McKenna sighed with pleasure as she soaked in the hot tub, the vanilla and nutmeg scented bubbles tickling her chin.
It had been a great day … a great few days. Christmas this year had been so joyous … an absolute miracle.
She reached up to touch the angel on her necklace, her fingers rubbing at the gold figure holding the sapphire hearth.
Just as Trey was her miracle.
And her angel.
*
After McKenna's bath it was TJ's turn, and then he and Trey built one of his Lego sets and McKenna made an early lunch, serving the grilled cheese sandwiches and tomato soup with an apology for it not being more festive.
Neither of the boys seemed to mind but when Trey cleared the lunch dishes, bringing them into the kitchen, McKenna was already worrying about Christmas dinner. "What about tonight?" she asked. "I don't have a roast or turkey, nothing special for a proper Christmas dinner. Do you think there is anything open today … we could buy something, or make reservations somewhere?"
"We don't need anything fancy," Trey answered, scraping the plates and rinsing the soup bowls. "TJ doesn't care about what we eat, and trust me, I'm not picky, either."
"But it's Christmas. Christmas should be extra special. Food, festivities, family."
He turned off the water, faced her. "We could go back to Marietta. If we leave in the next hour we'd be able to join everyone gathering at Brock and Harley's for Christmas dinner. They're hosting the family this year. Most of the Sheenans will be there … Troy and Taylor. Dillon. Possibly Cormac, but with Daisy he's not a given."
"Can we do that? Just show up uninvited?"
"I'm a Sheenan. I'm always invited, and there will be plenty to eat. Apparently Harley's from a big Dutch family and always cooks enough to feed an army." He reached for her, pulling her against him. "But we don't have to go. It's only if you want to. I don't want there to be any pressure or worries on Christmas Day."
She glanced behind her, over at TJ who'd returned to playing with his new Star Wars Lego figurines, delighted by the Storm Troopers. "Aren't they going to think it's strange, you showing up with us on Christmas when they know less than a week ago I was supposed to marry Lawrence?"
"I think they'd think it was strange if I didn't show up with you and TJ. I'm pretty sure they're rooting for us, hoping we can work it out."
"But they're not going to expect a big formal announcement, are they? I mean, you and I are still trying to figure it out."
He smiled and lightly rubbed at the worry line between her brows. "I can assure you there's no pressure in that direction. I think you know we Sheenans tend to operate under a Hope-for-the-best-but-prepare-for-the-worst scenario."
She made a face. "Or at least they do with you."
"As they should," he teased.
She glanced out the window at the blue sky and sparkling drifts of powdery white snow with the dark blue of the lake shimmering in the background before letting her gaze skim the interior of the cabin. "You think we can take down the tree and empty the cupboards and strip all the beds in an hour?" Her nose wrinkled. "It doesn't sound like a festive way to spend the morning."
"Let's just unplug the tree and toss out the perishables and then I'll just come back after New Year's with the new generator and get that installed and deal with everything else."
"That's a lot of work for one person."
Trey's laughter rumbled from his chest. "Darlin', I've just spent four years at Deer Lodge. Tidying up a cabin and taking a tree down is not hard work. Besides, I like it here, and I'd love to get that generator replaced so we can get all the Sheenans here and enjoy it as a family."
*
McKenna moved as much of the food from the refrigerator to the freezer and tossed what wouldn't last a week or two and then turned her attention to making the beds since they weren't going to strip the sheets.
Trey unplugged the tree, put out the fire, and turned off the heater before crouching next to TJ to help him gather up the new toys and put them in TJ's new black and green Mine Craft backpack. McKenna smiled as TJ made decisions about which pockets would get which toys-some for the Legos, some for the miniature tin soldiers, and some for the Christmas taffy and treats.
"I wish we didn't have to go," he said mournfully, as the new suitcase, filled with all their new clothes, was carried out to the truck.
"We'll be back," Trey said, rifling TJ's dark hair. "Not just this winter, but in the spring and summer. We'll get a boat and go out on the lake. We can fish and have camp fires and make s'mores. It'll be fun."
McKenna understood TJ's wistfulness. She had mixed feelings about leaving, too. These past few days had felt special … magical … and she wasn't sure she was ready to leave the safety and quiet of the cabin at Cherry Lake for ‘real life' in Marietta.
Back in Marietta they'd get drawn into work and school and be subjected to everyone's opinions.
She didn't want everyone's opinion. She didn't want to be lectured or fussed over, or have well meaning family and friends give her ‘advice'. She didn't want the gossip, either, and there would be plenty of gossip.
It wasn't that she couldn't handle the gossip-good grief, she'd been surrounded by it for most of her life-but she dreaded having TJ exposed to it. And she hated knowing that Trey would be at the center of it.
That bad Trey Sheenan was back …
Trey was home and already causing trouble …
He climbed the steps of the cabin and stood before her, arms crossed over his broad chest. "What's wrong?"
She managed a smile. "Nothing. Why?"
"Mac, I know you, babe. I know your face. I know your sighs. I know when something is on your mind. What is it? Don't want to do Christmas with my family? We don't have to-"
"This isn't about your family. I like your family, and I know they like me, and absolutely adore TJ … " She looked up into his face, searching his eyes, not wanting secrets between them but also unwilling to hurt him. "It's about you. I'm worried what people will say about you." She swallowed hard. "And me, us. But mostly, about you. They've never been kind to you-"
"Because I've never earned their respect," he interrupted flatly. "I'm not going back to Marietta expecting anyone to be a fan, or a friend. I don't need anyone's approval. But I hope their criticism doesn't extend to TJ. He might have my name, but he's not me. He's his own little person and a really good little person." His voice cracked and he looked away, jaw tightening and flexing as his gaze fell on TJ who was poking holes in the snow with a stick. "I don't mind if they hit me, and hate me. But they have to leave him alone."
McKenna fought tears as she wrapped her arms around Trey and hugged him, hard, harder. "He's a tough little boy. He's got the best of both of us, and a big family that will always have his back … the Sheenans and the Douglasses, two of the oldest, strongest families in Crawford County. You can't ask for more than that."
*
In the truck as they pulled away, McKenna turned to get a last glance at the cabin. It was a true cabin, small and sturdy and simple, without luxurious bells and whistles, which was why it was so perfect.
They'd had no TV or computer games. Just Christmas carols on the radio, and the one NPR personality that read the stories on Christmas Eve.
It was an old fashioned Christmas, small and cozy with just the right amount of presents and surprises and holiday cheer.
It'd be easy to stay here and hide from life in Marietta, but their life was in Marietta and it had to be faced, sooner or later.
Maybe it was better it was happening sooner.
Maybe the best thing was just to face the haters and critics head on, and work their way through it.
Eventually the gossip would die down. Eventually the town would find someone new, or something else shocking, to whisper about.
She'd be glad when they did. Not that she wished trouble or small town gossip on anyone.
With the recent heavy snow fall Highway 83 would be too treacherous, if the mountain pass was even open, so Trey turned left onto 93, heading for Polson, and then they'd hit I-90 which would lead them straight to Bozeman and on to the junction of Highway 89.
But even the road along the lake was slick, and she was glad it was Trey at the wheel. He was far better with ice than she.
They were just a few miles from the cabin when they rounded a corner and deep tire marks sliced sideways through snow and ice, a diagonal slash across the road that stretched all the way to the embankment overlooking the lake. The skid of the tires looked perfectly fresh. The accident must have just happened.