"It's a matter of trust, isn't it? When it comes to the bottom line, Johanna, you have to trust me. Can you do that?"
"Can I trust you? To keep up the place? I suppose so. Just don't expect more than that of me. I've learned to take care of myself over the years. I don't need anyone to do for me. I'll let you tend to the heavy work, gladly. But I'll not come to depend on you, Tate. I've learned that lesson well. I've allowed myself to … care about people. It won't happen again."
"You care already for my sons."
Spoken as a statement of fact, the words drew no argument from her. "Yes, you're right there. They're young and helpless. They need someone to tend them."
"And you don't?"
"Need someone? No, I've learned better." She folded her arms around her waist, a shiver passing through her slim shoulders beneath the warmth of the shawl.
His eyes caught the movement, even in the shadowed room. "You're cold, Johanna. Leave this for tonight. Tomorrow will be soon enough to set things to rights in here."
She walked out the door before him, her steps taking her into the hallway and toward the staircase. "I don't hear the boys. They must have gone to sleep." She looked up the stairway, then back at the man who watched her in the lamplight. "Good night, Tate. Will you turn out the lamp when you come up?"
He nodded, handing her the candlestick that waited on the hall table, lighting a match from the box she kept there. "Will you want the lamp lit in your room? Or will this be enough light for tonight?"
"This is fine. I only need to get ready for bed. I can do that in the dark," she said briskly, suddenly unwilling to feel his eyes on her any longer. "I get up early, Tate. Breakfast will be ready as soon as the cows get milked."
"I'll be milking them from now on," he reminded her. "I may not be as quick as you are at the job." His grin teased her. "I may need a refresher course."
She picked up her skirt to take the first step. "You'll do just fine, I think. No matter, we'll wait for you. And if you take too long, I'm still able to give you a hand."
"I'm teasing you, Johanna. I've done my share of milking. I won't make you wait meals for me. Just cook plenty. I plan on working up a good appetite in the barn."
"I've fed you the past two mornings. I have a good idea about your appetite, Mr. Montgomery," she said smartly.
He watched her climb the stairs, noting the slight sway of her hips beneath the muslin gown she wore. His eyes caught sight of her slim ankles above the low shoes she'd slipped into after church this morning. Limned in the candleglow, her form drew his gaze, her hair a fine halo in the gentle light, giving her an ethereal elegance.
"No, ma'am," he murmured beneath his breath. "You have no idea at all about my appetite. Matter of fact, till just this minute, I wasn't sure I had much left to speak of." And that was the truth, he thought, his grin rueful.
"Good night, Mrs. Montgomery," he said quietly, even as he heard the latch of her bedroom door shut.
Chapter Six
She'd survived two weeks of marriage. Johanna mentally marked the date on the calendar, and a sense of satisfaction curved her lips in a smile. It had been a busy two weeks, too, what with making several trips to town, facing the glances of the curious the first time out. After that, it had been easier.
Even in church on Sunday, they'd been greeted by one and all, with hardly a raised eyebrow to be seen among the congregation at Johanna Patterson's quick trip to the altar.
Tate was ambitious, she'd give him that, working from early till late. Today was no exception, breakfast barely swallowed before he hustled out the door. He'd lingered only long enough to place a warm hand on her shoulder, reminding her of a button he'd managed to lose from his shirt last evening. She'd agreed to replace it, her mind taken up with the touch of his hand, flustered by his nearness.
And then he'd been gone, leaving her to consider the strange awareness he aroused within her. He was a toucher; she'd noticed that with the boys, and he was given more and more to gaining her attention with a passing brush of those long fingers and broad palms against her arm or waist when the mood struck him.
From outdoors, a squeal of laughter and a shout from Timmy commanding his brother to "Watch me now!" caught her attention, bringing a smile to Johanna's lips. Whatever the little scamps were up to, it sounded as if they were enjoying it mightily. Another whoop of glee caught her attention, and she left the sink, wiping her hands on the front of her apron.
From the doorway, she watched as Pete scampered from beyond the side of the barn. He carried handfuls of straw, tossing it in the air, blowing it vigorously, trying without much success to keep one piece afloat on the updraft his small lungs provided.
Johanna laughed, pleased at his carefree expression, relieved that the frown he'd worn like a favorite garment over the past weeks seemed to have disappeared.
"Watch me slide!" Timmy's high voice demanded attention once more, and Johanna halted midway to the stove.
Slide? What on earth could the child be doing? Where was he playing? The only thing around the corner of the barn was the big strawstack.
And in that moment, she knew.
Spinning on her heels, one hand outstretched to open the screen door, she ran. From the corner of the barn, Pete caught sight of her flying footsteps, dropping the remnants of straw he held, his eyes darkening as he watched her advance.
"Pete, have you been playing on the strawstack?" Her hands held the. front of her dress from the ground as she hurried past him, not awaiting his reply, already certain of what she would see as she rounded the corner.
"Pete? Are you watchin' me?" Feet poking holes kneedeep as he climbed, Timmy was tackling the far side of the stack, gleefully chuckling as he plunged into the smoothly layered straw.
Johanna's hand lifted to cover her mouth as she watched, her aggravation at the ruin of the stack diluted by the child's pleasure. Once more down the slope wouldn't cause any more damage than he'd already done, she decided with a grimace.
Finally reaching the top, Timmy levered himself into place, and with a final whoop sailed down the smooth slope, landing in a pile of yellow straw. He lifted both hands to his face, brushing the floating wisps of straw from his eyes, catching sight of Johanna as he blinked.
"Did you see me, Miss Johanna?" Pride and laughter fought for supremacy in his chortled query as he knelt at the foot of her ruined strawstack.
"Yes, I saw you, Timmy." Her voice was a dead giveaway, she knew, all harsh and breathless from her hurried trip across the yard. "You boys had no business climbing the strawstack. You've managed to make holes all over it for the rain to get in. It'll be ruined if we don't get it under cover before a shower comes up. Your pa has enough to do, without this kind of a mess to take care of."
Behind her, a snort of impatience announced Pete. "You just don't want us to have any fun. You think we should just work all the time on your old farm."
Johanna spun to face him. His jaw jutted forward as he completed his accusations, and his eyes squinted at her in the bright sunlight. Hands stuffed in his pockets, he stood spraddle-legged at the corner of the barn, defiance alive in his glare.
"Don't you know better than to play in the straw, Pete?" Living on a farm all his life as he had, surely his father had warned him about ruining a stack of straw. Canvas was hard to come by, but once the pile was disturbed, the rain would not slide from its surface, and only the heavy fabric would keep the stack dry and usable.
"My pa always let us have fun back home," the boy answered, his mouth drawn into a pout.
"I want you to have fun here," Johanna said quickly. "But not at the expense-" She drew a deep breath. It was no use scolding any longer. She'd only succeeded in making the child angry as it was, and poor Timmy was crouched in a pile of straw, looking as if he were about to be scalped.
"I'm sorry to have shouted at you. What's done is done." Johanna reached one hand to Timmy, taking several steps to where he squatted, almost in the cave where she'd pitched out straw from the side of the stack. "It's time for dinner. Come up to the house and get washed up," she told him, waiting for him to take her hand.
With a quick look at his brother, Timmy nodded, standing and accepting the hand she offered. "We was just climbing the mountain," he explained, his brow furrowing, his nose wrinkling as he sought to move a straw resting there.