The tenseness of her muscles dissipated and she relaxed against him, her sobs gradually slowing.
He reached down and stroked her hair, just like she'd been doing for Alice. He put his hand under her chin and tipped her face up towards his. "Lisa? Tell me what's wrong? Is this just about Alice?"
Her bottom lip trembled and her eyes were heavy with tears. She nodded for a second and then shook her head, resting it against his chest again. Her voice was low. "I know," she whispered. "I know how sick she feels … and what could lie ahead for her. I know how hard this is for her, and for her family."
Something gripped his chest like a vise. "You had leukaemia?"
She shook her head and looked up towards him as a stream of tears rolled down her cheeks. "I didn't. My sister did. Grace, she was looked after here. For a long time this place was like my second home."
It was just the way she said the words. The cracking of her voice. The emotion in her tone. He had to ask the question, even though he was sure of the answer. "What happened to her?"
Lisa squeezed her eyes shut. "She died." Saying the words out loud obviously pained her. "She died when she was eight."
He couldn't explain the empathy that swept over him. He'd always been sympathetic towards patients and families. But this felt different. This was real put-yourself-in-her-shoes kind of stuff. No wonder Lisa volunteered here. No wonder she was so invested in this place.
Lots of people struggled with hospitals. For some families hospitals were only associated with bad or painful memories. Only a select few could turn it around like Lisa had.
And she'd been so strong for Alice – even when she was obviously falling apart inside.
He kept his arms around her, letting the warmth of her body meld with his. He didn't care about her reactions the other night. He didn't care about the tiny seeds of doubt that had wiggled their way into his mind.
This was what mattered. This was what was important.
"I'm so sorry about your sister," he murmured. "Now I understand why you like to volunteer here." He took a long slow breath. "I get it," he said. "You were making a difference tonight with Alice – just like you were with Mrs. Goldman. Sometimes the work that volunteers do goes unnoticed – or unaccredited. Don't think for a moment you're not making a difference here, because you are."
After a few minutes she lifted her head towards his. Her eyelids were heavy. "Thank you." She whispered. Her breaths were still shuddery. The little pulse at the bottom of her throat racing underneath the skin. He lifted his hand and slid it through her hair at the side of her head.
"You should have told me. I knew Mary wasn't saying something."
She lifted her hand and rested it against her chest. "She wouldn't. Mary was the nurse that held me when my sister died – she'd just started here. I can still remember how good she was with Grace – with us all. It was her that encouraged me to be a volunteer."
"You've been doing this a while?"
She gave a little smile. "Since the year after my sister died. There's no age restrictions on volunteers. Melody and I used to come in and play with the other kids in the children's ward on weekends."
He smiled. "You've been coming here that long?"
She finished drying her eyes and nodded her head. There was something surer about it – a determination.
He slid his arm around her shoulders. "Have you time for a coffee? Let's go to the canteen."
As he opened the door he didn't even take his hand from her shoulders. He didn't really care about anyone seeing him with Lisa.
Mary raised her head from the desk, the edges of her lips turning upwards. "I'll page you if I need you, Dr. Brady," she said.
Chapter Eight
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What had possessed her? She wasn't exactly the world's finest cook but after today's incident at the hospital she'd asked Adam if he wanted to come for dinner.
Now, she was mid-panic. A long time ago she'd owned a recipe book that was her mother's. Where it was now was anyone's guess. Her food repertoire wasn't vast. Roast chicken, an almost passable lasagne, some penne pasta with the whole world thrown in and some kind of spicy sauce or lentil soup. That was basically the sum total of what she could cook. Hardly invite a guy round kind of thing.
Maybe she could just bake? Baking was definitely her thing. Cheesecakes, carrot cake, apple pie, cookies, cream gateaux, red velvet cake or huckleberry dessert – any one of them she could whip up in a heartbeat.
She looked around the kitchen and grabbed her apron, a smile dancing across her lips. Adam would probably expect a steak or some burgers or ribs. Let's see what he would make of this.
*
He couldn't believe how nervous he was as he reached out and rang the bell. This was ridiculous. But it felt as though there was a party going on in his stomach right now.
He leaned forward a little. Was that laughter he could hear?
He pressed the bell again. Music was floating through the air. Some kind of country and western style and there was definitely singing.
The door was flung open. Lisa, with an apron on and flour on the tip of her nose and ends of her hair.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"Come in," she said a little merrier than expected. She gestured him in towards her open plan kitchen and living room.
The apartment above the bridal salon was bigger than he expected with large windows looking out over the street.
His eyes widened. The dining room table was groaning with the amount of cakes and pies on it. He couldn't help but smile. "Is this some kind of party? I thought we were having dinner?" He handed over the bunch of flowers he was currently gripping too tightly. There were lucky to still be alive.
Lisa looked touched as she took them. She buried her flour-covered nose amongst them and breathed deeply. "These are gorgeous, thank you," she walked over to the sink and started filling a vase. "And look, red gerberas and purple larkspurs – my favorites." She gave a little smile. "It's almost as if you knew."
He sent a silent prayer upwards for his lucky break. Just as well Kaitlin in the florists had told him exactly what to get.
As she stood at the sink he tried not to stare. It hadn't been obvious at first because of the apron – but Lisa wasn't exactly fully dressed. Her long legs and pert bum were exposed by a pair of skimpy denim shorts coupled with a white t-shirt. All his thoughts right now involved licking that flour off the tip of her nose.
Once she'd put the flowers in the vase and set it on the middle of the table she opened the fridge and lifted out an open bottle of sparkling wine. She held it up towards Adam. "Want some? Or I got you some beer, what would you prefer?"
It was a loaded question. Now he knew the reason for the merriment. What he really wanted to say was You, out of those shorts but he didn't think he could go there yet.
He pointed to the bottle. "I'll have what you're having," seemed the obvious response.
Her own glass mysteriously appeared from the kitchen counter top and she reached up for another. Her loose shirt shucking up to reveal her bare-skinned waist. This time he just couldn't help but stare.
It was almost as if she knew. She filled the two glasses and then untied the apron, dumping it on the counter top. She looked down at her shorts and her white button-down t-shirt. Most of the buttons weren't fastened. He was getting the tiniest hint of cleavage. He was hoping it stayed that way.
"Oops," she said. "I meant to get changed before you arrived." Her hand swept over the array of cakes. "But I guess I got carried away."
He turned to face her. The atmosphere between them was charged. "Why did you do that?" He walked slowly around the table. "What's with all the cakes? Couldn't you decide what to make? I thought we were having dinner?"
She shrugged her shoulders. It was almost a pout. But Lisa probably didn't know how to pout. "I guess I was trying to impress you."
He raised his eyebrows. "And why would you want to do that?"
Another loaded question. They were getting good at these.
She handed him one of the glasses and stepped a little closer. "Give me a minute to get changed."
Her scent filled his nostrils. Flowery, peachy with a hint of something else.
He couldn't help it. As he reached for the glass his other hand reached out and grabbed her wrist. "Don't," he said quietly.