“Wha—oh, sorry.” She pushed her hair back. “Don’t you want to go with Xhex?”
“I’m heading to the club,” the female said. “With Trez out, I need to check the traps.”
And that was a good, plausible excuse—except it was impossible to ignore the side glances being shared among the group.
“This isn’t about me,” she muttered.
Of course it isn’t, John signed. You’re doing a favor coming back with me. You know, to keep me company.#p#分页标题#e#
Fritz was only too happy to jump out and get her door for her, and as she ducked into the back of the sedan, she caught sight of Manny giving Payne a smooch, and John lip-locking with Xhex.
As a wave of dread came over her, she thought fondly of getting drunk as opposed to confronting her husband. The only problem was, that wasn’t going to solve anything, and besides, she had always despised women who got lit. Nothing uglier or more pathetic.
John got in on the other side, and then the Mercedes floated off, following the lane out from under the porte cochere and into the roadway that went around the medical center. With signs like EMERGENCY ROOM, FARNSWORTH REHABILITATION, and YARDLEY SPINE CENTER, it was like a highway with exits to towns you really didn’t want to visit.
Next to her, her brother kept looking over, like she was a stick of dynamite and he was measuring how much wick was left before shit went Technicolor boom.
“I’m fine.”
Okay, I won’t press. But here.
“Huh?” He answered her question by passing over a white handkerchief. “Why do I need—”
Fantastic. She’d started tearing up.
Really, truly fantastic.
As she blotted away tears she hadn’t been aware of crying, she shook her head and let it all fly: “I want a baby.”
Holy crap … that’s awesome, her brother signed. That’s—
“A nightmare, actually. Wrath’s a no-go.”
Oh, her brother mouthed.
“Yeah. Pretty much. And I found out right before we left.”
My God, you shouldn’t have come.
“I needed to get out of that house. And I wanted to help you.”
Well … Wrath’s probably just worried about you. It’s a scary thing for females. At this, his face got tight. I mean, Xhex isn’t into kids, and I gotta tell you, I’m relieved.
Twisting the cotton square in her hands, she let her head fall back against the rest. “But if I’m willing to assume the risks, I feel like he should go along with it. And by the way, it wasn’t like he laid his argument out in terms of being worried for my health. It was just, ‘I’m not servicing you.’ Period.”
John whistled under his breath.
“I know. Not our best moment.” She glanced back over at her brother. “I envy you and Xhex so much. You guys are so in sync.”
Ha! You should have seen us a year ago. John shrugged. I didn’t think we were going to make it.
“Really?”
Shit, yeah. She wanted to go out to fight, and like, that was fine with me—until it really dawned on me that she could get hurt. He circled his hand next to his brain. Fucked my head up bad. I mean, as a male, your woman is your thing in a way I don’t think you females can appreciate. When it comes to Xhex, I am literally not in control of my emotions, my thoughts, my actions as they relate to her safety. It’s a kind of psychosis.
When she didn’t respond, he touched her arm to make sure she was paying attention. Sounds a lot like what you and Wrath are dealing with. Yeah, you can be all, ‘It’s about a kid,’ but given the mortality rates for females? In his mind, it’s probably about your survival—and he’s picking that over any kind of son or daughter.
God, maybe it made her a bitch, but … she really didn’t want to see Wrath’s side of things. Especially not spelled out so rationally—assuming that was, in fact, how her man felt.
She was still too hurt and angry.
“Okay, fine, maybe that’s all true. But let me ask you a question—would you ever deny Xhex a child if she wanted one?” When he didn’t answer, Beth said, “See? You wouldn’t.”
Technically, I didn’t reply.
“It’s in your face.”
Yeah, but, it’s easy for me to be all like, whatever—because she doesn’t want one. Maybe I’d feel differently if she did. The risks are real, and there’s only so much medical management can do.
“I still say it’s my body, my decision.”
But you’re his primary concern. So he does get a vote.
“A vote’s one thing. The royal veto’s another.” She shook her head again. “Besides, if you’re able to articulate the position of a bonded male? So should he. He doesn’t get a pass just because he’s the King.” As sound bites came back from the confrontation, she got nauseous. “His solution is to drug me. Like I’m some kind of animal. I just … I don’t know if I can get over this.”