. "She told me just because you don't  give birth to someone doesn't mean you can't love them. I didn't know it  could be like that. But I see the way she is with you. And she's only  your great-aunt and your godmother. But she loves you. A lot."         

     



 

"And I love her," Kenna added.

He nodded as he looked away and readjusted his boots in the sand. "I  wanted to do something to prove to you how much I'm okay with not being  able to father our kid."

Turning, he reached for a box she just now noticed behind him on the ground.

Bryan held it out to her. "Here."

Confused as all get-out, she cautiously peered in. She blinked a few times before looking at Bryan. "It's a crab."

"It's the crab. The one that bit me the other night."

Taking a closer look, she noticed it had a large claw and a second much smaller one. "I don't understand."

"Kenna, meet Spike." He swallowed hard, then said, "Our adopted son."

She laughed, couldn't help it. It just spilled out. "What are you talking about?"

He cleared his throat as color rose into his cheeks. "I'm showing you  that I don't care where our kids come from, the only thing that matters  is that we raise them as ours. This one bites like a motherfucker, but I  think it's a coping mechanism because he feels inadequate around his  other crabby friends. He knows he's different, and there's nothing he  can do about it, and that makes him angry. But I'm sure with a lot of  love and attention, we can show him that being different makes him  special. Just because he doesn't look like a regular crab, and he might  not be able to perform like one, doesn't mean he can't be loved. And  give love in return. He might think he's lacking because of his  perceived inadequacy, but I love him anyway." He looked at her with a  nervous expression. "Can you?"

Any remaining wall left around Kenna's heart had completely crumbled and  turned to dust. Her vision started to blur. He was talking about  himself. He really had come to terms with his condition and was choosing  to accept it.

And he'd spent all night searching for one particular crab to prove his point.

"Oh, Bryan," she said, the words coming out gravelly because of the deep  emotion rising in her throat. "Yes, I can love little Spike Tyke. He  could never be inadequate in my eyes. He's so special and unique. He  always has been."

A look of relief flashed over his face before he set the box back on the  ground. Then he pulled her to him. Her feet dangled as he squeezed her  tight enough against his chest to infuse her with his honesty, his  regret, and his love. "I'll never let you down again. I promise. Tell me  you believe me. Tell me you can trust me again."

She nodded against his chest, tears now spilling down her cheeks. "Yes. I can. I do."

His hand went into her hair, gently urging her face up to his. He stared  into her eyes, a look of relief and astonishment clear in his  expression. Something else lingered there, too.

Yearning.

Kenna knew the feeling. They hadn't freely given themselves to each  other in twelve years. Their individual issues always held them back.  Everything this week had been because of want, but not because of need.  She needed him now and was ready to fully accept every piece of her  past, present, and future with Bear.

She dropped her chin once. Yes.

His lips crashed down onto hers as the hand in her hair tightened. She  threw her arms around his neck, her fingers immediately tangled into his  locks as well. She grabbed a firm handful and kept him right where he  was.

This kiss held so much promise. So much meaning. Because it represented their future. The one she never thought was possible.

When he pulled away, breathy, he set her onto the sand but didn't take  his hands away. They moved down her sides to rest on her hips. One  corner of his delicious lips curled. "Does this mean we're giving this  thing between us another go?"

Kenna glided a hand up his chest and closed her fist around his shirt. His eyes blazed in response. "I'm ready if you are."

The other side of his lips joined the first, forming a devilish grin that ignited a slow burn in her belly.

"We should probably make it official," he said, reaching into his  pocket. When he lifted his hand, between his thumb and pointer finger  was a platinum ring with diamond baguettes along the band with a  two-carat round sapphire in the center.

"How-where did you- You found my mom's ring!" She leaped at him, trying to kiss anywhere and everywhere she could reach.

"Sam and Estelle," he said with a chuckle, effortlessly catching her in  his capable arms. "It was all a big ploy to get us back together. We can  be mad at them later. For now … " He held her snug against him, lowering  his mouth. Once. Twice. By the third kiss they were getting pretty into  it. All the anger, sadness, joy, and hope over the last twelve years  finally broke free.         

     



 

"Woohoo!" Loud cheers and shouts erupted from farther up the beach, near  the resort, where Ash, Sam, Luke, and Cassandra stood watching.

"About time, you jackass!" Ash shouted.

"Yeah, what took you so long, dipshit?" Luke yelled.

Bear spun with her in his arms, and she was pretty sure he flashed his  middle finger at his friends, but she didn't care. He kissed her with  the fervor of a man in love, and she kissed him back just as  passionately. His big hands cradled her face. She kept her arms locked  securely around him. They soaked in the moment like it was their last.  But it wasn't. It was the first of many-together.

They'd found their happily ever after. Finally. There was just one more thing left to do.





Chapter Twenty-Three


Oh, Jesus, God. The music was starting. That meant the wedding was  starting. And that meant Tyke was actually doing this. He was getting  married. To Kenna.

He didn't regret it. Wasn't having second thoughts. It was just the  reality of the whole thing. He'd come to the Caribbean to see his  friends tie the knot. Not reconnect with the love of his life and stand  up here with them.

So he wasn't too pissed at Sam and Estelle (and on occasion Ash and  Luke) for concocting the whole stolen ring and brooch thing. Joseph  Landry, Tyke's boss, was in fact the guy Kenna had seen leaving her  hotel room. The group had had no idea about Tyke's and Kenna's real  issues and what had kept them apart, and felt pretty bad after he and  Kenna filled them in. But he had to admit, had they not interfered, Tyke  would've never faced anything. He would've continued to bottle  everything up, and it would've destroyed them both.

He swayed from side to side, his vision blurring and muscles locking up.  Standing beside Ash and Luke under the big, white canopy in the sand,  the water to their backs, he looked out in front of him and saw tan,  white, some pink, and a sea of bodies in chairs. Couldn't focus on  anything in particular. Violins played a tune that seemed to be pounding  in his brain. He managed to pick out Reese, who sat in the first row  next to Megan. She cuddled into his shoulder, her arm wrapped around  his, their hands interlocked. The way she smiled, secretive and coy,  told Tyke that Reese would have a fun night and an even better flight  home. Good. He was happy for his friend.

Women started coming toward him in a slow line, spaced about ten feet  apart. Some wore short pink dresses and others wore a light golden  color, all of them holding white flowers at their waists. Tyke was  dressed to match Ash and Luke. White linen shirt, khaki shorts, and bare  feet. The same outfit he'd worn for the rehearsal, but this time he was  at least wearing it for the right occasion. He'd trimmed his beard and  spent extra time with the conditioner in the shower so his hair would be  smooth and manageable.