“Do you think what you did in Boston brought the dream back?”
“I don’t know. Probably.”
He was silent for a moment, then said very quietly, “So this was why you were so sure exactly what Marlin was going to do. It wasn’t just the Profilers’ reports, it wasn’t all the study you’ve done during the past seven years, all the thought you’ve given to it. You knew every step. Because of the dream, you knew each move to make, each move he would make.”
“Yes. But it still doesn’t make any sense, does it?”
“Not just this moment, but it will sooner or later.”
“I have studied him. The Profilers had it right—he hated women who cursed, and that’s why he cut out their tongues. What they couldn’t have been certain about was that the women also bad-mouthed their husbands. But I knew it was true. That’s why I had to be the bait—I knew exactly how to get him to come after me, I knew which buttons to push. He didn’t have to doubt for a second that I was the best candidate for punishment around.
“But there was a difference that I realized just now. In my dream, when the murderer raised the knife, it wasn’t the same way that Marlin raised his knife in the center of the maze in Boston. It wasn’t so vicious in the dream. It was as if he—”
“As if what?”
“As if he wasn’t really serious, but I knew he was and I was scared to death. I’m sorry. That doesn’t make a lick of sense.”
He thought about that a moment, then said, “But in Boston, you’d put him on the defensive. He wasn’t facing a terrified, helpless woman. That could make the difference.” He tightened his arm around her again. “Listen to me. Even if that damned dream does continue on some night in the future, even if he does stick a knife into you, you can’t die. It’s just a dream. You’ve got to believe that. As real as it seems, it still isn’t. It never will be.”
She shuddered, then was quiet against him. Her hand had been fisted on his chest. He’d managed to ignore it, but now her hand was lower, nearly to his belly. His breathing speeded up.
“What do you think it all means?”
He thought about that a long time. It took him longer than usual because he was hard, his heart was pounding fast and strong, and he was having a good deal of difficulty concentrating. His brain no longer had any control. He wanted to pull that beautiful soft peach nightgown over her head and—
“I don’t know. It’s almost as if you have some connection with Belinda. No, that sounds like psychic nonsense. But regardless, there’s got to be something there. Something that happened that you don’t remember. Don’t you think?”
Her hand was now a fist on his belly. “I don’t know. What could have happened? Why wouldn’t I remember? I was never hurt at that time. No trauma or head wound of any kind.”
He laid his own hand over hers, pressing down until her fingers splayed over him, her palm soft and flat against his flesh. “Just relax. Everything will be all right. I know a woman who could help take you back to what really happened. There’s got to be something from seven years ago, something that triggered this, something you’ve blocked out that’s resurfacing. Yes, if anyone can get to the bottom of this, she can. But don’t worry about it anymore right now.”
“You really think she’ll help us?”
“I really think so. Since this all started, I knew there was something you were keeping from me. You promise this is all of it?”
“Yes.” The terror was gone. She didn’t even care that this woman he was talking about was probably a shrink. She could see him in the dull morning light, she could feel the strength of him, the deep smooth muscles, the texture of his flesh. She didn’t feel anything remotely close to terror now. She felt something she didn’t think she’d ever felt in her life. The feel of him beneath her palm, beneath her fingers, it made her so alive her body was thrumming with the power of it.
“Dillon?”
“Hmmm?” He didn’t know if he had any more words available to him. His brain was all in his groin, need for her was raging through him, making him shake, and it took everything in him to keep control.
“I feel really warm, but warmer in some places than in others. My shoulders feel really cool, but not other parts of me, like my chest.”
She was seducing him? No, that couldn’t be right. He prayed that it was, then cursed himself. He had to get out of there. He should be back in his own bedroom, with two doors closed between them. He cleared his throat. “Talking would help, but if you can’t talk, then I’ll go back to my own room. That would be the smart thing to do, going back to my room this very instant would be the very smartest thing to do.”