The Grapes of Wrath(185)
Pa grinned with embarrassment. “Now it ain’t good to have the little fellas hear you talkin’ like that,” he said.
“You get some bacon inside the little fellas ’fore you come tellin’ what else is good for ’em,” said Ma.
Pa got up in disgust and moved away, and Uncle John followed him.
Ma’s hands were busy in the water, but she watched them go, and she said proudly to Tom, “He’s all right. He ain’t beat. He’s like as not to take a smack at me.”
Tom laughed. “You jus’ a-treadin’ him on?”
“Sure,” said Ma. “Take a man, he can get worried an’ worried, an’ it eats out his liver, an’ purty soon he’ll jus’ lay down and die with his heart et out. But if you can take an’ make ’im mad, why, he’ll be awright. Pa, he didn’ say nothin’, but he’s mad now. He’ll show me now. He’s awright.”
Al got up. “I’m gonna walk down the row,” he said.
“Better see the truck’s ready to go,” Tom warned him.
“She’s ready.”
“If she ain’t, I’ll turn Ma on ya.”
“She’s ready.” Al strolled jauntily along the row of tents.
Tom sighed. “I’m a-gettin’ tired, Ma. How ’bout makin’ me mad?”
“You got more sense, Tom. I don’ need to make you mad. I got to lean on you. Them others—they’re kinda strangers, all but you. You won’t give up, Tom.”
The job fell on him. “I don’ like it,” he said. “I wanta go out like Al. An’ I wanta get mad like Pa, an’ I wanta get drunk like Uncle John.”
Ma shook her head. “You can’t, Tom. I know. I knowed from the time you was a little fella. You can’t. They’s some folks that’s just theirself an’ nothin’ more. There’s Al—he’s jus’ a young fella after a girl. You wasn’t never like that, Tom.”
“Sure I was,” said Tom. “Still am.”
“No you ain’t. Ever’thing you do is more’n you. When they sent you up to prison I knowed it. You’re spoke for.”
“Now, Ma—cut it out. It ain’t true. It’s all in your head.”
She stacked the knives and forks on top of the plates. “Maybe. Maybe it’s in my head. Rosasharn, you wipe up these here an’ put ’em away.”
The girl got breathlessly to her feet and her swollen middle hung out in front of her. She moved sluggishly to the box and picked up a washed dish.
Tom said, “Gettin’ so tightful it’s a-pullin’ her eyes wide.”
“Don’t you go a-jollyin’,” said Ma. “She’s doin’ good. You go ’long an’ say goo’-by to anybody you wan’.”
“O.K.,” he said. “I’m gonna see how far it is up there.”
Ma said to the girl, “He ain’t sayin’ stuff like that to make you feel bad. Where’s Ruthie an’ Winfiel’?”
“They snuck off after Pa. I seen ’em.”
“Well, leave ’em go.”
Rose of Sharon moved sluggishly about her work. Ma inspected her cautiously. “You feelin’ pretty good? Your cheeks is kinda saggy.”
“I ain’t had milk like they said I ought.”
“I know. We jus’ didn’ have no milk.”
Rose of Sharon said dully, “Ef Connie hadn’ went away, we’d a had a little house by now, with him studyin’ an’ all. Would a got milk like I need. Would a had a nice baby. This here baby ain’t gonna be no good. I ought a had milk.” She reached in her apron pocket and put something into her mouth.
Ma said, “I seen you nibblin’ on somepin. What you eatin’?”
“Nothin’.”
“Come on, what you nibblin’ on?”
“Jus’ a piece a slack lime. Foun’ a big hunk.”
“Why, tha’s jus’ like eatin’ dirt.”
“I kinda feel like I wan’ it.”
Ma was silent. She spread her knees and tightened her skirt. “I know,” she said at last. “I et coal oncet when I was in a fambly way. Et a big piece a coal. Granma says I shouldn’. Don’ you say that about the baby. You got no right even to think it.”
“Got no husban’! Got no milk!”
Ma said, “If you was a well girl, I’d take a whang at you. Right in the face.” She got up and went inside the tent. She came out and stood in front of Rose of Sharon, and she held out her hand. “Look!” The small gold earrings were in her hand. “These is for you.”