“What’s really holding you back from adopting your niece?” she blurted out. She held her breath, because suddenly all the air seemed to have left the room. And the man that had been staring at her like he was about to make love to her mouth now looked as though he was ready to storm out of the room.
Just when she thought he was going to tell her to go to hell, his features turned calm. Eerily calm. “You did that on purpose, didn’t you?” His words came out softly, but were laced with disappointment and accusation.
She felt her heart skip. “What do you mean?”
“We were having a nice time and you got scared. You brought up Louise’s daughter to turn the conversation away from you and to kill any desire between us.” She knew her face burned brightly, but she didn’t answer him. He was only partially right.
“You don’t want your niece to suffer because of Louise’s mistakes.”
“Louise knew what she was doing. I’m not going to pick up her mess anymore.”
“A baby is not a mess,” she said, her voice shaking with anger.
“Back off, Hannah,” he said, walking away from her to stand in front of the fire.
“It’s going to hurt you more in the long run, Jackson,” she said speaking to his back.
“Somehow I doubt that.”
“It will eat away at you. You are not the person you pretend to be. You are warm and you know how to love. I feel it, I sense it.”
“Don’t mistake desire for a beautiful woman for warmth and love,” he snapped, turning to look at her. “Hannah, you have this naive, idealistic idea of who I am, but trust me, you’re wrong. Not everyone is capable of being perfect like you, of doing the right thing.”
She crossed her arms and looked at him accusingly. “Really? Then why didn’t you let me drive home two nights ago?”
“I wasn’t about to let a single woman drive those roads alone at night,” he said with a shrug.
She smiled. “So you have a heart.”
“Providing a stranger shelter from a storm and adopting a child are two entirely different things. Look, I even turn out the lights when an elderly couple comes looking for me. Not father material.”
“Don’t joke, and don’t let your inability to forgive your sister prevent you from doing the right thing.”
He turned his back to her again. The room was quiet, so still that it seemed surreal. The moon wasn’t visible through the snow and wind. And neither were Jackson’s thoughts.
“It looks like the storm will probably end sometime tomorrow morning,” Jackson said, hands in his pockets, staring out the window. Hannah felt her stomach flip-flop as the reality of leaving set in. Things were more complicated now than before she arrived. She still hadn’t convinced Jackson to even consider adopting Emily, and she had developed feelings for a man she should despise. Minutes passed as though Jackson had forgotten she was even in the room. Hannah toyed with the idea of having one more glass of whiskey, even though she knew that wouldn’t solve anything. What she needed was divine intervention.
“Hannah, I admire your determination and your ability to fight for what you believe in. You’re very convincing.” His expression wasn’t angry. He looked thoughtful and pensive.
Hope bloomed in Hannah’s heart. Had she actually gotten through to him? Was this the miracle she’d been waiting for? “Really?” she whispered, meeting his gaze. She felt her palms turn sweaty as she waited for him to continue.
“What if I set up a trust fund for my niece? She’ll never have to worry about expenses or anything. It’ll be more money than she’ll need to live a wonderful life. She can even come and visit on holidays.”
Hannah was unable to move for a minute. She processed what he said, wondering if there was some way she was misinterpreting. But there wasn’t. She jumped up off the couch, her body trembling, her hands fisted at her sides. “What kind of cop-out, selfish, make-yourself-feel-like-a-hero kind of plan is that?” Through her rage she saw the genuine surprise on his face. “What, so she’s going to come and see her rich uncle once a year and then go back to her foster home? Hey, you know if you register Emily as a charity, maybe you can claim all the money you give to her as a tax write-off too! I thought you were an intelligent man, but you’re a selfish, uncaring idiot!” Hannah yelled, resisting the urge to pummel his chest with her fists.
“Let’s get something straight,” he said leaning down so they were eye to eye. “I never claimed to be a saint. You came here, with your own naive expectations. What were you thinking? I’d just change my whole life for a baby I don’t know? For a sister who didn’t give a damn about her family?” He straightened up abruptly and then walked away from her, his long, angry stride taking him to the front door in an instant. She watched him shrug into his coat and didn’t want him to have the last word, because his last words weren’t good enough.