The King(49)

“I need you to hear this,” he said in a dead voice, “and know that it’s the God’s honest. I will not service you in your needing. Ever.”
Now it was her turn to breathe out like she’d been socked in the gut. “I can’t … I can’t believe you just said that.”
“It is never, ever going to happen. I will never get you pregnant.”
There were few things in life that he knew with greater certainty. The only other that came to mind was how much he loved her.
“Won’t,” she said roughly. “Or can’t.”
“Won’t. As in, will not.”
“Wrath, that’s not fair. You can’t just put that in stone like it’s one of your proclamations.”
“So I’m supposed to lie about how I feel?”
“No, but you can talk about it, for God’s sake. We’re partners and this affects us both.”
“Discussion is not going to change where I’m at. If you want to keep wasting time with the Chosen, that’s your decision. But if the gossip is true, and it does bring on your needing, know that you’ll be drugged to get you through it. I’m not going to service you.”
“Jesus … like I’m some kind of animal who needs to go to the vet?”
“You have no idea what those hormones are like.”
“This. Coming from a male.”
He shrugged. “It’s a verifiable fact of biology. When Layla was in hers, we all felt it throughout the house—even a night and a half after she was over it. Marissa was drugged for years. It’s what’s done.’”
“Yeah, maybe when a female isn’t married. But last time I checked, my name was in your back.”
“Just because you’re mated doesn’t mean you have to have children.”
She was silent for a time. “Does it not even occur to you for a second this might be important to me? And not as in, ‘Oh, I need a new car,’ or … ‘I want to go back to school.’ Or even, ‘How about we have a fucking date once in a while in between you getting shot at and doing a job you hate.’ Wrath, this is the foundation of life.”
And the gateway to death—for her. So many females died on the birthing bed, and if he lost her—
Fuck. He couldn’t even go there in the hypothetical. “I will not give you a young. I could doctor up the truth with a lot of meaningless bullshit and soothing words, but sooner or later, you are going to have to accept—”
“Accept it? Like I got sneezed on by someone with a cold and I just have to resign myself to coughing for a couple of days?” The astonishment in her voice rang out clear as that anger of hers. “Do you even hear yourself?”
“I’m really fucking aware of every word I choose. Trust me.”
“Okay. Fine. Why don’t we put the shoe on the other foot. How about I say … how about this—you’re going to give me the child I want, and that’s just something you’re going to have to get used to. Period.”
He shrugged again. “You can’t force me to be with you.”
As Beth gasped, he had some sense they’d entered a new dimension in their relationship—and not a good one. But there was no going back.
Cursing under his breath, he shook his head. “Do yourself a favor and stop sitting with that female for hours every night. If you’re lucky, it hasn’t worked and we can just forget about all this—”
“Forget about—wait. Are you—are you—have you lost your fucking mind?”
Shit. His shellan didn’t stutter or stumble, and she rarely swore. What a trifecta.
But it didn’t change anything. “When were you going to tell me?” he demanded.
“Tell you what? That you can be a real asshole? How about right now.”
“No, that you were deliberately trying to start your needing. Talk about things that affect us both.”
What would have happened if she’d suddenly gone into her time when they’d been alone together during the day? He might have given in and then …
Not good. Especially if he later found out she’d been marking time with the Chosen for specifically that purpose.
He glared at her. “Yeah, when exactly was that going to come up in conversation? It wasn’t going to tonight, right? Were you saving it for tomorrow? No?” He leaned into his desk. “You knew I didn’t want this. I told you so.”
More pacing: He could hear her every footfall. It was a while before they stopped.
“You know what, I’m going to leave right now,” she said, “and not just because I have to go out tonight. I need to not be around you for a while. And then, when I come back, we’re going to talk this through—both sides of the issue—no!” she ordered as he went to open his mouth. “You don’t say another goddamn word. If you do, I have a feeling I’ll be packing my bags and taking off permanently.”