In the front seats Holm and Solness were deep in conversation as Townes van Zandt sang in controlled sobs on the cassette player. On the back seat, Gunnar Hagen was stroking the smooth pig-leather briefcase he was holding on his lap.
‘I wish I could say you looked good,’ he said in a low voice.
‘Jet lag, boss,’ Harry said, who was lying more than sitting.
‘What happened to your jaw?’
‘It’s a long, boring story.’
‘Anyway, welcome back. Sorry about the circumstances.’
‘I thought I had handed in my resignation.’
‘You’ve done that before.’
‘So how many times do you want it?’
Gunnar Hagen looked at his former inspector and lowered his eyebrows and voice even further. ‘As I said, I’m sorry about the circumstances. And I appreciate that the last case took a lot out of you. That you and your loved ones were involved in a way which … well, could make anyone wish for a different life. But this is your job, Harry, this is what you’re good at.’
Harry sniffed as though he had already contracted the typical homecoming cold.
‘Two murders, Harry. We’re not even sure how they’ve been carried out, only that they’re identical. But thanks to recent dearly bought experiences, we know what we’re facing.’ The POB paused.
‘Doesn’t hurt to say the words, boss.’
‘I’m not so sure about that.’
Harry looked out at the snow-free, rolling, brown countryside. ‘People have cried wolf a number of times, but events have shown that a serial killer is a rare beast.’
‘I know,’ Hagen nodded. ‘The Snowman is the only one we’ve seen in this country during my period of office. But we’re pretty certain this time. The victims have nothing to do with each other, and the sedative found in their blood is identical.’
‘That’s something. Good luck.’
‘Harry . . .’
‘Find someone qualified for the job, boss.’
‘You’re qualified.’
‘I’ve gone to pieces.’
Hagen took a deep breath. ‘Then we’ll put you together again.’
‘Beyond repair,’ Harry said.
‘You’re the only person in this country with the skills and the experience to deal with a serial killer.’
‘Fly in an American.’
‘You know very well things don’t work like that.’
‘Then I’m sorry.’
‘Are you? Two people dead so far, Harry. Young women . . .’
Harry waved a dismissive hand when Hagen opened his briefcase and pulled out a brown file.
‘I mean it, boss. Thank you for buying my passport and all that, but I’ve finished with photos and reports full of blood and gore.’
Hagen sent Harry a wounded expression, but still kept the file on his lap.
‘Peruse this, that’s all I’m asking. And don’t tell anyone we’re working on this case.’
‘Oh? Why’s that?’
‘It’s complicated. Just don’t mention it to anyone, OK?’
The conversation at the front of the car had died, and Harry focused on the back of Kaja’s head. As Bjørn Holm’s Amazon had been made long before anyone used the term ‘whiplash’, there was no headrest, and Harry could see her slim neck, since her hair had been pinned up, see the white down on her skin, and he mused on how vulnerable she was, how quickly things changed, how much could be destroyed in a matter of seconds. That was what life was: a process of destruction, a disintegration from what at the outset was perfect. The only suspense involved was whether we would be destroyed in one sudden act or slowly. It was a sad thought. Yet he clung to it. Until they were through Ibsen Tunnel, a grey, anonymous component of the capital’s traffic machinery that could have been in any city in the world. Nevertheless it was at that particular moment that he felt it. A huge, unalloyed pleasure at being here. In Oslo. Home. The feeling was so overwhelming that for a few seconds he was oblivious to why he had returned.
Harry gazed at Sofies gate 5 as the Amazon sailed out of view behind him. There was more graffiti on the front of the building than when he had left, but the blue paint beneath was the same.
So, he had refused to take the case. He had a father lying in the hospital. That was the only reason he was here. What he didn’t tell them was that if he’d had the choice of knowing about his father’s illness or not, he would have chosen not to know. Because he hadn’t returned out of love. He had returned out of shame.
Harry peered up at the two black windows on the second floor that were his.
Then he opened the door and walked into the backyard. The rubbish container was standing where it always did. Harry pushed open the lid. He had promised Hagen he would take a look at the case file. Mostly so that his boss would not lose face – after all, the passport had cost Crime Squad quite a few kroner. Harry dropped the file onto the burst plastic bags leaking coffee grounds, nappies, rotten fruit and potato peelings. He inhaled and wondered at how surprisingly international the smell of rubbish was.