Was the letter a matter of life or death?
Cecilia didn’t hesitate. She got out of bed, walked down the hallway in the dark and into the office. She switched on the desk lamp, slid open the top drawer of the filing cabinet and pulled out the red manila folder marked “Wills.”
She sat down in the leather chair, swiveled it to face the desk and opened the file in the little pool of yellow light created by the desk light.
For my wife, Cecilia Fitzpatrick. To be opened only in the event of my death.
She opened the top drawer, took out the letter opener.
There were frantic footsteps above her head, a thud as something fell over. He sounded like a crazy man. It occurred to her that for him to be back in Australia now, he must have gone straight to the airport after she called last night.
For Christ’s sake, John-Paul, what in the world is going on?
With one swift, vicious movement, she sliced the envelope open. She pulled out a handwritten letter. For a moment her eyes couldn’t focus. The words danced about in front of her.
our baby girl, Isabel
so sorry to leave you with this
given me more happiness than I ever deserved
She forced herself to read it properly. Left to right. Sentence by sentence.
SIXTEEN
Tess woke up suddenly, irretrievably alert. She looked at the digital clock next to her bed and groaned. It was only eleven thirty p.m. She snapped on the bedside light and lay back on her pillow, staring up at the ceiling.
This was her old bedroom, but there wasn’t anything much left in it to remind her of her childhood. Tess had barely been out the door before her mother had transformed it into an elegant guest bedroom with a good queen-size bed, matching bedside tables and lamps. This was in complete contrast to Aunt Mary, who had reverently left Felicity’s bedroom exactly as she’d left it. Felicity’s room was like a perfectly preserved archaeological site, with the TV Week posters still on the wall.
The only part of Tess’s bedroom that had been left untouched was the ceiling. She let her eyes follow the rippled edge of the white cornices. She used to lie in bed staring at the ceiling on Sunday mornings, worrying about what she’d said at last night’s party, or what she hadn’t said, or what she should have said. Parties had terrified her. Parties still terrified her. It was the lack of structure, the casualness, the not knowing where to sit. If it weren’t for Felicity she would never have gone, but Felicity was always keen to go. She’d stand with Tess in a corner, quietly delivering cutting critiques on all the guests and making Tess laugh.
Felicity had been her savior.
Wasn’t that true?
Tonight, when she and her mother had sat down for a glass of brandy and too much chocolate—“This is how I coped when your father left,” Lucy had explained. “It’s medicinal”—they’d been talking about Felicity’s phone call, and Tess said, “The other night, you guessed that it was Will and Felicity. How did you know?”
“Felicity never let you have anything just for yourself,” said her mother.
“What?” Tess had been bemused, disbelieving. “That’s not true.”
“You wanted to learn the piano. Felicity learned the piano. You played netball. Felicity played netball. You got too good at netball, so Felicity was left behind; next thing—you’ve suddenly lost interest in netball. You get a career in advertising. What a surprise! Felicity gets a career in advertising.”
“Oh, Mum,” said Tess. “I don’t know. You make it sound so calculated. We just liked doing the same things. Anyway, Felicity is a graphic designer! I was an advertising manager. They’re quite different.”