“Pennies are pawns,” I told her. “Nickels are rooks, dimes are knights and bishops, quarters are kings and queens.”
She shook her head. Ringer is an idiot. “How can dimes and quarters be both?”
“Heads: knights and kings. Tails: bishops and queens.”
The coolness of the ivory. The way the felt-covered bases slid over the polished wood, like whispered thunder crashing. My father’s face bent over the board, lean and unshaven, red-eyed and purse-lipped, encrusted with shadows. The sickly sweet smell of alcohol and fingers that thrummed like hummingbirds’ wings.
It’s called the game of kings, Marika. Would you like to learn how to play?
“It’s the game of kings,” I said to Teacup.
“Well, I’m not a king.” She crossed her arms. So over me. “I like checkers.”
“Then you’ll love chess. Chess is checkers on steroids.”
My father tapping his chipped nails on the tabletop. The rats scratching inside the walls.
“Here’s how the bishop moves, Teacup.”
This is how the knight moves, Marika.
She jammed a stale piece of gum into her mouth and chewed angrily as the dry shards crumbled. Minty breath. Whiskey breath. Scratch, scratch, tap, tap.
“Give it a chance,” I begged her. “You’ll love it. I promise.”
She grabbed the corner of the towel. “Here’s what I feel.” I saw it coming, but still flinched when she flung the towel and the coins exploded into the air. A nickel popped her in the forehead and she didn’t even blink.
“Ha!” Teacup shouted. “I guess that’s checkmate, bitch!”
Reacting without thinking, I slapped her. “Don’t ever call me that. Ever.”
The cold made the slap more painful. Her bottom lip poked out, her eyes welled up, but she didn’t cry.
“I hate you,” she said.
“I don’t care.”
“No, I hate you, Ringer. I hate your fucking guts.”
“Cussing doesn’t make you grown-up, you know.”
“Then I guess I’m a baby. Shit, shit, shit! Fuck, fuck, fuck!” She started to touch her cheek. She stopped herself. “I don’t have to listen to you. You aren’t my mother or my sister or anybody.”
“Then why have you been latched on to me like a pilot fish since we left camp?”
Now a tear did fall, a single drop that trailed down her scarlet cheek. She was so pale and thin, her skin as luminescent as one of my father’s chess pieces. I was surprised the slap hadn’t shattered her into a thousand bits. I didn’t know what to say or how to unsay what had been said, so I said nothing. Instead, I laid a hand on her knee. She pushed my hand away.
“I want my gun back,” she said.
“Why do you want your gun back?”
“So I can shoot you.”
“Then you’re definitely not getting your gun back.”
“Can I have it back to shoot all the rats?”
I sighed. “We don’t have enough bullets.”
“Then we poison them.”